I HATE IT - Blog Posts
Had to start over and I hate it :)
y’know what i hate? drawing armour
no i wont apologize
what an absolute shit day it was yesterday...
being mentally prepared for a task, only to fuck it up and being mentally assaulted and now view anything family related as toxic, fuck my miserable life.
Now I can't use my computer no more, it's no longer functional, need a job, need money, need to perchase new pc, or in another term: am broke...
Happy new year to whoever read my post.
it hit a new low today, 4:45.01, i try my best to control my frustration, but when i bring up the topic of US Civil war after asking about federation, all of a sudden my family decide to not CARE about historical facts and called it "the North trying to dominate the South" and treating the whole slavery thing as "bullshit justification mask" or some shit, i don't know, and they ain't even Americans... FUCK.
My PC keep acting weirder and weirder, first it was a freeze, then a crash, and then everything slowing down to the point of being unusable like the freeze state, at least I could mostly move my mouse, but it meant jack when my beloved PC act that way, do y'all know how screwed I am economically?, I can't afford high quality PC that's better than the current one...
After 11 odd days/try without interruption, it finally FREEZED in 7:00.52, Fuck.
My PC keep acting weirder and weirder, first it was a freeze, then a crash, and then everything slowing down to the point of being unusable like the freeze state, at least I could mostly move my mouse, but it meant jack when my beloved PC act that way, do y'all know how screwed I am economically?, I can't afford high quality PC that's better than the current one...
My PC keep acting weirder and weirder, first it was a freeze, then a crash, and then everything slowing down to the point of being unusable like the freeze state, at least I could mostly move my mouse, but it meant jack when my beloved PC act that way, do y'all know how screwed I am economically?, I can't afford high quality PC that's better than the current one...
life has to get difficult, now near the end of this month and my dear computer now froze at random time when first booted-up, so i had to close the bitch, turn it off, clean it with lil feathers i have, then adjust it's nightmarish messy of a cables and wires, before turning it on and open it up, only done EVERYTIME the PC freeze at random when the screen display lil lines and can't move me mouse or anything move at all in that case.
got new mobile, but i owe my Ma 145 worth of cash.
got new phone that should replace my old tablet and my old phone, it does what tablet does but fine and on smaller screen, couldn't replace my old phone tho due to the Sim card being Too big for the new phone (ironic considering the new bigger than the old), things will setting up and all will be fine, and i try play steam with steam link, suffice to say i didn't had a great time with it.
however i owe my mother, second important member of my family and someone i wish wasn't as awful as she is now (mentally and physically), 145 worth of US dollar, and considering the economic bastardization of my country i live in, i'd go this year without the possibility of gaining the ability that is the power of purchasing via credit card, great. (sidenote: my brother warn me not to charge my phone while sleeping as the phone charge fast, referencing the fact that i did the same thing with my tablet because charging was slow as hell)
welp, here goes my favorite tablet, it black out at 60%, then 70%, then 80%, now barely exiting 90% and it dead, only charging it can bring it back, it act JUST LIKE the old one when i try playing angry birds epic, now i gonna settle to buy a phone that will function as a portable entertainment device AND a communication device, which will be smaller both in size and screen... Fuck.
Me: i Hate Spelunky. Also Me:
*reset spelunky's old stats and start anew*
sweet mother of holy cow, i only got out of a maze-like cave abomination from my starting area, and went to collect sugar cane near my house for making books for making bookshelf of which will be placed near my enchanting table room, only to be attacked by the most powerful mob from the classic overworld mobs set ever, i was lucky i had my man-made fishing area near me, but i'll be lying if i said i wasn't scared...
i wish i could've screenshot the moment, but was too traumatized to do it in such a dangerous situation....
Blue screen strike back
...again
my Keyboard Is now broKen, great, just fucKIng great.
now I have to buy a new one, less I can't wrIte shIt, I hate It, why?
that's the fifth day in a row.
where's my computer act like i rob it from a dead corpse but barely working as intended...
doesn't make it better that's my speakers are sound lower when it is in 40 than before, my rush is my downfall...
FUN!!!111!!1!!!
Since june 4 and my dear computer blue screen me every so often whenever i try to use it For ANYTHING, AT ALL,WHY?!.
deep down inside-a me, i knew i shouldn't played it, but it was hard to ignore, a game i first play-a when it was just a demo in 2018 on October, in the end, i give in-a, and my sanity be damned after i've played it, hope it worth every second i spent of that game.
screw it, gonna upload this shit, hope tumblr isn't bother by it.
old description:
and last time i do a thread in 4chan
i'm officially leaving 4chan for good, it's was a good time when sun and moon didn't came out, i was fishing here and there for fanart and s**t like that, but that changes, after sun and moon came out for like 3 or 4 months, i tried to fish something out of /vp/ and i got nothing, nothing but old official art and art that is stolen from another website.
in this thread, i tried to get some ballio fanart before this creepy fake-a$$ clown fate out, these people downright disrespect me so bad, the last one was the nicest out of these a$$hole
goodbye 4chan, may see you shutdown, FOREVER.
edit: forgot that long post = lower quality, so here's a more clear veriosn: https://i.imgur.com/RpuCsHM.jpg
second edit: jesus, this shit ain't good, i took a look at it, and i don't like how i behave in 4chan, maybe that's the reason why they IP banned me, fucking bastards, full of racists and bigots anyway.
i deleted cuphead game after finishing it.
sorry for you to read that loud.
(note: i saved the savefile from cuphead for later, so it's not all lost)
FUCKING 44%?!, THE FUCK DID I MISS?, I BARELY BEAT THE 5 BOSSES, I KICKED THAT CHEF SALTBAKER'S BUTT, I BEAT EVEN THE SECRET GODDAMN BOSS, THE FUCK AM I MISSING?!
...antagonising chef saltbaker was a mistake...
edit: i don't want to finish it cause i delete it, stop telling me about the secret boss again, the angel and demon of the devil were the pain in my ass.
i'm gonna upload my sorrow onto this website...
hey, remember when-
-i made new friends?, when i draw good and got compliment from strangers?, when i made good joke and they laugh?, when i became famous and everyone i knew backed me up?, when i was loved and respected?.
yeah... me either.
at this point, i feel like i cannot bear my addiction toward the internet, that led me to a deep downward spiral.. in the past...
and if you want to view the uncensored version, get my permission first, and promise me you won't leak it, like, be a trustworthy person, but after what i went through, i have 00.03% chance of trusting you, strangers.
note: that was created in around 2020, but stopped in 2021 due to how fucked my life has became.
my (extremely dysfunctional) prison island in prison architect.
Why do all the old "modern" movies make me want to be a rich white woman in New York, walking down the street in an overcoat and heels and being a fashion designer for a famous magazine?
why in the name of Hades. Please spread awareness of this absolute, complete bullshit. And do what the top says and block anyone who falls under this flag! And I mean anyone, I want everyone to be safe
DONT SCROLL THIS IS IMPORTANT!
im begging anyone who sees this post to prevent rapesexual, im begging you. no one will see this but if you do reblog to get the message out that these fuckers exist and dont deserve to exist heres the flag so you can know who to fucking block, report and tell to fuck off
i dont want this to ruin the pride and help with self esteem of being lgbtq+ so a signal boost from larger accounts might be nice
