A Vent, Inspired By Conversations From Earlier About Sexual Entitlement

A vent, inspired by conversations from earlier about sexual entitlement

As a nonbinary person who likes to present in a way that gets interpreted as "goth woman" the fucking entitlement that people have over me/my sexuality is wild.

Like on one hand you've got the people who want me to be their goth dommy mommy and too and/or dom them when like. I can switch and dom people on occasion, but there's very few people I consider it worth it to do. In sex (not kink) I am exclusively a bottom and thankfully that hasn't been an issue but that's usually because when people realize I'm not going to dom them they stop pursuing things.

But on the other hand there's the people who do respect me as a sub and a bottom, but because I'm goth and kinky they take it as a blanket permission to just like, live out whatever sexual fantasy they have. Just straight up sexual assault on a somewhat regular basis because people can't be bothered to ask before they start to choke me because I'm goth and kinky and they've seen it in porn so it must be fine (it's not, you can kill someone even if you choke them properly, and a solid chunk of these people don't actually know how to do it properly).

So yeah as someone read as a "goth woman" it feels like it's literally impossible to get away from people having sexual expectations of me and being annoyed when I'm not a conscious sex toy that'll do whatever it is they want me to. Like it's one thing when it's just jokes, I don't mind playing along when someone asks me to step on them or whatever, but when people are seriously expecting me to be sexual in specific ways that I'm just not it can get really really awful.

And it was really frustrating a few months ago when comp top/"let trans women be bottoms/subs" discourse was going around TRF circles and they were like "trans women have been through a lot and they deserve to be taken care of instead of needing to take care of others" (which I agree with) "so therefore if you're not a trans woman you should dom/top and take care of trans women" when like.

I am someone who has been through significantly worse trauma than most people I know, and have always been placed in the role of taking care of others. Part of why I only dom certain people is because of my trauma of being forced to raise my younger brothers and play parent to my own mother. I am very much in the category of people who've been through it who have always been expected to do things for others and who deserves to be taken care of. And there was just no acknowledgement from that group that people other than trans women might be in the position of having had to take care of others and being deserving of support and care now.

It feels like the same entitlement as the people irl who want me to be their goth dommy mommy. Society has decided that people like me are people it's fair to feel entitlement towards, and like. That entitlement is in a large part why I can't be what people want. I'm a human being, and while I know how to take care and be there for others, I'm not going to do it without being taken care of myself because I've spent too many years of my life giving to others and getting nothing in return.

Everyone deserves to be happy, to have the sexual experiences that they're looking to have, to be taken care of if that's what they wish, but while we all deserve these things it is unfair to expect them to come from any specific individual, and if someone is telling you no to these things you find someone else to ask, not try to get your needs met by someone who has made it clear they don't want to.

Very well said anon. <3

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4 months ago

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The American Negro has the great advantage of having never believed that collection of myths to which white Americans cling: that their ancestors were all freedom-loving heroes, that they were born in the greatest country the world has ever seen, or that Americans are invincible in battle and wise in peace, that Americans have always dealt honourably with Mexicans and Indians and all other neighbours or inferiors…. Negroes know far more about white Americans than that…. And perhaps this attitude, held in spite of what they know and have endured, helps to explain why Negroes, on the whole, and until lately, have allowed themselves to feel so little hatred. The tendency has really been, insofar as this was possible, to dismiss white people as the slightly mad victims of their own brainwashing. One watched the lives they led. One could not be fooled about that; one watched the things they did and the excuses that they gave themselves, and if a white man was really in trouble, deep trouble, it was to the Negro’s door that he came. And one felt that if one had had that white man’s worldly advantages, one would never have become as bewildered and as joyless and as thoughtlessly cruel as he. The Negro came to the white man for a roof or for five dollars or for a letter to the judge; the white man came to the Negro for love. But he was not often able to give what he came seeking. The price was too high; he had too much to lose. And the Negro knew this, too. When one knows this about a man, it is impossible for one to hate him, but unless he… becomes equal—it is also impossible for one to love him.… (Ask any Negro what he knows about the white people with whom he works. And then ask the white people with whom he works what they know about him.)

— James Baldwin, The Fire Next Time

4 months ago

A cis woman tells me that maybe she should transition to gain male privilege as I'm recovering from getting beaten up in the men's bathrooms.

I tell her to be my guest and give me a call when she gets her jaw broken, I always carry a first aid kit and a pepper spray.

She calls me a misogynistic asshole.

A cis man tells me that he'd sure love some T.

Gave him my prescription and best of luck with the constant shortages and getting denied.

He calls me a pussy.

I'm fighting for my life and reproductive rights. I get told to get off women's fights, that it's not about me, like I shed my womb after my first T shot.

I search for support groups for SA victims, and I'm stuck in the same “women/NBs only”. Still shooting my shot, send an application. I introduce myself. Never get a call back.

I go to a trans night. Say I go by he/him. Get told back “yeah, that's how we all start !” by a trans woman. I'm too exhausted, I get up and I leave.

