Latest Posts by zoloftwithdrawalnausea - Page 10
crying (good)
Imagine taking Nikto's cigarette from his deformed lips to snatch a kiss from him before poking his cigarette back in between his mouth.
Like, he's just sitting alone with the bottom half of his mask clipped up so he can take in his daily dose of nicotine, malnourished lips making him unable to have the best suction so the cigarette burns before he's even done with it.
But when you managed to sneak up on him smoking away on cheap cigarettes, you couldn't help your greedy fingers as you creeped up and snatched it. Nikto was damn about ready to jump you, but seeing that it was only you, his beloved friend and coworker, he could let it slide. Just this once, he tried to convince himself.
But it became routinely. He'd pull out a cigarette and light it for himself before handing it to you for you to take a drag. While tobacco wasn't exactly a favourite of yours, you only took a drag simply because Nikto had put his mouth on it before you.
An indirect kiss, perhaps?
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@fishsinsareacknowledged @zoloftwithdrawalnausea @simp4konig @vxmpyree @frogcereal29 :))
aw man :( hope you are doing better now 🙏
love ur username as a person who’s been on zoloft withdrawal twice
hhehehe i remember trying to quit zoloft cold-turkey and i wouldn't stop vomiting for a month straight, never again 🙏
wouldn't recommend not listening to your psychiatrist but whatever the purpose of trying to quit zoloft was, it kinda worked, in a different way. i was on a pretty high dose of several meds, quitting everything means they have to start with smaller dosage again, so cheaper meds and multiple months backward in recovery 👍
I can't stop thinking about Nikto being a melodramatic bitch, you can't talk to this man for shit.
Like you're trying to plan a date:
"Hey baby are you free tomorrow?" You ask with your phone pressed between your ear and your shoulder, comparing packages of chicken for dinner. You know he eats a lot. "No man is free when he has to work for a living," Nikto tells you without a hint of hesitation, "but we are available."
or he cuts himself helping with dinner:
He holds his sliced finger up to the light, inspecting the wound while your eyes widen. He seems to sense you panic, probably with the way you're furiously googling "how to tell if you need stitches" and glances your way, setting the knife to the side. "The only pain we cannot suffer is being away from you." He assures you. "That's great baby," You tell him in a rush, already grabbing your keys, "wrap a towel around that and get in the car.
Or worse still running into one of your friends:
You'd sent Nikto to grab some beer from the cooler, while you chat with your work friend at the pharmacy counter. She's nice, you like her, definitely could see her becoming an outside of work friend. Until Nikto shows up with the six pack in hand. "Woah, he is big." She grins, Nikto grunts and glances towards the bustling pharmacy technicians. "I bet you don't get much sleep with this guy around," Your friend jokes, nudging you with a wink. You feel yourself warm, your cheeks pulling at your lips with an embarrassed smile. "We do not sleep," Nikto grumbles, "we only fall into darkness until the sun brings us back." You wince. You friend gives you a look with a strained smile.
You just want him to stop saying odd shit.
love ur username as a person who’s been on zoloft withdrawal twice
hhehehe i remember trying to quit zoloft cold-turkey and i wouldn't stop vomiting for a month straight, never again 🙏
wouldn't recommend not listening to your psychiatrist but whatever the purpose of trying to quit zoloft was, it kinda worked, in a different way. i was on a pretty high dose of several meds, quitting everything means they have to start with smaller dosage again, so cheaper meds and multiple months backward in recovery 👍
Nikto who used to hate people touching him even accidentally on his sides. The skin there untouched even by his tormenter. Back scarred and heavy while his waist and chest's sides remain untouched. Scars building up on his arms and hands.
Nikto who pauses for a moment when you accidentally graze his sides. Apologizing for your actions before he pulls you into private and tells you to do it again.
"Just do that again, moya lyubov'."
"hm? Like this?", it was odd. Utterly confusing how quick the man slept when you petted him. Insomniac for the better half of the year you dated until you figured out he liked gentle touch. Nothing overwhelming until he called for it.
"Lower, sides", and he was weighing you into the bed. A soft sigh escaping his lips while you petted the sides of his hips. His body going still as you scratched gently, eliciting a purr from the cat-like man. Heavy bastard <3.
hello everyone, midterms are over. however i have quite a lot on my plate right now until november so might not get to draw nikto as often, also, it is winter now, that means my nikto brainworm is hibernating... dormant....
and thank you everyone who reached out during my absence, i appreciate every messages a lot and i will hopefully reply to them soon.
have an epic day everyone. take care!
i haven't recovered aaug
good morning
good morning
More doodle suggestions from ig
Nikto and Gromsko
They should smoke into each other mouth I think
oh absolutely!!!! they def smoke. and kiss tgether in secret. also i hc reader in this to be noncomforming or guy
behind closed doors-- behind concrete paved walls and wiry fences-- nikto finds solace in smoke and flickering lighters.
your palm cups over your lighter as the flame catches on your cigarette, guarding him from the fire. you keep his eyes away from flames, never letting him catch a glimpse or old wounds would start to itch.
you meet like this often. you're like teenagers, slipping away from a house party to meet on the rooftop or by the bright pool. you breathe smoke into one another's mouths as you whisper in confidence in between dry, chapped kisses. you know of his achievements, his dreams, his fears-- you will take these glimpses of his life to your grave, and nikto will do the same for you.
If nikto was a shape what shape would he be
Scalene triangle bc no side is equal
no new art today bros, sorry 😔
man, i hate mondays
praying that i dont have to delete this later
PINKTO!!! <333 (he loves u 💓☺️)
(i hate doing lineart. Hate it. I HATE IT SO MUCH. so i just cleaned up the second sketch a lil bc i HATE LINEART!!!)
