Thinking about the Pines twins is actually like chewing your way through wires only to see a guinea pig playset and more confusing wires. The somewhat beginning of their thirty year-long no-contact session was because of a book, a request, and a whole lot of longing. To Stan the book was partially what kept his brother from him besides himself and now it was all he had to bring his brother back. To Ford the book was the only way to save the world and he was entrusting it to his brother only to be let down.
Growing up as the Pines twins was rough. Ford was a trophy for his father but people don't sit their trophies on the couch with them and talk to them like people. Trophies are made for polishing and shelves and a ton of showing off. And no matter how big the trophy is it isn't big enough or worth enough. Ford was smart. He knew he was smart but it wasn't enough. Because if it were enough he would already have the answers and already have solved the problem. He couldn't see himself as good enough so how could Stan be? This man, his brother, that his father, the person that made him the brainiac better brother saw as worse than him being good enough? No. No he loves Stan but no. How could Stan be? How could anyone be? Even when he saw Dipper as an apprentice, Dipper needed improving, Dipper needed to change parts of his mindset to become enough. Ford was ruined by his father and ruined by Bill and ruined by the shelf he was forced to sit on. He was selfish in his own way, he was more shiny golden plaque with a pencil behind his ear than man by the time Bill got to him wasn't he? He pushed his brother away before Bill. Yes, that's true. He doesn't trust people. Yes, that's also true. In his eyes he trusted his brother to save the world from his crazy evil ex 2d creep boyfriend that wants to destroy his dimension and plenty more where that came from. And because he trusted him it all went bad. He got trapped in a portal and the crook that did it to him stole his identity, his titles, his degrees, and scuffed it in the mud. There's no excusing what they both did to each other but there are causes and there are reactions.
And when it comes to Stan yeah he's money crazy probably because his father messed him up too. The twins' father saw them as investments and money pouring into his pocket. Ford could buy him his ticket to retirement and own his own private bank with his smarts but what could Stan do? How much does being put out on the lawn with a for sale sign for only three bucks or more with your title being "other Stan" do to you? He needed money, he needed to become an investment somehow. Gambling for quick bucks? Yes, that's it! He was a dog but not man’s best friend. Maybe it would be enough but it would go on to haunt him for the rest of his life. By the time he came into money he had taken his brother's name, identity, house, and what else was left for him besides his mountain of debt? Who really made the money when his name wasn't his name, him or Ford? He needs a lot of cash to rebuild and fix up that portal anyways. Maybe his mother and the IRS agent could forgive what he's done, although his mother has always been an OG, enough to go to his fake funeral but could he forgive himself? Forgive himself for what he took and took and took and took? For what strange person he sees in the mirror with dimes between its teeth?
And yes he's selfish and seemingly only does things for his own benefit but imagine being trusted by one person, his brother, and one person only to do something right. Their father trusted Stan alright but he only trusted him to screw up and be the "other brother" yes the second Stan, the never Ford Stan. Imagine being trusted for once, trusted, by someone to even save the world possibly. And instead of saving the world you accidentally push that person into a portal and don't see them for the next thirty years. How is Stan supposed to trust himself to do anything right for anyone after that? He's greedy, but is he greedy for wanting his brother back knowing he's the reason he wants him back in the first place? He knows he did wrong but he just wants his brother. The world has taken every bit of dignity he wishes he had but his brother has to be off limits! At least according to him, the self sabotaging screw up. The look Ford gives him sure makes him feel like he's a greedy screw up. He's wearing the skin of the person he lost because of his own actions who saw him as a con artist and the suit of the man that didn't want him from the get-go who saw him as a cheap one trick pony.
When Ford saw his brother he saw his father. The person Stan and Ford were molded by and ruined by. This man was the wack job Bill probably wanted to turn him into meddling around up there. And he was wearing his name? Stan did a lot but to take Ford’s name? To turn Ford into this? Into what he was sculpted opposite from? Why? How? How could he forgive him for this after just getting out of the other dimension? He was a future hero! How could Stan make a future hero look so lame! And not only that, he'd remembered his brother being a loving but corny cheapskate with a sly tongue and a bit of scamming under his boots. Now that's the exact person he wants to get away from. Because that's who Bill was. Stan didn't want to be his father but maybe being his father would make him proud? Ford wanted to be good for their father. Maybe if Stan became their father Ford would turn to him and they could laugh for a while and only a while. Maybe that's a stretch but we can over-analyze and never stop with their dynamics.
