Latest Posts by ufocrossing - Page 2

“I’m not everything I want to be, but I’m more than I was, and I’m still learning.”

— Charlotte Eriksson, Everything Changed When I Forgave Myself (via books-n-quotes)

“You are a language I am no longer fluent in, but still remember how to read.”

— Ashe Vernon (via naturaekos)

I think that one of my favorite things is just knowing a song my parents put on, thinking that its not something that anyone outside their generation would know and I do. I just know it.

"Oh, you wouldn't know this song, its from when I was in highschool"

I DO. AND IT MAKES ME HAPPY WHEN YOU GET ALL EXCITED THAT I KNOW IT BECAUSE YOU MAKE ME HAPPY AND I WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY AND SUPRISED

Did a remake of my old drawing of Killua and Gon!

didn’t have much time to draw something better but happy killugon day! 🎉✨

— Haven’t you ever been on a date, Killua?

hunter x hunter・manga doodles icons

pls like if you save

« 私は殺すのにとてもうんざりしています。 私はただ子供になりたいです。 たむろして、ゴンと何かをしなさい。 それで全部です。»

Beautiful Illustrations by Niuya

killua in sketches by niuya ✧･ﾟ:*

I think that one of my favorite things about Hunter X Hunter is the way Togashi makes us think that Gon would’ve never been able to beat the chimera ants.

I’m pretty sure that older Gon(the one who killed Pitou) is actually stronger or just as strong as the chimera ants themselves.

The reasoning behind why I think this is just that Gon was young, and he still kept his training from that age, not the older versions training/skills, and since we didn’t get to see more of adult Gon using the abilities/skills he learned, I think that Gon might’ve actually been able to fight the ants from the beginning if it were to happen years later.

ok wait, reblog if you’ve cried at least once because of math, doesn’t matter which grade i’m trying to prove something 

something i was thinking about

If someone were to ask me what I could binge hours upon hours of, clearly, I’d say Hunter X Hunter. It could be either the 2011, 1999, or even the manga, but I can say that I most definitely can watch hours worth of people analyzing the characters and the impact their backgrounds and walks of life play on their emotional, physical, and mental states.

Through those videos, I can understand the characters better and understand how they got there, with those specific motives and drives for what they do on a more in-depth level.

Another thing that I get from the videos is understanding not only the true impacts certain ways of life, habits, trauma, and issues have on the psyche of the characters and those around them, but it also helps me to understand the show waaaaaayyyy better.

Little side note, I notice that it also seeps into my life. The impact this show had on me didn’t entirely occur to me until I binged people analyzing the world and characters. I, for once, truly learned something that has stuck with me for longer than most other things have.

Why is math so hard? Like, I get that I have dyscalculia or whatever it is, but like, wtf why’s math gotta be a bitch??

theres a lot of things that scare me in this world, but i'd like to think that as of late, i've been working twards a better life, a slightly better me, slowly but surely.

i no-doubt, fully believe that Killua is so acutely aware of all of his “flaws” and or “imperfections” due to how he was raised and constantly reminded of them by his mother and brothers(all the family really, but I see Illumi and Kikyo doing it more often, maybe Milluki if I’m really thinking on it.).

I don't like ging but at least he was direct with gon on not wanted to see him and didn't denied he was an shitty dad compare to silva on doing terrible things to his children and think it was the right thing to do on prepare them be world-class assassins

I kinda agree. I have a really hard time and mixed feelings about Ging in general, but in comparaison to Silva, there’s no doubt Silva is worse.

No one can really be sure what kind of Dad Ging would have been - even now, he doesn’t consider Gon like his son, and Gon does’t feel like he is considered as such. So even his current behavior, that is to scold Gon and tell him to suck it up, is not exactly telling of if he would have been a good dad or not.

Abandon does a lot of horrible things to a kid. When it happens this early especially, it creates damages that are hard to overcome. Which is why also Mito lied and said Ging died, and it’s Kite who told him about Ging being alive and that Gon had to be worthy of finding Ging if he wanted to meet him. 

I think Mito meant well by taking Gon away from Ging, and that Ging wouldn’t have been able to raise Gon properly. Ging, as far as we know, doesn’t know Mito told Gon he was dead, and so far he didn’t care. He did leave a track though, and I find the whole thing with him letting Gon access to Greed Island a little douchy, but even there it is true that Ging had always spelled out that he didn’t want to be here.

