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The most heartbreaking thing about this panel/scene in general is that Hawks isn’t lying. It was supposed to be a lie. He’s supposed to be making up the most obscene things in order to trick the villains into thinking he’s on their side… but in this moment? Where he’s talking about the hero society turning out to be a bird cage that is locking him up? And how he wants to be free? It’s the honest to god truth and he knows it. Of all the times where he’s put on that fake smile, this is the one that actually looks painful.

Painful because it’s the truth. Painful because he has to use it as a lie. Painful because he’s never, ever opened up about it with anyone before but Twice, this man on the opposite side, his enemy… that he has started to grow attached to anyways. Hawks is bearing his heart to Jin in this moment, but he won’t ever know it. He’s going to be cut down, betrayed anyways because that’s just a part of this sickening job he’s stuck with to “protect people.”

Who will protect Hawks though, when he’s doing this mission singlehandedly, not being able to tell a soul about it? Who else is there to turn to but the villains around him? Little by little, he’s realizing more things about himself while infiltrating and it hits him harder than he could ever imagine.

Here, unlike his other half-hearted smiles, he can’t even open his eyes. He might actually show some emotion if he did that. He looks so… small and meager. He’s showing his teeth so awkwardly, like someone in complete submission, like someone who’s acting like it’s all okay but can crumble at any given moment. He’s crying out for help.