Actually Adhd - Blog Posts
Me whenever people be talking about dumb shit at work, like bitch I DON"T GIVE A SINGLE FUCK ABOUT YOUR LIFE, GO AWAY, then I calm down and feel a little bad, ONLY a little though
meeting with your fam for christmas so crazy cuz ure just reminded where u got ur autism genes from
Omg this makes so much sense.
Omg omg omg. It all makes so much more sense when you realise it's not social anxiety but a fear of being perceived.
Why do you feel more comfortable with a long coat and a mask as opposed to summer clothes?
Why do you DESPISE taking pictures? Especially if it's someone else and not you taking them.
Why do you feel like you have to stop doing whatever it was you were doing when someone passes by?
Why don't you want to tell anyone how leisurely you go about your day, taking a nap, going for a snack, sitting on your phone playing games etc. because you know they will comment on it and even though it's not negative or mockery it's still feels like you've been perceived?
Why can't you make eye contact? Why can you do it only if the other person is looking away but the second when they look at you you stop listening and when you're the one speaking you can't bear to look at them because you know their eyes are on you and they are perceiving you?
Why don't you want to dress excessively or wear nicer clothes? Because you will stand out
People mistake you for shy because you don't speak often, but it's really the fear of drawing attention to yourself more than it is the things you actually say, isn't it?
Why do you hate overpopulated areas even when no one is speaking? BUT you still feel more comfortable when more than one person is in the room (but not too many!) so that the burden of being perceived is directed on someone else and you can safely lay back just observing the scene.
It's all a defence mechanism
Omg so relatable.
![[ID: A timeline labeled "Hyperfixation timeline". All of the font is Comic Sans. Each point of the timeline points to a box with an accompanying doodle.
The first point of the timeline is labeled "so much yapping and theorizing and connecting the dots and—", accompanied by an unhinged person at a corkboard. Their pupils are red and staring at the viewer. The label and line on the timeline is also red. The line on the timeline goes up sharply.
The second point of the timeline is labeled "I can't believe I did all of that. That was embarrassing.", accompanied by the person staring awkwardly at the viewer. The line on the timeline goes down sharply. The text and line are black.
The third point of the timeline is labeled "Oh god fuck I can feel it coming back", accompanied by the person holding their chest as if they were having a heart attack. The label is black, but the line is a dark red. The line creeps upwards again, but then goes back down.
The fourth point of the timeline is labeled "Haha that was actually just a bluff", accompanied by the person laughing. The line is flat. The text and line are black.
The fifth and final point of the timeline is labeled "hyperfixation demon", accompanied by the person looking upwards at the timeline in fear as the hyperfixation demon (drawn in red) lurks behind them. The label has an arrow pointing to the hyperfixation demon. The line and label are in red, with the line going up sharply again. /END ID]](https://64.media.tumblr.com/5b099ddd89fafa38e59d28d37447365b/10c045dec53faaaf-20/s500x750/ca5f22136f33011993266677f34c2d203e12b9a2.png)
What I mean when I do not control the hyperfixation.
the neurodivergent experience:
20% of the time: wowwieee!!! i love my passions and interests!!!!! they make me so happy i want to jump up and down!!!!! weee!!!!!!! :3333333333
80% of the time: this mind is a prison
Litterally me lmao
AuDHD is so funny sometimes like what do you mean my hyperfixations/special interests will last for years on end or possibly forever but they will cycle out every month or two with absolutely no transitional period or warning. like i will think about the same topic every day obsessively for 46 days in a row and on the 47th day with no visible cause adhd brain goes "ok! bored of that now" and autism brain goes "dw i got something queued up for ya" and i blast into full blown obsession on some other topic whose mental file folders haven't opened in 9 months. brain's out here treating hyperfixations like a crop rotation. once the dopamine runs out it cycles in another one but once something's in the rotation it never ever leaves. last summer we brought in one from when i was 11. it's so funny to me but frustrating too bc like. i cannot stress enough my inability to predict or control this. or how completely abrupt and random it can be
"How do you have so much energy all the time ???"
