(-sorry for the accidental venting type thing, just vaguely updating about my life since I haven't really been on in a year besides like...lurking?-) I haven't been active on here in ages, I'm sorry. I don't even know if anyone really follows me on here anymore since I haven't posted anything, I'm not consistent even though I try my hardest to be, which is bad for an artist who has been trying to make a living off of their art, it isn't a hobby. My life has been horrible, I am very restricted on when I am allowed to draw, make art in general, be online, be awake. (If I could find a wifi signal it would be more often though..) I also recently had confirmed that I have a tumor in my breast, they say it is benign but..idk another one appeared after the mammogram on the opposite breast as well as I have had a swollen lymph node above my collarbone for about a month since the same time. (told me it is just inflammation from the thing.) In all honestly, I'm miserable, I have no friends, not a single one it scares me, I'm so lonely. I have no one I can talk to about my problems, my day, anything I like or not. My whole life is being controlled because I "don't have a job" every aspect of it, worse than when I lived with my parents. I can't work, I get panic attacks, tightening of the chest and heart palpitations just from the thought of stepping outside, I can't even talk to doctors without constant stuttering with tears in my eyes. I hope to start posting whatever I can... It just sucks that it takes me months to draw or sculpt one thing (that is even without time constraints usually) I hope no one gets mad at me posting this. I have no way to get online by my laptop, only someone elses phone usually, that or rarely my phone. (I don't have a phone service either)