Kinda Hate The Fact That I Am Consciously Delusional.

One of my new friends (which I'm not going to give a relevant nickname yet because it makes me feel a bit insecure about whether he will continue to be my friend)

Has a crush on a guy for over a year, and even though he has already confessed and the other guy told him that he still doesn't feel safe enough to be in a relationship, my friend is still deeply in love with him.

I can't help but feel jealous, not about my friend perse, but about the relationship itself.

Imagine having someone's unconditional love and devotion even if you don't reciprocate that love... I would feel very cruel if I were aware of that but at the same time I can't help but crave it.

Bougainvillea photos I stole from my friends

The way I've been trying to learn the creep bridge (Creep-Radiohead) on guitar since november and haven't been able to actually get it, shows how little discipline I have.

I hope my moots don't mind that I see them as lab rats that I have to research intensively and I would give everything to protect my little project.

Me if I think about describing my type out loud.

I envy everyone who has a reason to wake up tomorrow.

Me? Intense? Yes, even bordering on sadistic, so it's preferably better if you don't provoke me.

I really hate it, I hate it, I hate it.

Why are you clipping my wings to be happy??? Please, I'm just asking for one, please, I just want to end it.

Me when spam notes me when spam notes me when spam notes <3