I don't, I'm constantly tired but I'm also being the class clown because I have abandonment issues and adhd
All my nd peeps
Me, explaining disassociation to my neurotypical mother:
Her: what?? That’s a thing you do? Are you okay????
Two days later…
Me, explaining disassociation to an ADHD friend:
Her: Oh fuck, there’s a name for that??? Cool
you know?? That feeling like ah, so I’m not the only one, great lmao
you're hungry.
you know you're hungry.
you're not hungry enough to do anything about it.
you decide to wait until you're hungry enough to do something.
you're finally hungry enough but feel sick because you've waited for so long.
you wonder why you keep doing this to yourself.
you repeat the cycle the very next day.
ED/fat fetish blogs DNI.
underrated stim: mouthing along to the words of a song as if you are having an argument with someone. works very well with i will survive, for example
you gotta get into character with the facial expressions and hand gestures. my bedroom wall is sick of me. anyway.
And then I probably won’t pick up anyway
The autistic despair of someone saying “I’ll call you later” and not knowing the exact time when they’re gonna call
It’s like being on alert mode for hours please don’t
hey I'm sorry I stopped in the middle of that sentence my brain decided to flush its cache and I totally forgot what this conversation was
Am I the only one who stims by singing? Please tell me I’m not the only one
Omg omg omg. It all makes so much more sense when you realise it's not social anxiety but a fear of bring perceived.
Why do you feel more comfortable with a long coat and a mask as opposed to summer clothes?
Why do you DESPISE taking pictures? Especially if it's someone else and not you taking them.
Why do you feel like you have to stop doing whatever it was you were doing when someone passes by?
Why don't you want to tell anyone how leisurely you go about your day, taking a nap, going for a snack, sitting on your phone playing games etc. because you know they will comment on it and even though it's not negative or mockery it's still feels like you've been perceived?
Why can't you make eye contact? Why can you do it only if the other person is looking away but the second when they look at you you stop listening and when you're the one speaking you can't bear to look at them because you know their eyes are on you and they are perceiving you?
Why don't you want to dress excessively or wear nicer clothes? Because you will stand out
People mistake you for shy because you don't speak often, but it's really the fear of drawing attention to yourself more than it is the things you actually say, isn't it?
Why do you hate overpopulated areas even when no one is speaking? BUT you still feel more comfortable when more than one person is in the room (but not too many!) so that the burden of being perceived is directed on someone else and you can safely lay back just observing the scene.
It's all a defence mechanism
I am Tired and Sick and Sore, and I know I don't deserve this, but I know I have to get through it anyway. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, but it is a pinprick in my vision, and the tunnel is long and dark and full of anxiety and pain. On the other side are vast expanses of concrete, highrise buildings, and crowds where no one knows my name or recognises me but those I love dearly. And I am free.
wildly swinging between the filthiest smuttiest thoughts and just fucking,, domestic fluff
the annoying thing about adhd is that like, most of the symptoms you can’t even argue are “evolutionary flaws” or “chemical imbalances.” literally it’s just that it’s not good for lining somebody else’s pockets. being “distractible” helps people notice predators or juicy berries out of the corners of their eyes. hyperfocusing on a task until it’s done is literally exactly in line with what an alleged persistence predator would need to do to actually follow through on hunting other animals. there’s so many little things that are obviously beneficial to have outside of a fucking factory assembly line
Honestly Janet is such a mood even without the meme but this just makes it better 😂
I made this instead of studying
and all that just to be called lazy like no. i am NOT enjoying this. if i could just get up and do the thing i WOULD but i CANT
adhd executive dysfunction sucks bcuz im just sitting there and my brain is like
YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME
no work done no rest gained. literally no point of this at all
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Just a friendly reminder to all who have prescriptions to look up the FDA or manufacturers information about your medications because you might find some very useful information like a cheaper generic brand or in my case learn that the blood flow problem’s in my fingers and toes are probably a side effect of my medication.