Which is still harmful for a kid. Which is still really bad. Ging isn’t a good father at all, not even now.

But compared to Silva? He’s far better than this. Silva abused his children, all of them, in one way or another. the fact it’s “normal” in their family doesn’t make it okay. the fact Killua especially, once in a healthy environement, talks about all of this with horror, saying it was painful, means it was not normal. 

Silva wanted to have his children under controls, especially Killua. He agreed with Illumi to put Killua under mind controle, he locked Alluka up, Silva is not a good father.

And honestly when I see what kind of person Illumi is… While he became an abuser himself, all of this seems to me like the result of an even harder training and the fact he was far more isolated since, as the first born, he didn’t always have his siblings running around. Illumi accepted all this abuse as normal and necessary because that’s what he was taught, and that’s why he reproduces the cycles of abuse, especially on Killua. 

Silva’s way of raising his children had been proven harmful and destructive for their own individualities. 

Especially because Silva has expectations for them, and even if he gives them the illusion of a choice (or at least he does with Killua) he does so while still repeating that after all, Killua is his son so he’ll come back in the family’s ways.

It’s far more fucked up. It’s extremely fucked up.

Type of trauma and the reprecussion on children caused by family are harder to discuss than just saying one is better than the other, because the children will react with other ways, and it should be the responsability of the adults to not screw up their children.

But as far as bad father goes, Silva takes the cake.

Take care!

Do you think Killua and Gon's love languages are compatible and how so?

Heya!

huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh depends what you mean by that?

Gon’s way to reach out, to remind Killua how much he likes being with him, the declarations out of the blue, those are all compatible for Killua - everytime Gon had been vocal out of the blue about his affections for Killua, we saw direct physical reaction from him showing he was touched. So I think that works out.

On the other hand, Gon is rather perseptive, while he can’t realizes everything and is still oblivious at time, he has a strong understanding of some situation which allow him to get past some of Killua’s barrers and therefore, can make up for the amount of time Killua does not talk about his feelings. So Gon can look past how Killua closes himself about his feelings, and can still identify the actions Killua takes that are completely genuine. It can help with Killua’s language barrers a lot.

It works, but on the long term, they need to instore more communications. While so far they managed to get a lot through those, a lot of the unsaid is what brought the mutual breakdowns from the CA arc. Because sometimes Killua is too quiet for Gon to pick up what to cheer him up from, (The needle, the Bisky dilema, and Killua almost dying were all stuff Killua kept hiden from Gon and that Gon could never pick up on his own, no matter how perseptive he can be) or Gon will try cheering Killua up before the actual issue (Spending his time as he woke up from the Kite’s attack to reassure Killua only then to be in denial, which had Killua feel unable to tell Gon the truth by fear he may end up blaming him - and the fact when Gon legit killed himself he spent his last minutes reassuring Killua.).

The thing is that both knows that the other have a huge affection for them. On the most part, some of it works. But the CA arc also showed that, pushed to some extreme, those two behaviors wouldn’t be as compatible as they could have been in the Greed Island Arc. The GI arc showed us a lot of this Unsaid Understanding between those two, of Gon reading the situation despite Killua’s quietness over his feelings, and Gon acknowledging Killua’s action. This is the exact thing we can see as a parallel in the CA arc while, while pushed to personal extreme, those doesn’t work anymore.

I don’t think it’s a question of love language. It’s a little more complicated than that, and it enters a lot of conditional situations for it to work. The GI arc was proof that yes, their love languages were compatible, but the CA arc, with both pushed to those extreme, proved als that it wasn’t. Because they were at different personal mental state where it wasn’t working as well as before. 

Again, i’ll repeat it over and over again, but they are in desperate need of communication. It may have worked in the begining with their unsaid understanding, but on the long term…. They need to talk more, to be honest. Killua needs to talk about what he feels, Gon needs to stop putting reassuring Killua over the things they should be talking about.

So y e. Idk i don’t think it’s a love language thing, and it’s not that easy to narrow down because Gon and Killua changed a lot during the course of the series and the events that happened to them challenged their habits and their ways to react to it. IT’s not that easy, it can’t be that easily narrowed down imo.

