The Devil Couldn't Reach Me So He Made Me A 5'2 Girl With The Appetite Of A 6'4 Man

𝒟𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓂 𝒹𝒾𝑒𝓉

Fuck next week is pancake Tuesday. THEYRE SO HIGH IN CALS ALREADY AND I JUST KNOW THEYRE GONNA GREASE THE PAN WITH BUTTER

Doing a 28hr fast because I’m having a kebab later. I’m exhausted though and I have school. Anyone got tips on getting energy during a fast? I used to be able to fast for 56hrs what happened to me😔 also I’m not tired because of fasting I’m just tired in general

I can’t live like this anymore.

I deleted tumblr for the week because my phone had no storage but I’m back now.

I’ve had the worst time. It’s bad enough I was demotivated after getting t-worded but im actually so done.

Two months. Two fucking months in a plateau.

I caved. I weighed in. I knew it wouldn’t be completely accurate because I haven’t pooped in days, I’ve eaten today and I had chippy the day before, so it’d be high in sodium, but to see the scale jump up FIVE LBS since the pre-October weigh in was horrible. Last time I hit a lw was the last week of August. This isn’t fair.

Why am I putting my body through hell when all I get is no fucking energy, being sad all the time, JUST TO GET FUCKING FATTER!?

I count every calorie, I stress over everything, I’ve lied to my family and done everything I can just to gain weight even though I’ve been in a deficit on average of 500 cals a day(I take metab days but my deficit on other days evens it out). I should have lost like 8lbs since August but I haven’t.

And to make it all worse my parents caught me skipping lunch during school. So now they’re like stalking me to make sure I eat lunch, making me eat higher calorie dinners, and banning zero calorie drinks from me. There’s nothing I can do anymore. What do I do?

I feel like such a w4nnar3xic cuz I'm only putting myself into a small deficit cuz I don't wanna lose my period and I don't want my parents to notice when I lose w8

Ugh I keep getting Snapchat memories and I looked so much prettier when I was sick

I met my younger self for a coffee today.

She looked at me and went "we're still not skinny??"

I sighed and said "damn girl we're trying, okay??"

I love tracking full meals after only taking one bite then being upset the number is so high😍😍

I got some protein yogurt at a shop but because it had that days date on it I froze it. I need ideas on what to do with it🙏🙏

Relapsing has made me question my faith. I've been an atheist for years but maybe the reason I feel so evil when I eat is because gluttony is a sin