Concept: My Home Is Filled With Sunshine, Always, And The Sound Of Wind Chimes In The Morning. The Doors

can you hear the music?

mr darcy: literally insults elizabeth’s entire family while proposing

elizabeth: you are the last man in the world whom i could ever be prevailed upon to marry

mr darcy:

some dissociation feels:

my thoughts are far away and I can barely hear them 

feelings and reactions are all fake

emptiness

personality???

there’s another person in my body

there’s someone trapped in the mirror

I can’t die because I’m not real

why is the world so blurry and bright?

time goes fast but everything else goes slow

always performing in front of an invisible audience

nothing makes sense so what is rational/irrational??

Don’t spend another year doing the same shit.

Dissociation feels

everything is happening 0.5 times too fast

numb

everything but a little bit to the left

Numb™

it feels like Monday the 17th at 3:31pm but also like Saturday at 4:57am

….. existing?

hahahaHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

why are the end credits playing I didn’t even hit play

Current emotion is coma

I need to self-harm but I physically cannot move

feeling panic rising up inside but being too numb to physically react

Must Do Thing. Do Not Know What Thing Is.

N҉͏̖͇͕̥ư̷̭̪͇͉̰̱͢ͅḿ͝҉̠̬̘͇̫͇͍̘͜b̴͓͍̱̣

everythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingevery

…I should start a religion

I A M G O D

*vibrating softly* everything in the world is my fault

Numb

Existence Is Fraud

Do I still have legs?

…souls all the more beautiful because they are swollen with longing.

Albert Camus, from Youthful Writings; “Jehan Rictus, The Poet of Poverty,” (via violentwavesofemotion)

Academic aesthetics

Dark Academia

Long Black coats, thunder but no lightning, red wine, blood, forests in winter, a single guttering candle, latin, bones, all of history in your hands, Tchaikovsky, piles of old books, the hour before sunrise, complicated cravats, Hozier, true crime, Donna Tartt, secret diaries.

Light Academia

Sunshine in shallow water, white cotton, lacy dresses, champagne, the plays of Oscar Wilde, summer rain, wind rustling the pages of a book, jacket over on shoulder, Maurice, frost covering new flowers, Florence + the machine, roses, bare feet, girls school, old books about species of plant or butterflies, biological Diagrams, flowers in your hair, perfect notes.

Chaotic Academia

Two top buttons undone, scribbled notes in pencil or biro, kill your darlings, untied laces, so much coffee, all nighters, crying in the library, Mozart, writing film scripts for fun, rain Storms, moorland, swimming in the dark, movie soundtracks while studying, procrastination, muddy boots, unsent letters.

Grey Academia

Jane eyre, sunrise, cold hands, perfect handwriting, beat gen, Edgar Alan Poe, crows, small animal bones, writing essays until 2am, Vivaldi, February or November, zodiacs, loving history and art, Leonardo davinci, Tamino.

Romantic Academia

Billowing pirate sleeves, Lord Byron, theatre, violets, achilles, reading poetry aloud, bloody cheekbones, love letters, doodling in class, doc Martins, long ball dresses, gothic churches, dead poets society, sword fights back stage, wind and mist and violent Storms, tea, long journal entries, wide brimmed hats, museums.

Spring Academia

Cotton shirts with large jumpers, celendines, maypole dancing, reading short stories, old traditions, Jane Austen, new term, beautiful notes, pastel colours, period dramas, magpies, 2005 pride and prejudice soundtrack, new leaves, cold feet, dancing.

Summer Academia

Flower crowns, studying late while the sun is still up, full moons, parties outside, sun dresses, warm rainstorms, exam season, bare feet, ancient Greece, herb tea, singing to the radio, lying in the grass, bird song, biology textbooks, the Lord of the rings, studying outside, mystery of love by sufjan Stevens.

Autumn Academia

Foxes, dead leaves, large coats and scarves, old stone walls, steaming black tea, mist, travel journals, forgetting to study until the last minute, frankenstein, old songs, nostalgia, carrying a book everywhere, rebel rebel, the picture of dorian gray, soup, studying in the morning as the sun rises.

Winter Academia

Long walks, misty breath, so much reading, shunning capitalist society, sad music, learning about witch hunts, philosophy, wuthering heights, mystery books, Dracula, black and white photos, transcribing music, old statues, silence.

Feral Academia

Pin stripe jacket with jeans, Dionysus, "norse" makeup, cold sweet tea, running through the forest, mythology, I got an unconditional so I don't need to try hard, scraping the grades, shouty music, helenic polytheism, obsessive interests, reading a 500 page book in one sitting, love learning, hate the education system, vive le revolution.

German movies part 2

Hey guys! I noticed how many people on this website are learning German or want to learn it. It is my mother tongue and I love German cinema. We all know that movies help to improve language skills, so I made a list about my favorite German films and some must-sees! I hope you enjoy these films!

Türkisch für Anfänger (based on a famous TV series, a German girl, a Turkish boy and his sister and some weird German guy are lost on a deserted island)

Der Baader Meinhof Komplex (based on the story of Andreas Baader, Ulrike Meinhof & the RAF)

Bibi Blocksberg (kids movie about the most famous German witch)

Charlie & Louise - Das doppelte Lottchen (German version of The Parent Trap, cutest ending ever)

Mädchen, Mädchen (3 girls that are crazy about having an orgasm, the movie is all about love, sex and orgasms)

Wo ist Fred? (a guy fakes being disabled and learns a lot about disabled people)

Die Wolke (tragic movie, a girl and her brother are desperately trying to leave the city because of a malfunction in a nuclear power plant, it’s very fxcking sad)

Vincent will Meer (moving film about a guy suffering from Tourette syndrom)

Freier Fall (a movie about 2 guys falling for each other, one of them has a wife and a child)

Rubbeldiekatz (a guy fakes being a woman so he can play in a famous movie - and he falls in love with the main actress)

Christiane F. - Wir Kinder vom Bahnhof Zoo (y’all know what this about I guess)

Feuchtgebiete (THIS MOVIE IS SO GROSS AND NSFW i don’t know any other film that is like this omg)

Der Schuh des Manitu (a classic lmao)

Barfuss bis zum Hals (literally everyone is naked at some point)

Die Apothekerin (about a pharmacist with a messed up life, a lot of ppl will die but believe me, you won’t be sad haha)

them: are you ok? 

me thinking about the time when I could read and study without taking a break every 10 seconds: No

stop asking if you’re “valid,” start asking if you’re being honest about belonging to a community. stop this feelings-first, validate-me nonsense and realize that respect and validity starts with you, not with other people’s perception of you. if you don’t fit the definition for a term, then it’s not everyone else’s fault that you don’t feel valid, it’s yours for co-opting a term that wasn’t yours to begin with.