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Little redraw of these two lovely idiots from @notherpuppet âs comic đđ»â€ïž
Regulus: I need another word for water
James: no bones ice
Sirius: ocean sauce
Remus: earth juice
Regulus:
Regulus: I understand the Jamie and dipshit (Sirius) doing it but Remus you're supposed to be the smart one
It would be killer to see Adam and Lucifer singing a version of âNothing Left To Loseâ from the Tangled TV series.
Jeremy Jordan already sang the song as Varian, seeing him as Lucifer trying to convince Adam to not turn evil because heâd already been down that path and nearly lost himself, fuck me, that would be bitching.
Seriously, if someone has something like that⊠mama would appreciate. In return my skills are ⊠writing? I mean, I like my writing but I write what I like so itâs a bit of circular reasoning there. Anyways, itâs what I got if someone had the item I seek and wishes to trades
Why fic no climb out of my head and lie down in paper? Why must I write fic? âč
didnât realise it was sirius & harry saturday already but uh. lucky i had this eh?
Sirius goes deathly still. Surely he didnâtâ?
One look at his godson, who was pouring himself a glass of milk without having quite realised what heâd just said, and it was clear he did.
He did hear that correct. His godson did just refer to himself as a freak, without batting an eyelid.
It was a simple question. Sirius was slumped over the kitchen table, eyes half-shut. Caught up in thoughts of what was, what couldâve beenâas he was wont to do these. It was a bloody miserable morning, but he was used to that by now.
Well, used to is a bit optimistic. Heâs resigned to it.
He kept thinking about thatâhow the mighty fall. Used to be that heâd never bowed down to anyone, ever (except james. but james was different. james was his, he was home, and it was never like that with him) and look at him now. Canât step out of the room without logging it in.
Bloody. Miserable.
Until he heard the clang of a glass and the thud of a jug being set down on the table and jerks himself out of his thoughts and his chair.
He stared, wide eyed, at Harry who was calmly standing on the other end of the table from him.
âWhen did you get in here?â Sirius croaked, throat exceptionally dry.
âItâs been a couple minutes,â Harry shrugged. But how is thatâSurely, Sirius wouldâve heard him? He wasnât that out of it, and his senses had always been sharp regardless of where his thoughts were wandering. Theyâd had to be.
âHow did I not hear that?â Sirius said, half to himself. âTeenage boys are notoriously loud.â
Thatâs when heâd said it. That- that freaks shouldnât be heard or seen.
And now Sirius is here, frozen in his half slumped position, eyes stuck on the lithe form of his godson. Harry was now humming to himself, an old Muggle number heâd heard on the radio before.
It was incongruentâhis words from a second ago were still ringing in Siriusâ ears, but it was slowly being drowned out by the sound of Harryâs humming, the feel of blood rushing in his ears, his magic swirling around him in the beginnings of outrage.
âHarry,â Sirius says, voice carefully controlled. James had called it the âBlack Sirenâ because he thought himself funny. That, and it was a distinctive tone, spread out across generations of Blacks. For all that Sirius professed to be different, at the end of the day, he was cut from the same cloth, was he not?
âHm?â is the absent response. His godson has moved on to mixing in a scoop of chocolate malt into his glass of milk.
âWhat was that?â
âWhat was what?â The clink of spoon against glass. Harryâs face looks unusually well rested, and his hair is in some form of order for once. He looks goodâhealthy. Thereâs a small smile on his face as he looks down at his drink. Sirius almost doesnât want to bring this up. He knows it will ruin the mood, possibly even distance Harry from him (Sirius was the one adult in this place who hadnât gotten the grumpy teen attitude until now. He quite wanted to keep it that way), but he couldnât let that stop him either.
Not when his hands were clenched tight enough to draw blood. Not when a dull throb had started behind his eyes, one that hadnât been there until now.
âFreak should neither be seen nor heard,â he repeats slowly. His gaze is intent on his godson and he can pinpoint the exact second the penny drops. Harryâs fingers spasm around the glass in his hand, and his eyes widen inâfear? panic? horror? A combination of all three?
Sirius wouldnât be surprised. But he also canât dwell on itâdoesnât want to think about his godson looking at him with such abject terror. He needs answers now, and he knows if he let himself get swept away by wide, green eyes then he would never get them.
Harryâs mouth opened and closed in rapid successionâSirius can see the whirlwind of thoughts in his eyes and before Harry can try and doge this, make an excuse to leave or find the words to rage at him, all very plausible options, Sirius cuts in.
âPlease Harry, you canâtâhow could I let something like go?â His voice is desperate, close to breaking, and in any other instance heâd be mortified.
Harryâs head was bowed, fingers pressed white against his mug. Sirius fought the urge to keep babbling, say somethingâanything to fill the horrible silence.
âIf I said I donât want to talk about it?â Harry said, voice shaky, like he was trying his best to hold on.
Sirius inhaled. This wasâhe had to tread carefully here. Trampling all over Harryâs agency, especially after a question like thatâwhere he sounded resigned, like he wasnât expecting a proper answerâwasnât something he wanted to do, not even in his quest to find out what had happened to his godson and who had the audacity to say something like that to him. Not just say, no, but make him believe it because that kind of instinctive replyânot even realising what came out of his mouth, that wasnât an accident. That spoke to something deeper than words thrown around. It was continued conditioning.
âI wouldâŠtry my best to respect that,â is what Sirius said, though itâs forcefully pulled out of him. âBut Harry, youâreâŠyouâre my kid, I donât know how I can just let it go like that. That came from somewhere.â
âWell, of course it did,â Harry said, mouth twisting in a farce of a smile. âJust because I didnât realise I slipped doesnât mean it was a mistake.â
âWhatââ
âThatâs what happens when youâre taught one thing for most of your life, Sirius.â
Sirius deliberately unclenched his hands and stretched his fingers out on the table, ignoring the sting from the reddened, torn skin in the center of his palm.
âThe Dursleys?â he asked in a tone that could pass for casual, like he was asking after the weather. It was everything else about him that gave him away. The taut back, the rigid shoulders, the crackling of ozone.
âYouâre still a fugitive, you know, Sirius,â Harry said, leaning forward to look at his face. Interestingly, he didnât sound reproving, merely stating a fact.
âMaybe itâs time I earned that title?â
Anyways another drawing for my little series of dumb doodles, gotta keep the fandom well fedđȘđȘ