another big boss apology wall of text under cut
idk i'm pretty sure that being a tool is a major theme in mgs overall. solid snake is created to be a tool and his story is about accepting or fighting it. the boss willingly was a tool, and while naked snake didn't accept being used to create clones or the boss making him kill her, i think he still existed within a social group with those values and it definitely influenced him. i think his refusal to accept the terrible children project and his pw arc where he ends up disapproving the boss, as well as what we see in mgs4, shapes him into the character who begins to question the system if values that deems it ok to treat people as tools, even though he still acts within it and ends up going along with it anyway (note the portable ops ending - idc if it's not canon - and how he ends up doing the same thing using the very same funds even). also i think that he was influenced in that regard by the boss and her words that the worst thing you can do for a comrade is to have personal feelings for them; note how he told amanda she should start treating chico as a soldier rather than as her brother.
i kind of thought he is more distant from his troops bc of seemingly spending time in acc instead of some kind of quarters on the rig, but mb he is more attached to his men than ishmael.
tbh i'm very biased bc if i were venom snake i would consider myself lucky, even though i understand the whole bereft of his own identity thing, and it is easy for me to imagine that despite conflicting feelings he would gladly accept his role. doing an important meaningful thing for the project that is my (and other people's) dream, and also (in a way that matters) becoming the person who i deeply admire and respect and mb even worship? i value my identity but would trade it (not without some sadness but with little to no hesitation) any day; to me the whole venom snake thing seems like a metaphor for a particular masculine dream/fantasy/expected behaviour tbh (not implying that all men want it or that only men can want it or that it's healthy): you discard some parts of yourself in order to shape yourself into a "cool guy" and do an "important meaningful thing"
Venom snake as a character tells a decent bit by proxy about big boss imo. You design him, give him your name, birthday. Venom was a completely different person and character before ttp. Considered one of John's best soilders within this cult of an operation.
Whats his thanks? Your thanks as the player? Becoming him. Memories replaced, face reconstructed, and made to stand in for him so he can achieve his greater plan. Becoming the biggest tool of them all. Being a proxy of him. An extension. An extension to him and his legend. Given a measely thanks over a tape. Then sent to die in his place.
All for some elusive greater good for soilders. A bigger picture you'll never get to see.
That is your reward.
Now some people argue that at the end, venom clearly is on board with it even after finding out the truth, yet I'd argue that even if he is, that's because of the cult like mentality of msf. Like yeah to any soilder on that base essentially becoming big boss and playing a big role in his plan would probably seem like a dream
personal notes (mood) to previous post under cut
i am awake for 27+ hours (willingly), had a good day at work and it's doing wonders to my mood despite a sad and lowkey bizarre event earlier today. might draw more or go to sleep, idk will see how it'll go. feels a bit wrong but except that one event the day is really nice and i am both willing and able to do more. it is usually a bit stressful to draw new stuff, especially character i like and would like to portray good, but this one was just fun. i wish all-nighters weren't bad for health and incompatible with normal schedule
workout routine that slowly turns you into big boss (might or might not cause eye damage)
testosterone that slowly turns you into solid snake
head practice. my skill sucks so far but i enjoyed it and we'll get there. now it's even possible to see the emotions. might or might not do figure drawing practice after this
delicious in tselinoyarsk
tried to draw with no reference (left) but it became obvious i don't remember how eyes and heads in general look so halfway through the right one i opened the peace walker miller model image
that's it for today :)
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a bit of line of action on the train. i picked 30 minutes but don't have time to finish it before arrival anyway, so the longest one is 6 minutes. l like drawing this smiling lady ever since i started doing this exercise, it brings me joy to be able to convey more and more of the beauty of her curvy body and sparkling smile as my skill develops.
i should do line of action in digital, but would kinda prefer to do pencil or pen instead since i suck at digital.. but that's exactly why i should practice in digital more... sigh
i should also practice just drawing lines from point a to point b since i have trouble guessing the right direction when using the tablet, i will keep struggling at basic stuff until i learn to do that but that's an even less satisfying exercise
cw nudity and suggestive images. he/him, πΊπ¦, born 1999. posting bad art bc it is the way to posting good art. you should post your art now!
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