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my friend persuaded me to use a liner instead of pencil this time. it sucked lol, i did everything wrong: starting from bad lines and ending by worrying too much about the lines and no possibility to use eraser i forgot about the line of action and messed up the proportions big time. for the last one he proposed using pen so it would be a bit easier than liner. it was a bit easier and actually enjoyable. i messed up the buttock shading and tried again, but messed up face this time (as well as the shape in general) so after the timer reached the limit i drew shades on her and sent her to a tropical resort just to have a bit fun. i also tried a new way of shading in the liner sketches, doesn't look good yet but i will try more.

i started this little sketch/practice diary with intention to post no matter how bad the pic is, so this is the reason im posting it.

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more line of action. is it possible to regress in a day? tfw 1 minute doodle looks better than 5 minute doodles.

i am not glad with shading at all, but i somewhat like the longest two sketches. for the 35 minute lady, i drew her pose inaccurately and decided to keep it that way, and had to imagine what her stomach would look like in my pose since it's behind her legs in the original photo. half of the faces are ridiculous but it's progress for me, especially on 25 and 35 minute ones. probably will focus on shading, hair and faces next time.

a quick lee van cleef

big boss from peace walker seems to be easy to draw. mb it's a perception issue bc i don't care much whether he will look attractive or not. i should draw some memes with him or draw him in silly situations tho, my ask is open for suggestions

I need to draw I need to draw I NEED TO DRAWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my impressions about the new nosferatu movie (spoilers ahead)

first of all, i see it as a movie about a woman who didn't get enough love and appreciation from society and whose wishes weren't prioritised by her husband (and society in general) as much as she liked, so she got herself a powerful demonic lover whose sole purpose for being in this world is to please her and he is ready to sail the sea in a coffin and kill entire city with plague to get her to willingly (as much as possible considering aforementioned things) consent to be with him, and dies a hero saving everyone when no one else could, rather than lives a life of a person disregarded and deemed hysterical and of secondary importance. she is the most informed and in control in this situation (the doctor finds out a lot too but she already knows everything he knows), as opposed to before the plague, when her worries were disregarded and she was considered hysterical. her wishes and her role in defeating the nosferatu seem to be different from a typical male oriented fantasy, so i wasn't the assumed target audience and the most relatable character was friedrich harding who was unable to adapt to the irrational and occult stuff, got exhausted and died lol, but i still enjoyed the movie. i am not a woman and only know about feminine traditions in horror genre from youtube videos on "wicker mag" channel and podcasts by the same person, so sorry if i am misinterpreting it.

second thing is the vampire metaphor. rather than being an image of a feudalism related class fears, in this movie (in the first half of ot) nosferatu rather seems to embody immigrants related fear. i am not xenophobic and haven't moved out of my country of origin myself but i assume that this correlates with some real and popular fears: a guy goes to a foreign country that is considered less civilised and is frightened by local customs, he then meets a person who he must invite to become his neighbour, and is even more terrified by him. despite the count being not fond of local scary customs too, it's not hard to imagine the guy might think now that there's a reason behind them. after arriving to the other country where everything seems to be going well, the immigrant then immediately contaminates it with plague and tries his best to have sex with the guy's wife. looks like exaggerated real fears about immigrants that i don't personally have or approve of but that might be popular enough to be reflected in a movie.

third, the cat was in the room during the final epic hot kamikaze sex, very funny, i laughed aloud in the cinema.

fourth, ellen hutter reminded me about real person behaviour. when a person was unable to get the love they need and safe reliable relationship, and it has effect on them (in the movie it was her summoning the demon) which helps to cope at first but becomes not fun later, and when they finally meet a person who loves them and wants to be with them, they get very close (like the movie character wanted her husband to disregard work and chill with her) and the next moment they push them away (like she said she's unworthy of his love bc she sinned or smth). it's a cruel irony, people being unable to maintain a relationship with no complications precisely as a consequence of needing it very much and that need being unfulfilled for a long time. this was probably the scariest part of the movie for me personally bc although young husband tried better than me he failed anyway, either being unable to protect his wife or being a less preferable partner for her than the vampire depending on how you interpret her decision.

fifth, epic of nosferatu to disregard the impending sunrise to get his partner off for the 9999th time. and funny that there is a scene of him literally bouncing on a man's pelvis (clothed) and moaning. it is also amusing that in this movie nosferatu seems to be an incubus (yet the ladies sitting next to me seemed to find him unattractive lol - although i'm sure there are people who disagree)

also could anyone tell me what lilac means in the movie? thomas hutter brought a bouquet to ellen hutter in the beginning, nosferatu said ellen's hair lock smells like it and the doctor put it on the bed in the end. is there some symbolism in this flower?

i hope this post was interesting, feel free to engage in any form, share your own thoughts or criticise or correct me

personal notes (mood) to previous post under cut

i am awake for 27+ hours (willingly), had a good day at work and it's doing wonders to my mood despite a sad and lowkey bizarre event earlier today. might draw more or go to sleep, idk will see how it'll go. feels a bit wrong but except that one event the day is really nice and i am both willing and able to do more. it is usually a bit stressful to draw new stuff, especially character i like and would like to portray good, but this one was just fun. i wish all-nighters weren't bad for health and incompatible with normal schedule

I felt nostalgic and full of love for MGR community today, so... 2015-2023 MGR FAN ART BOOK This is a compilation of my artworks done over the years. Most of them appeared on my blog, but some haven't. This pdf contains 30 pages of art in chronological order: https://drive.google.com/file/d/13x7v1gGjAgE84C_ncDMyih1cS_IJAyla/view?usp=sharing Aside from a little retouching, I chose not to redraw older works and included them as is. This art book vividly illustrates how my themes and style have changed, so I feel almost disconnected from the starting pages.

Includes violence and Samdowner things, of course.