I Love Tracking Full Meals After Only Taking One Bite Then Being Upset The Number Is So High😍😍

I’ll probably be back in like a week lol. But I think I want to start recovery. So I may be gone for a while.

Wish bmi was the only number I cared about but unfortunately I care about my grades too and always gain weight during exams

Ew why does everything have c4lories

Numbers.

Numbers.

NUMBERS.

(W8, grades, BMI)

Ik a lot of people spread awareness about @na coaches that are just pedos, but if anyone was a victim of one and needs someone to talk to can dm me any time

In an ideal world 1 step would = 1 cal burned

Unfortunately I'm too heavy footed to pace my room for hours without my parents finding out

I won't make the same mistakes as last time. I'll be more discreet. I'll tell no one. I won't even mention w8 (except rn because you cant tell I've relapsed yet and our scale is broken so I'm trying to get my mom to buy a new one cuz I'm 'curious' how well my recovery going). I'm logging Absolutely everything. Every bite. If I don't finish something I'm still logging it as if I did. I'll only eat in front of people to avoid suspicion. I. Will. Not. Fail.

Lol I may be back? Idk. 4 months tho! That's crazy. I'm not sure yet. But it's so weird being back! Missed yall😔 miss my old account where I had thousands of moots 💔 anyways hey! Idk what tags yall use anymore so I'm just using the ones recommended to me

The whole reason I wanted to recover in the first place was for my grades so I don't think I'll do too low a deficit (800-900cals a day) and because I was scared because my mom caught me lying about lunch at school so I was convinced she was stalking me oops

May be back. Idk yet.

WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT! I just remembered my biggest inspo when I was like 12. MONICA GELLER. Cuz like first of all Courteney Cox is beautiful, second Monica was a fat girl that turned her life around and turned her binge eating into obsessive cleaning?? My rooms so fucking messy I tidy it like once a year