Ya know, sometimes there IS a demon in your closet. (It's me. I'm the demon in your closet.)
This. Yes. Thisssssssss. I feel the same (23 physically atm tho). Chronically ill dealing with fibromyalgia, I couldn't do any of those either. Ur not alone.
I'm trying to post to be part of this community, but tbh I have trouble finding stuff for demonkin. For findings new posts that aren't about animalkin (no hate, I have a headmate who's a big cat). There's not many new posts for demonkin, so most of it is the same whenever I check. Which is why im posting. Maybe another demon or divinekin will feel less alone if I do. And its a good place to get out feelings I can't talk about to anyone irl.
Part of me being a demon means that "darker" side is very prominent tbh. Has been since I was young. When I'm the one present in this body, I usually only like the trusted ones around me. Most of the time when I go outside my instinctive hate for humans flares up—even though I dont hate humans anymore. But I do feel anger at the humans around me in public. For daring to look at me. I just hate being perceived without being powerful or looking like myself. Like they can look upon me without fear or respect or deference. That's just one example. There's more.
I love the dark, and I love being alone. But at the same time, I crave companionship that understands me. I wish I knew another demon in person. Fuck it, I wish I knew another nonhuman in person.
For now I'll content myself with the shadows.
Anyone else feel like an outcast in the alterhuman community?
Most of the therians/alterhumans/nonhumans I see online are minors; I’m 20 years old.
Most of them can do quadrobics; I can’t run on all fours for five minutes without everything hurting, and if I did a jump, I’d probably break my wrists
A lot of them seem to enjoy the company of humans; I’ve never trusted or liked humans
Most of the community talks about being “silly” or “cute” when experiencing a mental shift; I have violent, animal instincts and avoid others when I feel a mental shift coming on
I don’t know. I just feel like a lot of us have become… tame. And I’m not. I feel like we as a community don’t talk about the “darker” side of not being human. The violent prey drive. The instinctive fear of humans that wild animals have.
To clarify, I mean no hate towards those who genuinely enjoy not being human. I just feel like even in a community of outcasts, I’m an outcast.
It’s just frustrating. In a place meant for those who aren’t human, I’m still too different to fit in. I just want to have a place to belong, you know?
I remembered a brief memory of my home in hell(?) yesterday. It was so sunny out, and I was biking to go vote. I craved the void and my dark cave so strongly even tho I knew I should be enjoying such a lovely day.
And I saw a flash of my home. Dark stone walls that opened up to a huge window (no glass, just air) to the void outside. Pure black... peaceful. A long luxurious couch and a drink in my hand as I lean back. I could see clearly even though I dont remember any light sources in the memory. (Also ahhhh it felt so right to have my wings and my tail and night vision i miss it)
I was a sloth demon (the sloth ring). We were also called void demons.
Tho no idea what I used to do to have such luxury. And i dont remember anything else. It was just a brief remembrance of a moment. Any other divinekin remember a little bit of their homes? (Or other alterbeings! Feel free to pitch in!!)
psst...hey...you there...random creature who happens to see this...do you like art..............do you wanna support me.....follow my art blog....@threelittleshits...........run by me......it'll be cool.........and nice........(scampers off into the forest on all fours)
it is appreciate a dragon day (Jan 16) so I am appreciating every dragon on here.
I am appreciating you.
you cant stop me