I forgot to mention, I shown my husband those videos of when he was drinking and being really mean... he told me “can you stop showing me these, it’s making me angry at myself” and “that’s only when I’m drunk” (which isn’t true, I mean he is worse when he drinks though” and something along the lines of “you were saying things you knew would bring that out” (though less mean, I just didn’t know how he worded this one, it wasn’t as mean sounding as what I wrote at all, but similar message when it comes down to it” But yeah, this is EXACTLY why I ask him to please stop drinking, to drink a lot less, he always drinks to the point of being drunk, the least he drinks is....maybe a week between drinking?