Do any other autistic or adhd people relate to like, feeling scared of losing a hyperfixation or special interest? Like, its this thing that means so much to me and makes me so happy and the idea of not enjoying it anymore scares me in a way, i guess.
I don’t want to go back to uni tomorrow but I have to, I love my roommate but sometimes I feel unwelcome in the dorm.
honestly I’m debating on being up my bpd and depression to my counselor since I think he can understand and not judge me on it, but idk yet. I’m almost done with my freshman year so that’s something I guess
I love me a good convo
Didn't realise how much I've been deprived of good lengthy conversations and how much I love having them, its been months-years since I last got to have those kinds of convos<3
Something I learnt a while ago is that having ADHD and understand it fully doesn't mean you can also understand an Autistic just cuz they are neurodivergent too. I know many autistics hate bright lights, I can't understand why though, I never have an issue with them and just can't imagine what that feels like no matter how much I try. I know facial expressions and implied meanings in sentences can be confusing and often very frustrating for Autistics, but I just...can't figure out why or how that feels. maybe this is also why explaining executive dysfunction to NT's is as difficult as it is, :/ its difficult on both ends, to explain it and to understand it but its worse if they dont even try to support you or get you help when you need it, you dont have to understand it to be a good person :/
Help from Autistics about an Autistic OC?
I considered writing and representing an Autistic OC among my other OC's in their story but while I have ADHD, I don't know a whole lot about Autism so I've been trying to research it but medical documents teach me nothing about the daily struggles, how complex it actually is or all the minor details no one ever talks of, so I tried asking Reddit but it keeps deleting my posts and accounts :/ so since I joined Tumblr now, I am considering continuing with that idea and I would really love if those who actually have autism could help me understand it better and teach me what its like <3 To make it clearer what I'm looking to know: What are some everyday struggles or ‘small’ autistic experiences that most people (or medical docs) don’t talk about? Like sensory quirks, social misunderstandings, or routines that feel vital to you? How does autism affect your emotions or relationships in ways that might surprise outsiders? Are there traits or habits you have that you love about being autistic? (I want to avoid making the character just a list of struggles) Do you have any pet peeves about how autism is written by non-autistic people? Tropes to avoid? Literally any detail you’re willing to share would help—even random anecdotes! I want to write this character with depth, not stereotypes. any help is appreciated! 💖
Looking for my texting soulmate<3
Looking for that one text soulmate! who will: Text me 12 messages when I send 11. READ EVERY SINGLE MESSAGE instead of being blind to half of them. Get excited with me and text for hours over hyperfixation interests. Text me FIRST (Please, I've done it enough times, someone do it for me) My interests: Harry Potter(adore severitus), Supernatural, OC creation(I love symbolism, lore and meaningful stuff), K-pop (TXT, NCT, Ateez, Xikers, SKZ + many many more), Fanfiction, Anime (MHA + Nanbaka + some less popular stuff), BL, BL Dramas (Love Syndrome, Color Rush, Bump Up Business, Candy Color Paradox). I'm sure there's atleast one other person out there who is looking for a good texting buddy too, lets find each other<3
people with adhd give me some project/hobby ideas or good boredom cures because i have nothing to do in my life and i am hanging on by a thread
ADHD is wild
I just sit there doomwatching a bunch of videos on why the games industry sucks now, and then my brain randomly goes "fuck it, I should get a Dreamcast"
Then I spend the rest of yesterday, and most of today, hyperfixating on the Dreamcast.
I don't even know what most of the games I would be playing would be. I just weirdly want a Dreamcast suddenly.
(btw, the gdemu looks really cool)
They should just call the "for you" tab "hyperfixations" and the "your tags" tab "special interests".