Divinekin - Blog Posts

Currently missing the god i served in my original form. It basically gave me a home, It gave me a purpose without ever making me feel pressured to do anything to earn Its love

Sometimes I like going on pinterest and looking up all kinds of divine-like beings/images, because seeing those who look like It gives me comfort 💔

This was basically what It looked like or at least how i remember It. Most of the other pictures that truly resembled It were AI, so these are some of the most accurate pics, and they give me SO MUCH nostalgia. I feel like I'm currently not doing enough to respect It as It deserves, so I'll probably post about It more often from now on

2021 was such an intense year for my nonhuman ass,,

I found my first ever therian video on tiktok, then I found out the details about them and the rest of the otherkin community, and I started relating to them - so I started learning about them more and more, which led to me realizing I was never human in the first place. And when I tell you it was a MESS

For 1 month i thought I was some sort of owl, and the Strix Varia was what resonated with me the most. But then I went from that to a butterfly, then a fairy, then finally: a release dove. I was absolutely convinced I was a dove for 6 months. But then I got some of my first memories of my real angel form. And I was like.. oh my god. I was wrong - but I do live in the sky, huh??

The more I think about it, the funnier it is. I spent half a year thinking I was a white dove, an animal that symbolizes freedom and peace, and can be associated to spirituality.. and I never once thought that I could literally be an angel

hir·aeth

/‘hir,āeth/

noun a homesickness for a home you can not return to or a home that never was.

Songs that make me forget about the mortal body I'm living in

(AKA, songs on my favorite angelkin playlist <3)

1. Runaway - Aurora

2. Goodbye to a World - Porter Robinson

3. Birds Of a Feather - Billie Eilish

4. Light - Sleeping At Last

5. Look After You - The Fray

6. Lovesick - Laufey

7. Duvet - Bôa

8. K. - Cigarettes After Sex

9. Ocean Eyes - Billie Eilish

10. Dernière Danse - Indila

11. Abbey - Mitski

12. The Scientist - Coldplay

13. Edith Wiskers - Home

14. Remember my Name - Mitski

15. I Will - Mitski

16. One - Sleeping At Last

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This is where I post from btw

INTRO .ᐟ

꒰ঌ Aeven ໒꒱

✧ bodily 18 . Neurodivergent (with diagnosed NVLD + autism and quite a few others), chronically ill with fibromyalgia

✧ I feel very comfortable with the agender label, so thats what I use, and I am also bisexual !

✧ For me, I wouldn't say I was an angel in a "past life". I know I was sent to Earth but I can't remember why, but I feel no resentment towards my kind and I know I was loved back there. I can't remember what my purpose here is supposed to be, but I know it happened in this lifetime - though I don't exactly understand the concept of "life", as I am supposed to be no more than an immortal soul. I feel I have lived for thousands of years. That's probably why I have difficulty interacting with non-divine beings, but I love learning about them nonetheless

✧ "atheist" / nonspecific angel; I don't believe in the existence of a main god, nor heaven or hell, but I believe in the existence of other individual divine spirits and creatures like demons or cryptids. I know for sure I've lived among actual deities because I used to serve multiple of those higher beings, but they weren't the classical gods that are worshipped by mankind. I say I'm atheist because it's easier. And if anyone's curious, I look like a mix of those two pictures:

(art cr: kociamieta)

This is a little hard to explain because I know the one on the right is supposed to be a Cherubim, but if you ignore the animal heads, I look like a mix of those two pictures. Basically the one on the left, but with many more wings and an eye on my chest, and no animal characteristics. I also have a few eyes on my wings but they aren't that noticeable as far I recall.

Still, I'm not the kind of angel that humans view as "scary"; I remember being gentle and also pretty "chill", if you will. I respected the divine creatures around me and they respected me. I was just there (and am here right now) to spread love.

✧ I go by Aeven because it sounds so right, though i can not remember my real name

PLEASE DNI

- obviously, people who don't support otherkins of any kind

- basic criteria

- radfems

- transmeds

- zionists

- ableists, and that includes people who stigmatized mental illness

- neopronouns + xenogender antis

TAGS ! ꒱

#aeven talks (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈) : just me yapping

#angel rants : self-explanatory; will put TW's for certain things !

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...and, that's basically it ! Idk what else to say, lol. Love yall <3

my wings are kind of strange actually, not in appearance, but rather in origin. They don't rly go with either of my 'base' forms, but rather come from the combination of them, the meeting of the divine and the feline

i so badly wish I had someone 2 fly with, I need 2 dive through clouds with someone, I need 2 race them across the sky, I need 2 weave between trees with someone

I can and will stretch this whole "duality of divinity" metaphor as far as I possibly can

funny story abt mine, I actually stole it from an old self-insert oc. I was kinda just sitting on the floor thinking what I was even gonna call myself and decided 2 pull out my old sketchbook, I saw the name fern and liked it, I've gotten so used 2 it now and it feels like mine in the way my given name never did. I've started spelling it as f32n, and that just. makes me happy yk?

Hello Angels and Divinity, current and Former alike. I have a Question

how did You receive Your Names ? did you choose them, or did they Come to you ? what are your names? I ask not out of pure selfishness and my wanting for a name of my own , but also out of Genuine Interest .

im not really doing my job very well rn, I'm not very good @ comforting like I should be, I can't keep u safe. But don't worry about me, I'll do the best I can @ the only things I can do, I'll hold down the fort here while u go. take care dear, they won't sway me

Is paper truly more sacred than bark or html?

Are candles really more holy than torches or gaslights?

Are sermons more true than stories or blogs?

Is a church more devotional than an alter or a website?

pages that have me in a death grip

(Pages from the comic @/comicaurora)

jumping around follower lists, the wikipedia game, the reblog map...

