Some Of You Have Never Taken The ‘Am I Gay’ Quiz At 13, Deliberately Chosen The Obviously Straight

very specific Julien Baker lyrics that fucc me up

But I think there’s a god and he hears either way …. i rejoice

Maybe it’s all gonna turn out alright and I know that its not but I have to believe that it is 

maybe the emptiness is just a lesson in canvasses

and besides I’m starting to get used to the gap

pinned to the mattress like an insect to styrofoam/ all my prayers are just apologies

Grit my teeth and try to act deserving / When I know there’s nowhere I can hide from your humiliating grace …. and I would go to church on sunday

rom the sting, paper sheets, bloodwork and the IV / And the whirring machines while the nurses reassure me

(I know I shouldn’t act this way in public)

But I’ve kissed enough bathroom sinks to make up for the lovers that never loved me/ And I know my body is just dirty clothes

And I just let the parking lot swallow me up / Choking your tires, and kicking up dust / Asking aloud why you’re leaving / But the pavement won’t answer me

so are we just gonna ignore this y'all?

Hot hot hot hot chocolate

HEY WE GOT IT

when julien baker said [the instrumental last minute and a half of funeral pyre] ….,…,. I felt that.

love that my brain needed something to fixate over so i can feel happy again and it decided to settle on the world’s saddest little indie musician

me: *says the vaguest most incoherent shit ever*

me: you know what i mean :/

maybe you were put on this earth to be tender and loving during a time when you are expected to be cruel and calloused

the good place really presented itself as this silly comedy where a Bad Person gets stuck in heaven and instead of sticking with pointless humor they dove so hard into the theme of what it means to be good and to be alive....they really did that

the addams family wasn’t particularly magic or supernatural or anything, their goth game was just hard af