They both pushed the people they cared about away. And they both want things out of each other that in their minds they'll probably never get from a brick wall. They're both greedy for things they feel deep down they'll never reach because of what the people around them made them out to be. Stan, being greedy for money if that's all you know him for. And Ford being greedy for the role of hero.
When Bill tried to call Stan and tell him Ford was going to end his life and leave him all alone to his BS? And to say that Ford never loved him in Ford's own body? Ford felt his heart drop for a minute until he noticed that the message hadn't been sent. He has things against his brother but to tell him that? To tell him he never loved him? No. Bill taught him to trust no one and in the other dimension he might've tried to hammer it into his brain but he couldn't. There was a brother shaped hole where his heart was and his six fingers couldn't crack the code on how to get rid of it. To Ford his trust was his love. He loved his brother but could he trust his brother now? Could he trust anyone now? Who knows. It's all over and there's a boat to sail at the end of it all. With his brother.
They're brothers. And it's messy but that's it. They're brothers.
There's obviously so much you could say about what Bill did to Ford mentally and a lot about the positive aspects having their mother around and not just their father and yada yada their father isn't their only trauma but isn't the home where it all begins?
Anyways, thanks for coming to my TED talk!
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If Bill had a mohawk, he would do it… like this? or… like this?
Monster Falls au my beloved
I don’t have a human Bill design so I used that old popular twink design lmao
Below is the photo that started this entire drawing- I had the thought “what if that but monster falls and t-posing?” Then “what if I put Bill in the family guy death pose too?” And now we have this. I love my brain sometimes :]
I’m currently on a trip so no more sculptures for a hot second, sorry bout that :’)
Day 4: 0’Sadleys
Here is a sad triangle for you guys
Day 3: Makeup Routine
*cough* he stole his wife mascara
Spoliers for the Book Of Bill
Day 1: Home Fragments
I will be drawing bill for a whole week straight. However this weeks challenge will be TBOB theme. I will be turning each days theme into fully render drawings.
Yonderboi's song of the same name. I'm a couple of days behind :P
Well, maybe later I’ll do a full painting, but for now I’ll post it like this.
I’m very ashamed to put tags when the characters are so unlike themselves😭
когда-нибудь обязательно начну писать фанфикшн по этой ау, но пока я в пучине сдачи долгов и подготовки к сессии
I'VE BEEN DOING THIS SINCE OCTOBER, I was thinking of submitting this to Billtober, but it doesn't really fit there (coz Bill isn't even here hahaha)
I took too long to draw the eyes and ended up not liking them bruh
thanks for your subscriptions and reposts, I'm really glad and surprised that so many people like my work🌊💋
Saw people talking more about these pages in journal 3 soooo
This lullaby hurt me so now I hurt you
It's a little late I guess but I feel like drawing them now, what can I do?
And yes, I don't ship them but I just wanted to draw them.
Actually, technically this is my first time drawing Ford, spare me
Okay I made a redesign to my ✨️Human Bill design✨️
Alternative/More Illustration-like versions. 👇
Sketches
Someone had to do it.
BRO WAİT WAİT WAİT WAİT WAİT WAİT WAİT OMG WOA AAAAA FİNİALY AAGAGAGAGAGGA OMG
Am I the only one who got so excited all of a sudden or-?
Welp, some Bill doodles. Angst Warning.
I actually didn't read Book Of Bill just knowing the spoilers. ( Don't worry I'm used to living with spoilers. )
Only Baby Bill is spoiler, actually. I drew the others according to myself. ( İncluding The Animation
Also a very little snippet from an angst animation I'm working on. CRİNGE WARNİNG
I'm going to regret sending this. :D
I'am just bored.
BOOK OF BİLL İS-
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Finally fanart for my favorite artist! @jozlyn-moon !
Twins are a must :)
I used the Polybius Cipher. Because I was too lazy to use other encryptions. :')
I love ur art Jozzzzzz!!! 💛💛💛💛
Other sketches and a little human/object head Bill outfit reference.
Yes, this is the only four.
" Flowing Flames "
Color palette for those who want :
Nothing to write.
I'm preparing the ask blog so here are some old drawings for now.
Have a good day!