now i don't believe in any of that bullshit about interacting with too much horror media making you a danger to society or whatever but i do think it's had some kind of effect on me because why was my first thought when i heard a scary buzzing noise (which was my neighbour mowing the lawn with a handheld weedcutter) not any more eminently plausible and sensible conclusion i could have drawn, but instead "there is a wasp's nest inside my brain"