Born To Be Clingy And Obsessive, Forced To Be Cool And Nonchalant About Things

bro why the fuck am i so fucking anxious all the time

safety thingy

Hey guys i normally don’t post this kind of thing, but as a freshman at a new university and I’ve already experienced and seen some things, I feel the need to say this.

on my campus in the last two weeks we had an unfortunate incident where a physic ward patient broke out of the hospital across from the campus, stole scrubs and snuck into the locked dorm building to commit suicide. The school tried to cover it up by saying that a staff member found the victim when it was actually a second year student.

shortly after this incident, campus security got slightly better. However instead of reassuring the students and staff, they chose to bad mouth the man and his family while also saying that the student deserved to find the man.

then not even a week later a very close friend of mine that lives in the dorm directly above me, had experienced a horrible situation that has left not only our mostly female campus on edge but also my friend as her dorm was broken into and was r@ped very early in the morning. I have gotten her permission to share this as she also wants to warn any new students to university.

college can be fun but there are many things that you should be careful of.

Always lock your door: it doesn’t matter if you’re just going to use the bathroom or to get a water, take your keys with you and lock the door behind you. My roommate and I have club that we place one the door when we’re sleeping to ensure that we feel protected.

dont hold the door open to strangers to the building: if you don’t know that they for sure live in the dorm, don’t hold the door for them

if possible, late at night if you need to go anywhere out of the dorm: bring a buddy and stay with the buddy

be careful about who sleeps over in the dorm: let’s say your roommate has friends over and they are drinking. If you aren’t comfortable with them staying over as they can’t drive home, ask your roommate if it would be possible for them to Uber home. 5. if you live in the first floor of your building: ensure that all windows are locked before you go to sleep

I have a few other tips that I will be including in a separate post as this one is getting quite long, but please please ladies and gentlemen stay safe and if you don’t feel safe walking alone call your campus security as they can walk/drive you back to your dorm. I have used this twice in the last week as my friends and I have not felt safe walking back from the library to our dorms.

stay safe and I wish you all luck on your finals

love,

Daphie :3

I pretend to be lovable but I know, I know I’m not.

This is how I be feeling going back to uni

Lowkey wish I didn't exist

my first cross stitch

There’s really not much to this post, I just wanted to share the finished piece of the cross stitch I started. This is gonna get turned into a quilt pillow for my aunts birthday in March, I really hope she likes it. She’s obsessed with the beach and if she could would spend every day there- as I kid I used to think she was a mermaid in disguise lol-

I ended up not doing the little knot details because I couldn’t get it and was becoming a little bit frustrated, but I plan to try again at this on a future project

My body is MY Temple so I will treat my temple as I please. If MY Temple needs to be starved she will be starved.

1/28 day

on Tuesdays I have an early start to my day as my first class starts at 8:15, im one of the first people to get there however so that I can review any notes from the class before and so that I can answer my emails. my class went by soooo slow today, it ended early though so that's a nice change. normally we end at 9:20. I had time to go and grab a small breakfast, and as much as id like to skip breakfast ive got a busy day ahead of me so I needed some calories this morning to keep my blood sugar up.

the only downside about going to my colleges cafe is that they don't say how many calories are in what they serve :(

anyway, I had a quick FaceTime with my mom while she was a work to talk about my finical aid since that fuckface of a president that we have now decided to freeze all federal aid to colleges. we think that I should be ok for this semester but next year will probably be a struggle. this summer to hopefully save some money im going to be working full time, and even then I won't have enough saved up.

after breakfast I'll be having a meeting with student success to talk about how the start of my semester is going and to chat about possibly starting tutoring. I'm struggling in my history class since all the professor does is talk and doesn't give us anything to study/ take notes on.

after that meeting I don't have class until 2, which gives me time to work on some reading for another class.

I wanna smoke a cigarette. I wanna cut. I wanna kill myself. I wanna starve. Everything I want rn is self destruction.

I want love but I don't want to have to beg for it. Please love me too. Please acknowledge me. It's like you don't want me here anymore...are you better off without me? Is everyone better off without me?...

I could have a knife in my back and the first thing I'd do is make sure you're okay