I hang out with my friends, one of them drunkenly says masculinity is a prison we must learn to escape. She gets rows of applause. Back to drinking alone.

Yes I could explain it. But who'd you rather be ? A delusional girl or a man made threat ?Or it could be better, I could just not exist ! And we'd bleach my corpse and I'd become a casualty. Not an F, ot an M, a W for Wound and for Wrong.

I put a candle on a single cupcake, 2 years on HRT. I blow it in the dark. Curtains closed like casket.

4 months ago

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9 months ago

Ahhh I think I would fuck with they/them pronouns but I don't think I could ever use them for as long as tme people continue to degender trans women by they/themming us. Like if I go by she/they. I know which ones are gonna be used if people got a problem with me.

4 months ago
I Know I Will Never Feel The Same After Meeting You

I know I will never feel the same after meeting you

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1 month ago

"Women are the only species expected to mate with our natural predators" they're not our natural predators, there's nothing about how dangerous they are to us that should make you go "that's just the natural order of things," stop treating this as inherent and inevitable, also you sound like a TERF, we're not separate species.

1 year ago

Korean fan living in Korea here) It seems that it’s only the international fandom that see Project Moon’s recent firing of the illustrator as ‘protecting’ their staff from assault.

From all we know here in Korea, the ‘protests’ were largely just standing in front of the headquarters and yelling at the devs, sending threats.

Edit : did more digging and the protestors took some ‘evidences’ and met the devs so they DID get inside the building. but it was mostly talking and they were not actively threatening the devs with physical violence or anything as far as I know according to korean fandom communities ; picture of the perpetrator below.

Korean Fan Living In Korea Here) It Seems That It’s Only The International Fandom That See Project

But even if they WERE physically violent,  informing the police and suing the hell out of the protestors would’ve been the reasonable move, if they truly cared about their staff’s wellbeings. 

(I saw some tweets about how its more ‘dangerous’in East Asia, so Project Moon was reasonably afraid of escalating the situation, but South Korea’s violent crime rates are very low, much lower than the US(https://www.nationmaster.com/country-info/compare/South-Korea/United-States/Crime) , so…)

Besides, the ‘loud minority’ of the Incel Korean Fanbase isn’t really a ‘minority’ ; they usually make up a large percentage of income of the gaming industry, especially for a gacha game. And firing female voice actors and illustrators for participating in feminist practices has been done before (it happened in Closers and Girls Frontline.) 

So unfortunately, for the time being it seems that Project Moon simply chose what they believe to be the best path for profit-maximizing. Prioritising the male Korean fanbase while not also losing the majority of the international fanbase.  

Excuse me for the broken english, some misunderstandings (due to language and culture barrier) were getting a bit frustrating.

Please inform me if there was any misinformation. I might delete this according to future developments.

tl; dr )this was likely a corporate decision and not a spur-of-the-moment thing to save themselves from physical threat because 1. Incels are seen as pretty profitable in Korean gaming industry and 2. the police force works mostly ok in here so why not just… call em.

3 months ago
Ever Growing Collection Demonstrating That TME Is Frequently Used To Be Synonymous With "transmasc" Or
Ever Growing Collection Demonstrating That TME Is Frequently Used To Be Synonymous With "transmasc" Or
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Ever growing collection demonstrating that TME is frequently used to be synonymous with "transmasc" or "afab trans people" rather than all people who are supposedly TME.

5 months ago

"Transandrophobia isn't real because that implies trans women oppress trans men" it doesn't, but do you think this way because you think transmisogyny means trans men oppress trans women?

"Transandrophobia is reactionary to transmisogyny and is just a way to make trans men feel special and more important" it isn't, but do you think that way because you think Transmisogyny is more "special and important" than other forms of oppression?

"Androphobia and misandry aren't real, so transandrophobia can't be" because you're basing your viewpoint on transmisogyny, and misogyny is the ultimate victimhood for you, right? Because we can't have a conversation separate from transmisogyny, because transmisogyny is the worst form of victimization, and everything stems from misogyny, especially transmisogyny. If you're not talking about misogyny, you might as well shut up.

And we can't have issues that aren't shared with cis people, because otherwise we aren't "really" men and women. Because white cishet people are the ones we should be looking to when we "prove" our identity through our suffering, right?

To be a woman, you have to suffer. To be a man, you can never suffer. You can never just be. You have guilt and shame and violence and self sacrifice to be doing if you dare to transition into power.

Because if you, a trans man, don't have male privilege, that must mean that trans women do, because we all live in opposite to eachother, even though the framework of male privilege is something made by and for cis people. If trans women are suffering, that must mean that you aren't.

You can't talk about your own life or struggles or else you're indirectly talking about trans women, and cis men, and cis women, and everyone else except you.

(And fuck non-binary and intersex people and whatever they have going on with their identities that shits just not important to our oppositional viewpoint, right? We can make them fit in this box based off of their genitals, anyway. Dont bring racism into this either, you're just being misogynistic if you do.)

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