Everytime

And then I end up crying when I’m alone.

just started a 20 hour fast this is to keep me motivated

the hunger goes away but the calories wont.

Look at this bitch eating food again. Disgusting. Did you even do anything productive today? You don’t deserve to eat, fatass. You’re just wasting food. Come back when you’ve actually done something productive for once in your life.

it’s you, it’s you, it’s all for you, i tell you all the time (heaven is a place on earth with you)

i can’t wait to look like this again.

darling, darling <3

Look at this bitch eating food again. Disgusting. Did you even do anything productive today? You don’t deserve to eat, fatass. You’re just wasting food. Come back when you’ve actually done something productive for once in your life.

Do it halfway. Take one piece of trash out of your room, throw one dirty shirt into your hamper. Go to one class and miss a different one. Start a drawing without pressure to finish it. Give yourself space to Be without the expectation to Become, and do small things to make the Being livable.

reasons i’m doing this (not pro, recovery is possible and if you’re ready, please recover it’s worth it i promise <3)

•i can fit back into xxs

•i can be as skinny as my best friend (she’s really really skinny and older than me)

•i can have a flat tummy

•i can wear bikinis and low rise jeans and jeans with tight waists without feeling bad

•everything will look good on me

•i can go back to being the skinny friend

•i don’t get ‘the look’ from people when i eat food

•i’ll be first picked for everything

•when i walk down the street, girls will whisper to their friends about how pretty i am

•people will be jealous of me and my size

•i can wear my current jumpers as baggy ones

•i can wear baggy clothes but still look skinny

•i won’t have to worry about stores with small sizes because no matter what ill be tiny