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another big boss apology wall of text under cut

idk i'm pretty sure that being a tool is a major theme in mgs overall. solid snake is created to be a tool and his story is about accepting or fighting it. the boss willingly was a tool, and while naked snake didn't accept being used to create clones or the boss making him kill her, i think he still existed within a social group with those values and it definitely influenced him. i think his refusal to accept the terrible children project and his pw arc where he ends up disapproving the boss, as well as what we see in mgs4, shapes him into the character who begins to question the system if values that deems it ok to treat people as tools, even though he still acts within it and ends up going along with it anyway (note the portable ops ending - idc if it's not canon - and how he ends up doing the same thing using the very same funds even). also i think that he was influenced in that regard by the boss and her words that the worst thing you can do for a comrade is to have personal feelings for them; note how he told amanda she should start treating chico as a soldier rather than as her brother.

i kind of thought he is more distant from his troops bc of seemingly spending time in acc instead of some kind of quarters on the rig, but mb he is more attached to his men than ishmael.

tbh i'm very biased bc if i were venom snake i would consider myself lucky, even though i understand the whole bereft of his own identity thing, and it is easy for me to imagine that despite conflicting feelings he would gladly accept his role. doing an important meaningful thing for the project that is my (and other people's) dream, and also (in a way that matters) becoming the person who i deeply admire and respect and mb even worship? i value my identity but would trade it (not without some sadness but with little to no hesitation) any day; to me the whole venom snake thing seems like a metaphor for a particular masculine dream/fantasy/expected behaviour tbh (not implying that all men want it or that only men can want it or that it's healthy): you discard some parts of yourself in order to shape yourself into a "cool guy" and do an "important meaningful thing"

Venom snake as a character tells a decent bit by proxy about big boss imo. You design him, give him your name, birthday. Venom was a completely different person and character before ttp. Considered one of John's best soilders within this cult of an operation.

Whats his thanks? Your thanks as the player? Becoming him. Memories replaced, face reconstructed, and made to stand in for him so he can achieve his greater plan. Becoming the biggest tool of them all. Being a proxy of him. An extension. An extension to him and his legend. Given a measely thanks over a tape. Then sent to die in his place.

All for some elusive greater good for soilders. A bigger picture you'll never get to see.

That is your reward.

Now some people argue that at the end, venom clearly is on board with it even after finding out the truth, yet I'd argue that even if he is, that's because of the cult like mentality of msf. Like yeah to any soilder on that base essentially becoming big boss and playing a big role in his plan would probably seem like a dream

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there is a fan made christmas metal gear game and you should try it!

i was looking for christmas cards from metal gear social and instead found the fan made game merry gear solid: secret santa. it is available for free and only takes ~15 minutes to complete, has cool voice acting, funny codec calls, simple controls (arrows, shift, control and mouse) and few fun mechanics like candy cane instead of cigs, gift box (full of bombs!) and a (non digital) camera that is like stun grenade x claymore x c4. in this game, you are playing as santa claus (code name solid santa) and due to tightened security have to infiltrate the house to deliver presents instead of the traditional way. of course, a plot twist awaits at the end, and an even bigger one in the after credits call!

please give it a try, download available at http://www.superfundungeonrun.com/?page_id=297 . you can also look up walkthrough on youtube but why rid yourself of the experience of playing it yourself? i have read the plot summary before playing it and spoiled everything but still had a lot of fun, and hope that you will too!

there is a sequel that i want to play as well!

@/the-crooked-library write that lilacs are ellen's favourite flowers and there are even more mansions of them than i remembered writing this. now i see, when thomas gifts a lilacs bouquet to ellen, he does so bc it is customary expression of love, but for ellen it is killing the beautiful flowers, and she doesn't want to put them in water since they will wither soon anyway or are already dead (i don't remember which of these it was). i assume that their views of marriage are similar to their views of the lilac bouquet, her being the flowers, and that remark (as well as the mentioned user's assumption she died from blood loss bc of asking her lover to drink more of her blood) reinforces my assumption that she did want to die with nosferatu more than live as the wife of thomas.

upd: also lilac means first love which makes sense since the movie is about ellen's first love.

