Raiden Was Annoying To Me In Mgs2 Bc He Is Like Subversion Of Player's Expectation Set By Snake: Bitching

just seen this short fanfic (nsfw warning for smut and gore):

it is atrocious in a good way. the smut is horrible (to me at least, im talking circumcision by gunshot and gore, but it's hard to take seriously anyway bc of the spelling and style and how bizarre it is) but necessary to the plot, and the rest is amazing imo. i laughed at it so hard i woke my roommate. because of the spelling and silly stuff first i thought not much thought was put into it, but some bits are either just part of the joke or genuine profound ideas, and it definitely touches on themes of loneliness, unrequited love, homophobia and objectification. and it is concluded with a reminder to treat your lovers as precious persons and not objectify them, and a reassuring verse from the bible (which i find endearing despite not being a christian).

i genuinely recommend reading it, it impressed me enough to publicly post a link to this kind of content on my page lol. i hope it doesn't break any tumblr rules and i won't get banned and/or lynched for reposting content this dubious lmao, i definitely not approve of killing your hookup partners in real life, that is obviously bad and evil

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morning line of action. focused on shadows today: looked at the whole photo and thoughts which parts are the darkest, the lightest, a bit dark etc, picked a part (all the darkest areas, for example), drew a light line to mark the edges of that area and filled it in with respective value. i should think of a better way that allows more than 3 values and smoother transitions between shadow and light, but for now i like how it came out compared to yesterday. focused on faces too; it only goes for longer sketches but i resisted the temptation to leave the face blank or draw a -_- like thingy; i disliked what i was seeing while drawing them but now i think it's not horrible. i should do faces practice later to improve.

noticed that for some reason it takes me longer to draw feminine looking models than masculine looking ones. 5 minutes was enough to draw and shade the curvy guy, draw his face in a simplified way and his genitals (something i do rarely), and for the next 5 minute sketch of a lady i didn't even get to her head before time ran out. 10 minute lady's boobies are unshaded bc i ran out of time too. i wonder why is that; the answer might be bc i get lots of pictures of that particular guy for some reason and mb i learnt to draw him faster, but who knows. i wanted to shade the orb on the 25 minute one, but ran out of time exactly as soon as i was finished with the man. look at that orb tho, guess who is failing hard at drawabox ellipse tasks lol

it's the second time i do line of action in the morning instead of evening and both times i am satisfied more than on average; mb will make it a part of my morning routine (which is currently washing face, brushing teeth, mb shower and breakfast lol)

seeing other people in tumblr do same exercises daily makes me want to practice every day too

3 hours after i posted this i have encountered a cute lady that required my assistance in my office building!

it's not the next year yet and it wasn't that kind of assistance ofc but still nice! new year magic or smth ✨

seen a post about "yule boasting" - a tradition of publicly making "new year's resolutions" of unrealistic nature that will not be accomplished. fast google search did provide some mentions of a boasting tradition as a part of yule celebration but not enough details for me to consider the post accurate. however, i like the idea and if the yule boasting tradition didn't exist in that particular form before, now it does bc i am going to partake - feel free to join!

so, the deeds i will accomplish in 2025:

- draw the boss from metal gear smiling with joy and tenderness, a picture so good that the indomitable will itself will descend onto me and possess me, and a glimmer of it will be visible to anyone who lay eyes on the drawing

- sing 100 songs, quiet and loud, in privacy and in company of other people, friends and strangers

- please 100 ladies in sexual way, or please a lesser amount of ladies 100 times in total

- slay a number of foes in real life and thus prove myself worthy and earn the right to marry the old fashioned way

- feast on 100 meals (vegan)

- observe 100 wild beasts, big and small

- lift 100 stones (mostly small)

- read 10 good books (not 100, not that unrealistic lol)

- love 100 people: strangers, project partners, friends, romantic partners, family and foes

- find a decent and bearable reason to live that doesn't make me frustrated lol

feel free to post your own yule boasting, while arguably useless it is fun and sincere!

text and shorter sketches below

tried to draw more women, as previously planned. i specifically focused on not drawing tiny feet again and did it anyway :')

still learning to draw faces with acceptable accuracy. not much progress today, some just look bad and others don't resemble the model, but i kind of like how i did the 35 minute lady face.

shorter ones:

I loved his look, naturally I had to draw him

text and a silly doodle from yesterday below

i did line of action yesterday as well but didn't post.

i like the 10 minutes breakdancing guy (even although the shoulder is bad) and especially his pants; i mostly draw naked people bc it lets me see the anatomy better and yesterday while working on a small passion project it became obvious that i don't know what do pants look like lol. so this sketch was also my pants practice, in a way.

the longest sketch isn't much of upgrade from the 10 minute one, but that's ok i guess.

in a yt video there was an advice to do both practice and passion projects. i'd like to redraw one post i've seen here, which requires to practice faces, poses from imagination (or reference) and drawing specific characters. the first character i decided to draw is kazuhira miller from mgsv, and i was anxious bc i care about that character and would like to do him justice and draw him good. i opened a reference - the concept arts (full body and face) and the 3d model - and tried drawing the same things for now. i still have noticeable skill issue just drawing people (and faces especially), so even copying the exact same thing wasn't perfect, but i kinda like how the small doodle of his head (the one in the middle) came out and am posting ot below just as a small celebration. after this exercise i understood that i should as well practice drawing clothes and shoes (and mb guns if i will decide to be thorough). overall it went better than i expected.

wip/practice au where monsoon is anatomically equipped to eat soup

more (and worse) below

my friend persuaded me to use a liner instead of pencil this time. it sucked lol, i did everything wrong: starting from bad lines and ending by worrying too much about the lines and no possibility to use eraser i forgot about the line of action and messed up the proportions big time. for the last one he proposed using pen so it would be a bit easier than liner. it was a bit easier and actually enjoyable. i messed up the buttock shading and tried again, but messed up face this time (as well as the shape in general) so after the timer reached the limit i drew shades on her and sent her to a tropical resort just to have a bit fun. i also tried a new way of shading in the liner sketches, doesn't look good yet but i will try more.

i started this little sketch/practice diary with intention to post no matter how bad the pic is, so this is the reason im posting it.

00's kazuhira miller in a baseball cap disguise as mentioned in "like one of his animes" on ao3 (sorry bro if you're reading this, it's otasune porn; to anyone else - feel free to look it up).

me and my roommate (interchangeable)

just started peace walker immmm in love with both of them

also kaz drawing is from me seeing that his best base stat was cooking..