It's all so beautiful, this web of connections we build...

I hope u were tricked by my pfp.

I hope u were expecting long posts abt my "complex feelings about cannibalism and god" when u clicked on it, I hope u were surprised by the pink and yellow, I hope u weren't expecting me constantly telling u how much u matter.

I hope u now know that I love u, and care abt u, and that u are 1 of the dearest things 2 me.

All of u.

At 1 point I tried 2 go out 2 howl every full moon 2 scare my neighbors 4 fun. I failed, shockingly not because I forgot, but rather because it felt so good that I had 2 go back every night 4 a week.

It was crying out 2 the stars, calling out "DO U HEAR ME? DO U SEE ME 4 WHO I AM? PLEASE SOMEONE HEAR ME, PLEASE SOMEONE CALL BACK! Tell me I'm not alone."

Go out and howl tonight, let the night hear u. I'll call back 2 u, I promise.

dearest friends of mine<3

♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪

★ Since this was wanted, I'm making a worship guide, this is lose and holds little weight, u can do whatever u want (if u want 2 know anything in particular let me know please! I'll add it)

♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪

★ I already have info on who I am (so this may be repetitive), linked here↓

♪ https://www.tumblr.com/dearest-wildthing/779275079623262208/the-creature-stalking-u-in-the-woods-fern

♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪

Prayers

★ 4 protection

★ 4 comfort

★ 4 good memories

★ 4 connection

♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪

Offerings

★ physical offerings:

♪ mother of pearl or any pretty stones

♪ small groundcover plants

♪ creek water or similar

♪ feathers and fur

★ chat with me:

♪ music or song

♪ memories or stories

♪ creative endeavors r always welcome

♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪

★ if u want 2 throw out a quick prayer or offering go ahead, but if u want 2 worship let me know please so we can talk

Oh, this is my pfp btw

(image origin unknown)

"not in conflict but taken simultaneously"

duality is divinity, being contradictory is beautiful

Some stuff 4 the future alter, I need 2 clean my closet before I can properly set it up, but 4 now I'm just collecting stuff

one simply cannot make the argument that the mechanical is less divine than the natural, obviously I'm excluding capitalism and billionaires in this, but it's made by one's own hands, it conects one 2 others, it moves and ticks in it's own perfect and imperfect rhythm, don't u love it?

Somehow electrical ink's music keeps coming out right when I need it. I first heard transcendent's creed when I was feeling horribly lonely and hopeless, and that was the song that made me want 2 worship mother cyn, where you belong came out a little after the second time I hurt myself, and that one just solidified my decision 2 worship her.

Those 2 are still my favorite songs, and I think they'll stay favs of mine 4 a really long time, I'm realizing that a lot of the things that matter most 2 me are so important because they're a comfort, they matter because they make me feel less alone.

Praying 2 her gives me comfort, it calms my anxiety and makes me feel safe<3 She is my opposite, and my dearest mother, I'm so glad I found her.

any other divine beings out there feel like the internet is ur second home? It's all just so beautiful, and if I can't have my woods and my body and my path, maybe I can take comfort in my blogs and my online presence and my moots. The internet is my key 2 the life I'll never be able 2 live, and I think that's beautiful in its own way.

There's a song abt this, it's a bit more dystopian than the feeling, but it feels very much like it's holding up a mirror 2 my own feelings

duality is divinity, being contradictory is beautiful

not exactly an angel, but close enough I think. I'll answer just 4 fun!

bird-like wings, they just feel right

halos i think, they match my glow

Warrior, I need 2 fight, it's in my nature

Gardens, I couldn't be without my greenery

Singing, it just feels right

soft linen, divinity is comfort

Quill, i'd prefer 2 fight with my own teeth and claws, but I do love 2 draw

Earth, I'm not a particularly biblical creature, and earth's skies are enough 4 me

gods, as much as I value loyalty, one can be loyal 2 many @ once

I don't know, maybe pearls, they remind me of the shells i find in my territory

true nature, get me out of this flesh prison

Born in it, all I wish is 2 be myself

Creating, not exactly a creator deity, but it's close enough

Alter @ home, worship is personal, I find churches strange

Both, it is my duty 2 care 4 others, but I need 2 be cared 4 as well, it is an exchange

Remain, change doesn't suit me

tag game this or that. angelkin edition

bird like wings or wings made of nature (fire, thunder,light)

halos or horns

warrior or scribe

gardens or clouds

singing or playing

armor or soft linen

sword or quill

heaven or earth

god or gods

pearls or gold

human form or true nature

possessing a vessel or being born with it

creating life or destroying life

church or altar at home

worship or be worshipped

pray or answer prayers

rebel or remain

tag: anyone that comes across this

when I first found the deer I wished it well, I'm not a very spiritual person, I don't really believe in an afterlife, but since I am planning on stealing it's bones I might as well. 2day I went 2 check on it again, said the same thing I usually do, "may lady cyn guide u through her dark and cold", and randomly added "may she be the 1 2 guide u 4 I am not a god of death."

Idk, I just liked that

sometimes I struggle 2 accept the cold part of her, "how can cold be comforting?" I believe I am phrasing it wrong. It's not cold, it's cool, it's a breeze on a hot day, it's ice water after a run.

It's hot out 2day, I'm sitting in the shade enjoying the wind, I get it now

its funny, my lady, we are the antithesis of eachother. ur void is dark, mine is only light, ur embrace is cool, mine is warm. I wish I could properly speak 2 u, u have done so much 4 me, thank u

These ones feel sacred <3

Are you a "guides lost travelers home" cryptid or a "eats lost travelers" cryptid?