Take care!

i tried the game evade, and it was fun. i’ll have to get used to the keys different things, but it’s still super fun!

i’ve been playing on the casual game mode it reccomends to new players, but i’ll try the other ones once i get a little bit more used to the keys! :))

Blank Space / a killugon lyric comic

LMAO This is supposed to be kind of a joke, please dont take my song choice seriously………..

I’m finally done with this I hope you like it! the thing is under the readmore ;D

WARNING: MAJOR HXH SPOILERS.

Keep reading

if killua and gon had twitter, killua would post pictures of alluka and where they were, using his account as a photo book. gon, well he would as well, but he’d be way more active. he’d post pictures of the fish he’s caught and birthday messages to his friends. 

completely forgot, i also feel like killua would make a playlist for gon and have the post go something like this:

k: *gon’s @* i made you a playlist

g: *replying to killua’s tweet* omg! thank you killua, you’re the bestest best friend!!

k: cut it out stupid.

hi! do you have any hurt/comfort fics where gon is the one being comforted?

All righty, this took a hot minute because Killua is infamous for being the comforted party in hxh hurt/comfort fics XD but I tracked down a handful that focus on Gon’s inner struggles!

Please mind the tags, since hurt/comfort fics tend to have darker/more triggering themes. <3

~Gabs ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

Hurt/Comfort (Gon)

7 Works.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

worse sights than this by Quintessence ( T | 2,049 | 1/1 )

Be strong, saith my heart; I am a soldier; / I have seen worse sights than this.

“It had to be fair, you know? I knew that from the moment I saw Kite’s body, torn apart and sewn back together over and over again. I had to do some sort of penance for that. I had to make up for what I’d done. I had to. I needed pain. A lot of it. Maybe enough…”

Gon takes a deep breath.

“Maybe enough that I wouldn’t make it out in one piece.”

In which things long unspoken finally come to light.

[Suicidal Thoughts]

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

whatever a moon has always meant by Quintessence ( T | 2,871 | 1/1 )

“That’s what I’m trying to tell you,” Killua says, firm but gentle.  “You’re not slowing down.  If you let yourself rest properly, you’ll actually be more efficient.  I think you should take the rest of the day off, get as much sleep as you want tonight, and pick things back up tomorrow.”

All at once, tears gather in Gon’s eyes, and he begins to tremble, so violently that Killua can see it from across the kitchen.

“What right do I have to that?” Gon all but shouts, his voice breaking.  “People are being hurt and I’m one of the few people who can actually do something about it, so what right do I have to relax?  The people who are in trouble aren’t getting to relax!  Not even for a moment!  Why should I get that luxury?”

In which Gon tries to carry the weight of the world on his shoulders, and stumbles under the load.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

these things don't just fade away by burbs ( T | 5,246 | 1/1 )

Gon, if possible, becomes more reckless.

[Self-Harm | Suicidal Thoughts]

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

the one that you want by poeticlump ( T | 3,110 | 1/1 )

“I-I just . . .”

“You just what, Gon.” His soft white hair was disheveled, sneakers coated in fresh city grime, and he looked like he wanted to scream—in a way that only Gon could recognize. His stance was composed, cold, calculated; with Killua it was all in his eyes.

But for one of the record first times in his life, Gon had no words. For the first time, he didn’t want to be honest. He didn’t want to be straightforward. He was sick of telling everyone in the world exactly what he felt and wanted. Some things, some things were sacred. Some things Killua wouldn’t understand.

He wouldn’t understand that Gon wanted him to himself.

[OR Gon reunites with his best friend only to experience a night of blinding, all-consuming jealousy.]

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

It’s Alright by orphan_account ( T | 2,527 | 1/1 )

Gon keeps smiling, assuring Killua that he's alright despite the evidence contrary. Killua has to find a way to help him before it's too late.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

Lilacs by DecemberCamie ( G | 1,217 | 1/1 )

If Gon got the Hanahaki Disease...