my impressions about the new nosferatu movie (spoilers ahead)

first of all, i see it as a movie about a woman who didn't get enough love and appreciation from society and whose wishes weren't prioritised by her husband (and society in general) as much as she liked, so she got herself a powerful demonic lover whose sole purpose for being in this world is to please her and he is ready to sail the sea in a coffin and kill entire city with plague to get her to willingly (as much as possible under aforementioned things) consent to be with him, and dies a hero saving everyone when no one else could, rather than lives a life of a person disregarded and deemed hysterical and of secondary importance. she is the most informed and in control in this situation (the doctor finds out a lot too but she already knows everything he knows), as opposed to before the plague, when her worries were disregarded and she was considered hysterical. her wishes and her role in defeating the nosferatu seem to be different from a typical male oriented fantasy, so i wasn't the assumed target audience and the most relatable character was friedrich harding who was unable to adapt to the irrational and occult stuff, got exhausted and died lol, but i still enjoyed the movie. i am not a woman and only know about feminine traditions in horror genre from youtube videos on "wicker mag" channel and podcasts by the same person, so sorry if i am misinterpreting it.

second thing is the vampire metaphor. rather than being an image of a feudalism related class fears, in this movie (in the first half of ot) nosferatu rather seems to embody immigrants related fear. i am not xenophobic and haven't moved out of my country of origin myself but i assume that this correlates with some real and popular fears: a guy goes to a foreign country that is considered less civilised and is frightened by local customs, he then meets a person who he must invite to become his neighbour, and is even more terrified by him. despite the count being not fond of local scary customs too, it's not hard to imagine the guy might think now that there's a reason behind them. after arriving to the other country where everything seems to be going well, the immigrant then immediately contaminates it with plague and tries his best to have sex with the guy's wife. looks like exaggerated real fears about immigrants that i don't personally have or approve of but that might be popular enough to be reflected in a movie.

third, the cat was in the room during the final epic hot kamikaze sex, very funny, i laughed aloud in the cinema.

fourth, ellen hutter reminded me about real person behaviour. when a person was unable to get the love they need and safe reliable relationship, and it has effect on them (in the movie it was her summoning the demon) which helps to cope at first but becomes not fun later, and when they finally meet a person who loves them and wants to be with them, they get very close (like the movie character wanted her husband to disregard work and chill with her) and the next moment they push them away (like she said she's unworthy of his love bc she sinned or smth). it's a cruel irony, people being unable to maintain a relationship with no complications precisely as a consequence of needing it very much and that need being unfulfilled for a long time. this was probably the scariest part of the movie for me personally bc although young husband tried better than me he failed anyway, either being unable to protect his wife or being a less preferable partner for her than the vampire depending on how you interpret her decision.

fifth, epic of nosferatu to disregard the impending sunrise to get his partner off for the 9999th time. and funny that there is a scene of him literally bouncing on a man's pelvis (clothed) and moaning. it is also amusing that in this movie nosferatu seems to be an incubus (yet the ladies sitting next to me seemed to find him unattractive lol - although i'm sure there are people who disagree)

also could anyone tell me what lilac means in the movie? thomas hutter brought a bouquet to ellen hutter in the beginning, nosferatu said ellen's hair lock smells like it and the doctor put it on the bed in the end. is there some symbolism in this flower?

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otasune week in sickness and in health prompt. influenced by me wanting fish soup

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i’ve been making metal gear reaction images for my personal use

idk why y'all hating on huey, he's one of the most based characters so far (jk):

- put skullface out of his misery, ending his suffering despite being wronged by him too, not letting the vengefulness get the best of him

- freed the world from strangelove, a person who committed atrocious crime against love (ai gf), sealing her inside her own vicious creation

- seeing how small and weak kids are, tried to level his son's ability to stand his ground against all the warmongers by making him a mecha pilot

just seen this short fanfic (nsfw warning for smut and gore):

it is atrocious in a good way. the smut is horrible (to me at least, im talking circumcision by gunshot and gore, but it's hard to take seriously anyway bc of the spelling and style and how bizarre it is) but necessary to the plot, and the rest is amazing imo. i laughed at it so hard i woke my roommate. because of the spelling and silly stuff first i thought not much thought was put into it, but some bits are either just part of the joke or genuine profound ideas, and it definitely touches on themes of loneliness, unrequited love, homophobia and objectification. and it is concluded with a reminder to treat your lovers as precious persons and not objectify them, and a reassuring verse from the bible (which i find endearing despite not being a christian).

i genuinely recommend reading it, it impressed me enough to publicly post a link to this kind of content on my page lol. i hope it doesn't break any tumblr rules and i won't get banned and/or lynched for reposting content this dubious lmao, i definitely not approve of killing your hookup partners in real life, that is obviously bad and evil