What is Lexapro?
an antidepressant :( i remember gaining weight the last time i was on it, waaaa
WOOO ITS SHOWS UP ALRIGHT, IS BEEN MADE POOKIE
yippeeeee!!!! my sustainance!! thank you!!
wwaaaeeeww yes please!!!
"Smiling at the person that doesn't like me."
-Cheer for babies/And The Kids
Tw: Self deprecating thoughts, mostly sfw just angsty, alcoholic/smoker nikto
Nikto didn't like you. At least thats what you thought. You couldn't see behind the mask. You couldn't see the countless nights he's pondered getting down on his knees and begging you to have him, to kill him or let him live he'd let you decide.
A sinner to a judge, endlessly skewed only to be brought underneath your presence.
He prays you'll save him, sometimes just the thought of you saves him.
You save him from countless nights of blackout drinking. Saving him from endless chain-smoking. Save him from ending it all.
Sometimes he understands it. How he was raised, maybe they had it too.
Maybe they were as sick in the head as he was.
Maybe then he'd understand it all.
Oh how he'd treat you to the finest things if he could. Restrained by his own pride. What a useless thing he was told to upkeep. Would pride have saved him from countless beatings? Would pride have saved him from poison poured into his brain from his ears and tongue?
Would pride let him have you?
He should throw it all away really. Just ignore his own life and thoughts to be your toy. Its a fate befitting for him, something new, recycled.
Strip himself nude and prostrate himself for your amusement.
What foolish thoughts.
But it was befitting for him.
Maybe he could live at your feet. Rediscover ways to feel, teaching an old dog new tricks.
Maybe he should just be normal and treat you to a dinner date. It would he normal, maybe not to him but maybe to you.
Drink a couple wine glasses and eat, a compromise between him and you.
It sounds nice in theory but could he handle all that? Maybe for you he could.
Become nice and sweet for you, something better for you yet still his own person.
Fuck, you were changing him into a person.
He should smile back when you smile at him.
NIKTO WITH BOWS LIKE THE ONE ON YOUR PFP I NEED IT DETAILED MY DEARR DETAILED YOU HEAR
of course and i even gave him bottom lashes in this one :3
How would Nikto murder
With bare hands and from behind vibes
Haven’t posted in so long. So I bless you with this then disappear again 👴
Is your first language something other than English, or is it English?
hello friend! yeah but it is not russian :3 i just like to pretend i know more than 2 languages.
what about you? and any languages you want to learn?
Hey what's up it's me with a special interest in weapons and I wanted to share my thoughts about Nikto's machete (no that's not an innuendo for once)
Had a bit of a solo-mandela effect going on because for the longest time I thought it had a modified 'billhook'-like feature on the back of it for whatever reason (but smaller than what would be considered a traditional billhook, more like a hoof pick blade).
I kind of enjoy still HCing that it does have it because a) it looks kind of cool and b) a terrifying thought to think this man whips this giant intimidating blade out, flips it deftly in his hand to the hook side, just to sink it into flesh and yank people back in when they try to run. Also it allows me to think about a scenario where, resident karambit knife enthusiast Sebastian Krueger, can teach proper blade hooking techniques to our beloved plural man. Anyway back to the knife - It's like a cross between a coup coup and a bola? But has a cool flare like a Tapanga for his newer mwiii model. Also like a vintage Senegalese french machete, which were known for their high quality (might technically be the same thing as the coup coup, just with the locale specified I think, both entrenchment machetes). That curve also kind of reminds me of parangs but it's not particularly drop-pointed.
I HC Nikto as a very brutally pragmatic but particular man, so it doesn't feel too far off to think that he went out of his way to acquire something niche like that. Some kind of custom-made machete that fits his needs just right. The length of it, as well as the curved, ergonomic grip makes me think he's gotten it to do some serious chopping, so it's also probably heavy and weighted forward to make that easier when swinging. I don't see him as a flashy fighter personally, and though maybe it was a stylistic choice for the game devs/artists, I think it's a neat feature that speaks to his character. I do think it's made of hefty steel; weight is important in chopping knives, and though steel rusts, it's sturdy compared to a lot of other metals. Not to mention - I feel like oiling and caring for his weapons, machete included, would be a ritual source of peace for his sometimes loud and chaotic mind. Grounding when he can feel the weight and texture where his nerves aren't completely damaged, smell the oil, have tangible proof that it's reality when he sees the maintained blade even after he becomes unmoored.
Now this is just me WAY reading too much into it, but it gives me a little giggle - The hole at the end of the handle is for a wrist lanyard, so you can loop a piece of paracord rope to secure it around your hand. It's an important safety feature just in case the machete goes flying out of your hand while chopping, lest it hit people in your vicinity (accidentally...?). In his 19 model, he doesn't have the paracord rope attached; Nikto says "Fuck your safety" but also huge ego of "I would never accidentally fling my knife!!"
Could also be because it gets caught on stuff if it dangles off his hip though - he's got one on his newer model where he wears the blade on his shoulder, which looks like a place where it's less likely to snag on things. Could also be because he's been increasingly featured in larger factions, so he works with more people and was asked to have one on hand maybe?? I don't know. In either case the knot in the middle of the rope makes it too small for his wrist which could also be read as a passive-aggressive "Here's the fucking safety rope it's on there ALRIGHT" and yet he's also made it nonfunctional for its intended purpose lmao Okay that's all byeeee