How Do Draw Good

finally finished this :3c ...it took me 10 hours but that's just what happens when hyperfixation i think

close-ups (because the textures are so awesome):

reposting these as a side-by-side

back to our regularly scheduled toy soldier doodles

This took me hours

i've been exhausted the last couple days - but i have some (rather elaborate) gel pen swatching in portrait form :D

i'll definitely be incorporating the pens in other portraits/drawings and maybe getting some colored pencils along with the pens to supplement my marker drawings! (i really want some acrylic markers...) now my traditional style looks more colorful and more like my digital style :p

anyway yah. some messy low energy drawings for fun :))

When we see Gerard Keay interact with statement givers he comes across as pretty socially awkward. For example: In TMA 38, he stares at women until she's uncomfortable and then he goes up to her and insinuates that she's ruining his vacation before saying that she's "marked" by something. Then he doesn't elaborate on what she could be marked by. In another example, when interacting with the nurse in TMA 12, after bottles of saline start to bubble, he says “Yes. For you, better beholding than the lightless flame," which, again, is confusing and the nurse explicitly says that she doesn't know what that means.

And I think that's an interesting note on how being raised in a world where the fears were so normalized affected him as a person.

Because the social mistakes he makes when interacting with the statement givers is talking about the fears as they're these casual things, which does nothing other than confuse and scare people who are already disoriented by what they're going through...but the thing is, you can't really blame him for making these mistakes.

After all, the fears ARE normal to him. They're all he's ever known, and from that perspective, it has to be hard to interact with people who have had such a different existence. There's a good chance he doesn't even register how confusing some of the things he says are, because in his world you don't need to explain what a mark is or why it's better to serve The Eye than the Lightless Flame. That's just a fact of life.

And I think this idea that Gerard just isn't good with interacting with normal people is backed up by the way he seems when we hear him interact with Gertrude and Jon. When he's interacting with people inside his world, he comes across as very witty and charismatic, not off-putting in the way statement givers tend to describe. And I don't think that's because the statement givers are painting a false picture of who he is. Rather, he just has an easier time with people who "get it" and (mostly) need as little context as he does.

Anyway, it has been exactly five minutes since I've had too many thoughts about Gerard Keay. But my main one is this: Gertrude should have gotten the chance to fist-fight Mary at least once because who raises a child like that?

more faces

meet the artist! :D

my old pinned post (that i still deem very important to see upon first meeting me)

likes and dislikes + elaboration below the cut :))

likes: - drawing - singing - musicals! :D (newsies, the great gatsby, bonnie and clyde, floyd collins, 1776, etc) - autumn/winter - music (literally everything from game osts to rap. i listen to everything :p) - history (i've done in depth research on the american revolution/enlightenment but any history is interesting :))) - learning - my friends <33

dislikes: - overwhelming environments - ignorance - scrutiny/judgement - deadlines - school - people, generally :p - (iiii'm sure there's more but. i won't go on a tirade LOL)

my newsies oc character sheet uvu

"Nice ta meet you! I'm Edward."

more shitty floyd collins doodles (waiting for more official photos so i can do proper studies of them ahahah)

hello i adore this show on so many levels