Emotinal - Blog Posts
So I done this Melanie Martinez what song are you quiz as a joke but I got Crybaby and got called out in the discription part of it
LIKE WTF NO NEED TO EMOTIONALLY CALL ME OUT LIKE DAMM
ALSO ONLY 2% GOT CRYBABY AND THIS QUIZ HAD OVER A GOOD FEW K PEOPLE WHO DONE THIS TEST
The fact I crybaby is one of my favourite songs make this worse for me.
“You seem to replace Your brain with your heart”
“You take things so hardAnd then you fall apart”
“You try to explain But before you can start Those cry baby tears Come out of the dark”
“Someone's turning the handle To that faucet in your eyes They're pouring out Where everyone can see”
“Your heart's too big for your body It's why you won't fit inside You pour it out Where everyone can see”
“They call me crybaby crybaby but I don’t f*cking care”
Once the tears finally stop and my lung revert to routine my eyes start to burn. The line where my lashes break through my skin stings a little more each time I blink. It seems fitting to my emotion addled brain, that physical pain should replace the psychological suit I was only moments before encased in. Because pain is grounding, a comforting constant. It roots you to your body and pulls your heart back from it's careful tearing at your mind. It is evidence of the event; a moments reprieve from the unrelenting screams that I am an Imposter. I have suffered then atleast, even if I'm yet to believe I can say I've suffered before. My eyes burn and I welcome my pain, my most devoted nurturer, for it has cradled me closer than any parent has. My eyes burn and I am left to wonder if my tears may be poison.
- In The Moments After by Me because I'm having A Time.
I have seen in my 17years of life that I was the only one who wanted or still wants to hold onto people. For example I always tell my close ones that, "say that you will never leave me" or "you will stay, right? I hope you won't go away?"
me, yes, I was the only one who wanted people to stay in my life. However, nobody ever told me to stay or never leave them. For once I wanna hear this. From my very own initiative I have told people that "I won't leave you" but nobody ever told me "I hope you won't leave me, would you?"
I am the most hated person in school right now. I really don't have a friend who will only stay with me, will roam around with me, fool around, talk shit, study together, help each other, support each other and what not. I hope I will always be alone. My paternal family members likes loneliness but I can't bear that.
There are things which I really wanna do all alone like, bunjee jumping (spelling might be wrong), bike riding on a highway (harley davidson heritage classic), driving, jump into the river and swim, weight loss, aesthetic life and what not.
Still I wanna do things with someone like I wanna a have a wishlist with someone. Only me and her/him.
Thats alll
