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did you just cough on my open wound???

Early morning flight means early morning ramblings

I think Pony at one point or another definitely feels anxiety over Johnny’s last message to ‘stay gold’. Because he grows older and he’s still a greaser. And things happen to people like Mark and Bryon, and he wonders how he can stay gold with all this tragedy that seems to follow him.

And he goes to college, and maybe he drinks too much too fast. And as the world spins around him he wonders whether Johnny feels disappointed in him because how can being drunk be staying gold.

And of course Johnny wouldn’t think less of him, not with Two-Bit as one of his friends. But Johnny isn’t here and all Pony has left of him is the words he left behind. A promise to stay gold even though growing older makes him feel like the gold is slipping through his fingers. Dawn giving way to a day he’s not sure he can make it through.

AI can't recreate this MASTERPIECE

woah mama, i mean they

ive got blue hair and pronouns

he/him

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rip sodapop and steve, yall would’ve loved being duos in dti and scamming kids for vip 😔

things that happened to me when i was a woman in STEM:

an advisor humiliated me in front of an entire lab group because of a call I made in his place when he wouldn't reply to my e-mails for months

he later delegated part of my master's thesis work to a 19-year old male undergrad without my approval

a male scientist at a NASA conference looked me up and down and asked when i was graduating and if i was open to a job at his company. right before inquiring what my ethnicity was because i "looked exotic"

a random male member of the public began talking over me and my female advisor, an oceanographer with a pHD and decades of experience, saying he knew more about oceanography than us

things that have happened to me since becoming a man in STEM:

being asked consistently for advice on projects despite being completely new to a position

male colleagues approaching me to drop candid information regarding our partners / higher ups that I was not privy to before

lenience toward my work in a way I haven't experienced before. incredible understanding when I need to take time off to care for my family.

conference rooms go silent when I start talking. no side chatter. I get a baseline level of attention and focus from people that's very unfamiliar and genuinely difficult for me to wrap my head around.

like. yes some PI's will still be assholes regardless of the gender of their subordinates but, I've lived this transition. misogyny in STEM is killing women's careers, and trans men can and do experience male privilege.

I crave to just be a teenager but being a teenager today is different than it was before I was born. Being a teenager today means an internet addiction, mindlessly scrolling through anything and everything you can find. Being a teenager today means growing up in a society where you can’t go outside anytime you want, or something could happen to you. I crave to just be a teenager in the sense that me and my friends just go to random restaurants to hang out. Being stupid in a playground before we need to go home. Having picnics in a park. Going to each others houses to gossip and dance in pjs. Maybe it’s just where I’ve grown up that prevents me from doing these things but I just want to have the experience my parents and older siblings were able to have

Most interesting things tumblr has so far advertised to me:

anxiety reducing therapy fleshlight (I do not have a dick)

an app for reading the Torah (I am not jewish)

emotional support group for divorced men in a city I've never lived in (I'm not even married yet)

the alledged secrets of divination from cowrie shells in Sudanese culture (I have never been to Sudan, nor been particularly interested in divination)

Christian fashion streetwear (I am not a christian nor do I wear streetwear)

offers of online therapy for divorced men (where are they getting this??)

how to hire a dating coach (????)

mental health support for first responders (I am not a first responder, I dropped out of nursing school because I couldn't handle it)

a service to book your journey to Mecca (I am not muslim)

coaching for how to build your personal brand on OnlyFans (?!?!?!)

they traumatized a man with big brown doe eyes and a slutty waist and they want me to be normal about it ?

1 reblog = 1 spoonful of medicine for darry

my tears are real

dallas winston pisses me off because I can defend him all I want, but at the end of the day it’s an undeniable fact that in a modern AU he’d listen to kanye west

all fandoms walk a notoriously fine line with trauma survivors and i feel like johnny cade is a good example of that. specifically, the often-seen portrayals of traumatized characters in ways that either romanticize their experiences or completely ignore their experiences (the latter of which is often done to favor another character’s journey).

i feel like the outsiders fandom (book, movie, and musical are lumped together here) at times leans heavily into the second one (minimization of trauma). now. i understand the fandom reversal of johnny’s role as being like. Not Innocent (and while i partially agree and think it’s a based take sometimes) i feel like some people do kind of turn him into a character he’s not by instilling a kind of confidence in him that he never had the opportunity to get. people tend to brush past the fact that he is, canonically, by far the quietest of the gang and RARELY talks. he is also, quote, “the gang’s pet.” (while pony IS an unreliable narrator, many of his descriptions of johnny, especially toward the beginning, are just descriptions of his physical reactions to his surroundings as well as past events like johnny getting jumped.)

He gets nervous around strangers. he’s hyper vigilant—two-bit surprises him at the drive-in and he pretty much has a panic attack. he’s 16 and has been borderline homeless for years. he has ptsd from a life of simultaneous abuse and neglect. he’s afraid to take up space because his life is so inconsistent he never knows what his existence will be met with—will it be ignored completely, or will it be met with an unforgiving hand? so he listens, and he watches, and he does hang around dally and the gang, but a big part of who he is comes from his upbringing - he tries as hard as possible to Not be noticed at all, because when he does, it’s bad. i think he would like to be a more confident, “normal” version of himself, but that person isn’t someone who he ever really had a chance to be.