Hh - Blog Posts
day 3: tarot
Maison Talo and Jesus Saint, whaaaaat
Hooray, two of my favorite and abandoned fandoms, which are the most comfortable places for me.
It's a shame that I can't find people with whom I can discuss Saint young men... sniff
Wow my bpd is acting up fiercely this morning. It’s so...annoying. The paranoia...it’s sickeningly overwhelming Like I see you’re online, you’ve been online for a while, you haven’t even looked at my message. Did I upset you? Did I do something wrong? Do you secretly hate me? Are you... leaving me...?? Who is stealing you away from me? Is it them? God it gives me such anxiety in the deepest pits of my stomach. Its such a feeling that screams “You need to be perfect! You’re not perfect! BE BETTER BE BETTER! HE’S GOING TO LEAVE YOU” I need to be perfect or he’ll leave me for someone better. I’ll be replaced in an instant if I slack. It makes my skin crawl... I just want to cry so fucking bad. I want to break down. I want you to hold me so tight and close, and tell me you’re not going anywhere, ever. Never ever.
Please don’t leave me, I love you. I really do.
Nervous af
I have an important doctors appointment in like 6 hours. I have not slept. Been drinking wine off and on all night. Hhhh.... So nervous. So nervous so nervous. Anxious and scared. I just want to message him and have him comfort me but hes sleeping and I know hes only had a few hours but..HNG.. I need someone.
Hey y'all do we still like Hazbin Hotel..... I love Lucifer morningstar dearly I could talk about him all day.
ALSO ALASTOR ISNT A TWINK ANYMORE PLEASE DONT JUMP ME🙏 LOVE YALL