So guess who fell down half of the stairs, me, I was trying to help my granny decorate her house for Christmas because she can't with her still recovering from her knee replacement and hip replacement surgeries, and I sat a big clear tub full of ornaments down on the half way point and asked my sister to come get it the rest of the way. I turned around and then the next thing I know I've fallen with a loud thud, I go "ow" and then the worst pain I have ever felt in my life shoots through my foot and ankle and I start hyperventilating like I'm in labor. Disappointed in myself that I didn't go " Help I've fallen and I can't get up." I missed a golden opportunity to say that.
“It’s okay. It’s gonna be okay.”
James doesn't quite believe her. He believes her with most things. Everything. She knows far more about the world as a whole than he ever has, ever will, and it's one of many things he adores about her. She's shameless about it, too; having held so much pride in her grades, and her differences, and her position as Slughorn's favourite student, and McGonagall's. Everything she had learned from her parents, her sister, from home, a world James knew so little about, she eats up every ounce of information, keeping it stored carefully away from when she needs it most. In the real world, outside the castle walls, Lily blooms, growing into so much more than he could have ever imagined, - because she's smart. And she's always right. James loves her. James knows she wouldn't lie. And still, those six words feel fake, like a knife in his back, like some kind of mockery. It's not her intention, he knows, but the letter sits in his shaking hands, pinched between calloused fingers, and nothing feels real any more. His mother is dying. The inevitability of it looms over his shoulder, haunting, curled around the nape of his neck like a cool breeze, sending a shiver down his spine. His parents are young in heart, and that's something he's always known, but their age has begun to show. Scrawled handwriting in their letters, more visits to the healers, more time needed to rest when they visit. It's little things that add up, brush-strokes that paint a whole picture, but losing his parents before he's even seen twenty is - He doesn't like it. Lily repeats her words, an arm curling around his shoulders from where she had been stood behind him. For a brief moment, her warm embrace replaces the cold clutch of fear that had seized him, and James leans into her hold, looking down at the letter again. It's only a matter of time.