Reminder From Me To You: Unclench Your Jaw, Soften Your Forehead & Relax Your Shoulders

Me logging back into ED tumblr after spending a month binging and calling it “recovery”

Y’all if this wasn’t the most motivation I’ve ever had-

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=6Buo4fKBY1I

I've only ever had very few ana rules that work for me:

Always eat something for breakfast and dinner, it shouldnt be too big.

Water water water water water 💦

Dont eat anything that you can easily say "no" to. If you crave that cookie, only one bite and youre done.

I usually don't eat if I dont have to during the day, so no social eating for me. (I also stay away from eating anything with my family and make my own meals which is easy)

If you're still hungry after dinner, if all day's calories were low its okay to have a little something more.

Thats about it, I've lost over 45lbs in total doing this.

actual “tips”

it’s normal to fluctuate 2-4 lbs per day. if you’re restricting, the fluctuations are larger because you bloat MUCH easier.

however, since there are around 3500 calories in 1lb of fat, it takes a little less than 2 days to burn off a single pound of fat. your fluctuations will make it seem like you’re losing much faster some days and like you’re not doing anything at all others, but it’s not an indication of how “good” you’ve been in a particular week, or few days.

those posts that say “reblog to lose 10lbs this week’’ or whatever? yeah, if that happens, it’s fluctuation! so if it doesn’t, don’t feel bad— over a long period of time, you really cannot expect to lose more than 1/2 a lb per day even if you could sustainably fast for that entire time, which isn’t realistic and will lead to binging if you’re even slightly prone to it.

sustainable weight loss is ALWAYS better— eating around 1000-1500 per day plus whatever you burn off from exercise will result in a 1-2 lb loss consistently per week, and it’s much easier to structure your eating so you don’t binge. you’ll probably lose MORE weight this way.

keep ur goal in the healthy weight range, though. you don’t want skin that is patchy and prone to acne, bone problems that will hurt you for the rest of your life, brittle and dull hair, nails that break all the time, poor circulation leading to discoloration in the skin, a grayish tint to your skin, etc. some of us tend to romanticize the effects of being underweight like bruising, being shaky, dark circles, etc, but do you really want constantly patchy, simultaneously acne-prone and dry skin? probably not. also, do you want to never be able to go out and enjoy your body because you’re so exhausted all the time?

My reasons to be skinny (kind of a long read)

- thin thighs, thin thighs, thin thighs! I used to LOVE looking down at how skinny my thighs were. I felt so beautiful. Although I can admit my thighs aren’t HUGE, they’re too big for my liking, and I don’t think I’ll ever be happy with them until they’re skinny.

- calves and ankles. I haven’t seen many thinspo blogs talking about this, so maybe it’s abnormal; but calves are almost as important to me as thighs. I think it’s so cute when girls have small, dainty, thin calves and ankles and they look so good in tall boots (especially chunky goth boots).

- collarbones. Collarbones are so pretty. Girls, boys, and anyone alike always look beautiful with protruding collarbones. It makes you look structured, like art. I will have such defined collar bones when I’m skinny. I will look like art.

- Thin arms and small wrists. Similar to my beliefs about collarbones, I love how beautiful thin wrists and arms look. You can see the beautifully crafted bone structure beneath the skin, and it just reminds you of how pretty humans are.

- flat stomach. I’ve been unhappy with my stomach for quite a while. I want to be able to be happy with my reflection without sucking in the fat.

- envy of skinny goth girls. Most goth girls are very skinny, and I desperately want to be like that. I don’t know how to describe it very well, but I just love that look of looking pale and effortlessly skinny, just being yourself and being happy.

- piggy back rides, being carried, sitting on laps, etc. I want to be the friend that everyone picks up because they’re so light. I want to have fun and do things I wouldn’t normally do, and enjoy my teenage years.

- I want to stop focusing on eating so much. I want to just eat a tiny amount because it’s all my stomach will allow- and I won’t be eating trashy foods because I don’t crave them anymore.

- The girl I hate is very skinny. I’ll be skinnier and prettier than her. It’ll be so unbelievably satisfying to know I weigh less than her.

- People will worry about me. This seems odd, but it’s what I want. I want people to talk about how skinny I am. I want people to ask me if I’ve eaten. I want people to finally see what I’m struggling with, because they’ll see how skinny I’ve gotten.

- knowing I can lose all that weight and ignore my urges to eat, I’ll know I can do anything. It’ll keep me motivated in school and exercise.

✨Body check: 5/24/20✨

my may intake rules

this is for my use. I updated my old rules to be more restrictive.

1) 500 calorie limit

2) one meal a day. Eat at 11:30. must fast 24 hours everyday

3) weigh in everyday.

Things won't start to change fast

1 week- scale starts to change minorly

2 weeks- scale starts to change majorly

3 weeks- minor change in face

4 weeks- minor change in stomach

5 weeks- change in legs

Be patient.

Hard pills to swallow:

Losing weight is actually a very simple thing to do, but your lack of patience and complete disregard for your own health will inevitably lead you into a never ending binge/restrict cycle, preventing you from reaching your goals