((Hanahaki Disease - an illness in which unrequited love causes the patient to coughs up flower petals, eventually leading to suffocation))

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

less than half myself by lxonardo ( T | 6,020 | 1/1 )

"You know you don’t have to figure this out alone, right? We can do it together, so pl—”

“But I really don’t know. I don’t want to burden you—” Gon trembled, grabbing the slide door to keep himself steady. He shut his eyes tightly, suddenly his eyes growing heavy with tears building up. “I don’t know why I’m feeling like this all of a sudden.”

Within a split second, Killua rushed to his side, gentle arms embracing him in a hug. Gon was shaking, and he circled his arms back around his waist, resting his temple on his shoulder. His gut was telling him to get away and you’ll be hurt again, and it was growing louder. But Gon chose to ignore it, because he was safe and Killua wouldn’t do anything to hurt him. Killua was, if anything, a safe haven to him; it made no sense that he would subconsciously fear him, especially when he’s been with him for so long.

[Implied/Referenced Past Sexual Abuse]

just finished HUNTER X HUNTER. I just, wow. i don’t even know how to explain the feelings im feeling, that was a rollercoaster. 

after 3 long years of starting it, pausing and not coming back to it, having to restart, and restart again, im glad i finished it.

(im probably going to make a longer post about it in a few hours, but eh)

a little bit earlier I was having a conversation with my mom about how I'm antisocial, and all I could think about was

I'm an alien. people don’t even believe in my existence, and those that do, when they see me, everyone thinks they’re lying. 

i was messing around on a dress up game on roblox

the quality is so bad😭😭

This is just something that crossed my mind and I wanted to say something, even though it really isn’t necessarily worth a post.

Whenever I start listening to a new band, it seems like the community already has a song that is supposed to be the bands best song(in that fans, and others who agrees opinion), and it makes me kind of upset knowing that they feel like they *somewhat* have the right to decide that specific song has got to be the bands best song. It’s nothing against the bands or the community, its just those specific people that feel the need to say that one song is better than the rest and should be listened to more often is just kind of annoying and turns some people away.

i have made the executive decision to start listening to ghost.

in regards to my post about going into highschool

I chose not to go to public school, but instead chose to go to an amazing online school. I still kinda want to go to public school, but I’m not sure I’d be able to handle that. It’s not that I couldn’t eventually mingle with the students there, its just that with all the issues I have with both my mental state and my learning disabilities, it would be messy to say the least.

The Corpse Bride will forever be one of my comfort movies, not even mentioning how AMAZING YOUR ART IS!!

Historically accurate Corpse Bride

Drawing inspirations from the 1870s-1880s . So perhaps the film might be set in the 1890s-1900s, if this dress was her mothers dress.....its a stretch, but that time period with fashion has the perfect silhouette for the hip hugging bodice she wears in the film - as you can see in my brainstorming sketches at the bottom. And instead of the bones of her ribs visible under the hole on her bodice, you can see the bones of her....corset 😅.

Kite as a Narrative Foil to Killua

Goddamn I love writing meta so here’s some more meta. A huge thank you to @owlphallacies for helping me revise this monster!

In this I’m going to be talking about something that’s been percolating in my brain for a long time: the relationship that Kite and Killua have to each other as characters. Specifically, that Kite is likely to be a narrative foil to Killua. A narrative foil is a literary device that contrasts two things (plots, settings, characters, etc) by either setting them up as ‘completely different’ or ‘extremely similar except for one key difference’. This example would be the latter, definitely, and as a matching set Ging is certainly a foil to Gon (there’s a lot to say there, but this is already a 20 page Word doc so  >.>  I’ll just touch on it at times).

It’s not unreasonable for Kite and Ging to be a ‘previous generation’ version of Killua and Gon given how that’s a common thing in shonen manga—One Piece, for example, is rife with characters inheriting the unfulfilled dreams of their mentors. It’s a good way to establish character motivation, in that case, but in this one would more of a catalyst for character development than protagonist-vs-antagonist plot events.

tl; dr: In all likelihood Kite acts as a narrative foil to Killua through his relationship to Ging, which is similar to Killua and Gon’s except that the power imbalance is more exaggerated. On the more theoretical side, I predict that what prompts Gon and Killua to truly air out their respective issues and begin working to improve their relationship will be the dramatic destruction of Kite and Ging’s, proving the consequences of allowing such issues to fester over time.

Keep reading