21.01.25

hi. will it ever end

Just because you have to study to achieve your dreams doesn't mean it can't be enjoyable

College has been a whole process for me. I did not know how to study, i did not know how to put effort into the right things, and most importantly, i did not know how to accept that my actions (or lack of) were the problem.

It took me years, but I've learned to accept that it's ok for me to need to study to be good when it comes to a subject, that college is a place for learning, not for being instantly good at something.

And now i can finally say that, without the subconscious frustration, i truly do enjoy learning new things, studying new subjects, and studying for the sake of knowing more, not just to pass exams.

It takes work, but it's all worth it.

41 more days of the semester (4/02/2025)

Crammed for my immunology exam (8 hours)

Got my allergy shotssss (another month and a half of this)

Last exam is tomorrow!!!

I've been revising and seeing my old doodles improves my mood every single time!

I will succeed. Not immediately. But definitely.

[research life]

Spending the day reviewing my readings + finishing my assignments for the next week 🫶🏻🩷 Very productive but tiring! 🤞🏻🍰

June 23rd, 2024

I had hoped to make some progress on my research for the defence but I really didn't. At least I took some time off, which was nice and necessary. I painted, watched Netflix, spent time with my family and in my garden. I even went out for dinner and it was lovely. This weekend feels very long and I'm glad it does. Last week was so hectic and a whirlwind of emotions. I'm glad I had some calmer days.

However, as I made no progress regarding my PhD defence, I'll have to tackle that tomorrow...

03.11.2022

Motivation is a tricky thing

It took me 4 weeks since college started to get back in the studying mood. I tried to stay on top of my work and, to be honest, i failed miserably. Recently i got the urge to study, i missed the feeling.

So, here I am, back again, wasting my time on Tumblr, because it makes me (in some weird way) more productive

Little things can make a big difference

For me it's about color schemes

I generally enjoy studying but oh boy do i love doing it when i can annotate a book with a pretty color scheme.

Makes me want to look for deeper meaning into the text, to draw diagrams and make small summaries.

Today's goal is finding small reasons for happiness in everything and anything

And so, the simplest things bring me the most joy