There Is No More Light

You hear singers and guitarists with your ears but you hear bass lines with your heart so don’t go telling me bassists aren’t important

REBLOG if you are ACTIVE this DECEMBER ✨

..and i’m looking for mutuals lol

hi

I’ve learned 2 things tonight. That I shouldn’t combine four of the things that I combined today, and that I regret my decisions- Sorry make that theee things-

Firstly, I hate the taste of The devils lettuces.

Secondly, under no circumstances do not mix the green leaf, nick, an empty stomach, and no sleep together. It does not ent well at all. Trust me lol.

Thirdly, have you ever done so much of something that when you look back at yourself you don’t even recognize who you used to be? I’m thinking back to how I was not even two years ago, and I now don’t know anything about me. But I’m too far in now so I can’t stop. And I know that most of the people in my friend group think of me as the dummy drug addict, but that’s not what I wanna be. I never wanted to end up like this, and I’m genuinely disappointed at myself. Sorry if this doesn’t really make sense, I am incredibly not well rn, in more ways than one lol. Anyway, I truly hate what I’ve become, and like I know what you’re thinking, ‘ just stop doing them if you don’t like it’. But like it’s really hard to stop and now it’s like the people around me just expect that that’s all I do, they assume that if I’m a little off at school then I’m high. ‘Oh they were quiet today- they’re high’ oh you didn’t answer my text earlier- did you get high?’ Like no aly I didn’t do that, i forgot my adhd meds than got so depressed that I was genuinely contemplating and planning out my suicide bitch. I told someone that I care a lot about that I would try to sleep again, but I’m honestly scared that I wouldn’t wake up because I’m pretty sure that I may have almost over done it but idk, ignore that lol. We’ll find out in the morning if I’m alive lol, if I don’t make an update then y’all know why.

Wishing to curl up and die

It's just not a good night

there’s nothing like the feeling of hiding under your covers while texting your roommate about why you want to kill yourself

me because i did sm work convincing everyone that i got better and i cant destroy that now

first day of the new semester!

Y’all it’s fucking freezing rn

At this rate, they'll find me dead in my room any day now. And the worst thing is that nothing in their lives would change in the slightest.

soo

I may have relapsed back into my Ana ways:/ like I don’t hate that I’m eating better cuz not only do I have more energy, my skin has cleared up too. I’m mostly sad that I feel bloated all the time and like I gained a bijillion pounds.

but in all honesty a lot has gone on these past few weeks, and it’s part to why I haven’t been posting on here.

Tw..

a guy that I though was my friend sexually assaulted me and 8 other girls on my college campus, we were able to get no contact orders against him, but that is “all” my school can do. I have him blocked on everything, including tumblr. I’m not going to go into detail about what he did exactly, but it is one reason I’m dipping back into ED tumblr.

xoxo- daphie luv

I got my permit guys!!!!

guys I’m so nervous, I’m about to go and try to get my permit again!