Took Sleeping Pills Yesterday And Had Funny Dreams, Among Them - Having To Draw Miller On A Chalkboard,

i love how if you look at low poly rats, the less polygons there are the more it explores the basic shape of a rat, the rat shape essence. i am always excited to see a lower poly rat model. which even more simple shape can a rat be boiled down to?

Rat by @intenselyfloofyartist

a small miller study based on @/sunclown 's art and peace walker model. i intended to focus on the hairstyle but ended up paying more attention to the face. i think i finally have an understanding (or a guess, at least) of his face structure. drew the pic that i like tbh and then some rougher notes on the shapes i tried to capture, for future reference.

it's bc peace walker is a horse

finding out the answer to what is a metal gear is far more vibes based if i dont take the bipedal nuclear weapon description. why the fuck isnt peacewalker listed as a metal gear on the wiki she should count !

30 minute warmup. i like how that one 1 minute doodle came out, and partly the final 10 minute thing (i paused it and took my time)

another big boss apology wall of text under cut

idk i'm pretty sure that being a tool is a major theme in mgs overall. solid snake is created to be a tool and his story is about accepting or fighting it. the boss willingly was a tool, and while naked snake didn't accept being used to create clones or the boss making him kill her, i think he still existed within a social group with those values and it definitely influenced him. i think his refusal to accept the terrible children project and his pw arc where he ends up disapproving the boss, as well as what we see in mgs4, shapes him into the character who begins to question the system if values that deems it ok to treat people as tools, even though he still acts within it and ends up going along with it anyway (note the portable ops ending - idc if it's not canon - and how he ends up doing the same thing using the very same funds even). also i think that he was influenced in that regard by the boss and her words that the worst thing you can do for a comrade is to have personal feelings for them; note how he told amanda she should start treating chico as a soldier rather than as her brother.

i kind of thought he is more distant from his troops bc of seemingly spending time in acc instead of some kind of quarters on the rig, but mb he is more attached to his men than ishmael.

tbh i'm very biased bc if i were venom snake i would consider myself lucky, even though i understand the whole bereft of his own identity thing, and it is easy for me to imagine that despite conflicting feelings he would gladly accept his role. doing an important meaningful thing for the project that is my (and other people's) dream, and also (in a way that matters) becoming the person who i deeply admire and respect and mb even worship? i value my identity but would trade it (not without some sadness but with little to no hesitation) any day; to me the whole venom snake thing seems like a metaphor for a particular masculine dream/fantasy/expected behaviour tbh (not implying that all men want it or that only men can want it or that it's healthy): you discard some parts of yourself in order to shape yourself into a "cool guy" and do an "important meaningful thing"

Venom snake as a character tells a decent bit by proxy about big boss imo. You design him, give him your name, birthday. Venom was a completely different person and character before ttp. Considered one of John's best soilders within this cult of an operation.

Whats his thanks? Your thanks as the player? Becoming him. Memories replaced, face reconstructed, and made to stand in for him so he can achieve his greater plan. Becoming the biggest tool of them all. Being a proxy of him. An extension. An extension to him and his legend. Given a measely thanks over a tape. Then sent to die in his place.

All for some elusive greater good for soilders. A bigger picture you'll never get to see.

That is your reward.

Now some people argue that at the end, venom clearly is on board with it even after finding out the truth, yet I'd argue that even if he is, that's because of the cult like mentality of msf. Like yeah to any soilder on that base essentially becoming big boss and playing a big role in his plan would probably seem like a dream

how to post a sketch:

1. draw it

2. take a picture

3. compare to the reference

4. find gajillion mistakes

5. try to fix it

6. unless too fed up with it, return to step 2

7. try to fix it with some details you don't really see on the reference but that would convey the thing

8. take a picture

9. congrats on noticing some parts are weird, fix it and return to step 8 unless it's no fun anymore

10. now you're less satisfied with it than you were before taking the first picture, but it looks a lot better

11. the picture angle is wrong btw or it's blurry, retake (:

12. gl cropping it lol

13. post it

14. fix some stuff, take another pic and edit your post

15. 2 minutes of high excitement

16. stop thinking about it forever

i feel vain doing all that just to post my doodles but it is worth it bc i'm glad i like them and would like to post good clean photos. also it's fun to compare the first and the last version

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