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Why does every single conversation I have with someone feel like a performance. I am performing the act of communicating which to most, comes naturally but for me, it’s like I need 100% of my cognitive capacity and to constantly calculate the best response, best tone, best gestures for the given moment and then do it over and over again perfectly until the conversation ends in order to have had a normal one and it’s so exhausting I feel like a fucking robot

“When we set children against one another in contests - from spelling bees to awards assemblies to science “fairs” (that are really contests), from dodge ball to honour rolls to prizes for the best painting or the most books read - we teach them to confuse excellence with winning, as if the only way to do something well is to outdo others. We encourage them to measure their own value in terms of how many people they’ve beaten, which is not exactly a path to mental health. We invite them to see their peers not as potential friends or collaborators but as obstacles to their own success… Finally, we lead children to regard whatever they’re doing as a means to an end: The point isn’t to paint or read or design a science experiment, but to win. The act of painting, reading, or designing is thereby devalued in the child’s mind.”

— Alfie Kohn, The Myth Of The Spoiled Child

Bam as a parent

Baby: *cries*

Bam: Shh, it’s okay little buddy, one day you’ll learn how to do this on the inside

my dad–also a writer–came to visit, and i mentioned that the best thing to come out of the layoff is that i’m writing again. he asked what i was writing about, and i said what i always do: “oh, just fanfic,” which is code for “let’s not look at this too deeply because i’m basically just making action figures kiss in text form” and “this awkward follow-up question is exactly why i don’t call myself a writer in public.”

he said, “you have to stop doing that.”

“i know, i know,” because it’s even more embarrassing to be embarrassed about writing fanfic, considering how many posts i’ve reblogged in its defense.

but i misunderstood his original question: “fanfic is just the genre. i asked what you’re writing about.” 

i did the conversational equivalent of a spinning wheel cursor for at least a minute. i started peeling back the setting and the characters, the fic challenge and the specific episode the story jumps off from, and it was one of those slow-dawning light bulb moments. “i’m writing about loneliness, and who we are in the absence of purpose.”

as, i imagine, are a lot of people right now, who probably also don’t realize they’re writing an existential diary in the guise of getting television characters to fuck. 

“that’s what you’re writing. the rest is just how you get there, and how you get it out into the world. was richard iii really about richard the third? would shakespeare have gotten as many people to see it if it wasn’t a story they knew?”

so, my friends: what are you writing about?

Can you do something for me, please?

I want you to reblog this if you believe that two people can be very close and physically affectionate with one another, but still have a completely nonsexual, non-romantic relationship. 

Even if the two people in question are capable of being sexually or romantically attracted to one another. 

Because the friendship I share with someone I consider family in a way that transcends blood has been typecast as a romantic relationship ENTIRELY too many times, and I’m beginning to get sick of it. 

me : no thoughts, head empty-

my friend : just what? you are supposed to say what's on your mind

me : no. that's it

what do you think about

i do not ❤️

Dazai: So apparently the 'bad vibes' I've been feeling are actually 'severe psychological distress'.

I got my friend into ToG today and the first thing she sends me is this.

Guys I think we have another khun stan on our hands

Tanizaki: Where do you guys put your arms when you sleep because mine are in the way.

Atsushi: I hug a pillow to feel something.

Dazai: I cross my hands over my chest just in case it's time to go.

Chuuya: When I first met you, I thought you were weird and annoying.

Dazai: ... And?

Chuuya: And you are.

Khun is just so handsome, I'm busy at work but I'm getting distracted with him- so unfair.

Also, Khun with his boyfriend, I meant other half, bestfriend

Mika: I would do anything for your happiness

Yuu: would you love yourself?

Mika: don’t push it

Sonia: What scares you the most?

Hajime: Failing.

Akane: Bears.

Nagito: The unstoppable marching of time that is slowly guiding us all towards an inevitable death.

Kazuichi: ...

Kazuichi: Nagito.

something that people really dont understand about ADHD is that we dont “jump from one idea to the next”

we have very fast, very associative minds that connect ideas. we have a train of thought, it just goes WAY faster than yours!

example: im thinking about dogs. that makes me think of pitbulls, which makes me think of an animal planet show i enjoy. the show connects to tv in general, which makes me think of my favorite cartoon. i associate my favorite cartoon with art and animation, and i wind up thinking about shading techniques.

TL;DR: having ADHD is kinda like playing a lifelong game of 7 Degrees of Kevin Bacon

About a week ago I posted this.

I’ve been getting horrible messages like this in my ask for months, including:

and my personal favorite

After getting the message saying “Just go kill yourself” I was completely done dealing with this person’s horrible messages and replied with just an “Okay.” and logged off tumblr.

About a week later I logged back on with 17 messages in my ask, most of them from the anon. I scrolled down and at first when I logged off, the anon messaged me things like

I scrolled up more and all of a sudden they started sending me more and more messages like

This was extremely surprising to me. I thought “After all those horrible messages you sent to me for MONTHS about hating me and wanting me dead, you say ‘sorry’ and that you ‘cant be responsible for someone’s suicide’?”

But I guess the lesson goes like this:

DONT TELL ANYONE TO KILL THEMSELVES UNLESS YOU ARE PREPARED FOR WHAT MIGHT ACTUALLY HAPPEN

It’s 12:40 am. I have an assignment due in a couple hours thanks to online school. What am I doing right now? Working on my assignment? Getting well needed sleep because I had a whole weekend to do it? No. I’m descending into haikyuu rarepair hell and enjoying myself while occasionally taking moments to do my assignment. Also I finally opened tumblr on a computer.

My common sense: Noooo! You can't just keep reblogging tower of god stuff instead of actually finishing the episode!

Me: Haha ponytail khun go fwoosh

(am I doing this meme correctly)

Hard same.

Any minor inconvenience in my life: happens

Me and my sensitive ass:

13.4.20

Y’all know I only post original content on here unless I feel like it’s important to share. Take it in ✨

It really freaks me out that people think body hair is unsanitary. Like y'all are just so brainwashed if you believe that body hair is perfectly normal and fine on men, but on women its suddenly dirty? Use your critical thinking skills for a few damn seconds, I’m begging you.

some people think about what time should they wake up tomorrow some people think about wether or not should they even wake up tomorrow And some people think, “ would i even wake up tomorrow ? ” I thrive to be the third party.

anonymous request → 137: urie’s epiphany

I needed this today

Might fuck around and accept the things I cannot change

Might have these out of order but just a good thread to share.

Chuuya: What if I knocked you unconscious right now?

Dazai: It won't change the past.

Chuuya: But it'd make the present so much nicer.