ANTI PRAT KITTY CAT

Before I got professional help from a DID specialist, I was a very violently anti-endo sysmed. Ironically, pursuing help and taking my medication regularly helped me open up to the idea of non-traumagenic systems.

Before I had access to professional help, I was angry at the world. I was angry at the doctors for not accepting my insurance even though I so desperately needed their help, and I was angry at the endogenics for seemingly getting the "easy" and "fun" parts of my disorder. It was insecurity. I blamed them for how people outside of the community treated me, I blamed them for making us look bad.

I held out hope for the definitive "medical truth" to validate me, I wanted someone to look at me and say:

"I know EXACTLY what is wrong with you, and I can fix you."

But sadly that was just a dream. After cycling through a handful of specialists and settling on my current one, I realized they're learning from me as much as I'm learning from them. Every single specialist had a wildly different definition of what DID looks like, and even is. What it's caused by, and what it's not. Some specialists were open to the idea of endogenic systems existing, some were not.

DID/OSDD medical information is a footnote in a medical textbook. So many of the terms that diagnosed traumagenics use are not decided upon by a medical consensus. Even the specialists are extrapolating heavily based on the very limited information there is about this disorder.

That's when it hit me.

The doctors don't know shit. The community dosent know shit. So damn it all to hell I don't care anymore.

Traumagenic and Endogenic systems are in the same boat. We are all still discovering what it even means to be plural. There's no set definition, even within the sysmed community. So why are we so desperately trying to invalidate each other's experiences just to try to convince others, and ourselves, that our lived experiences are real?

🚨 Creepy alert 🚨

This saudi guy @dontellx followed me two days ago and talked to me and asked for nudes (???), I refused and then asked questions regarding me sexuality and he insisted for a picture of my face and said he would send it too but blocked me shortly after ghosthing me. He's 25 years old, reblog if you can and make him known.

Very weird and misleading, don't engage with this person and DO NOT send nudes to this creepy. ⚠ Don't let pretentious men objectify sexual minorities and get away with it. He's probably asking anyone for nudes, regardless their age and getting away with it. Report if you can and share this post, let's make him famous.

Every time one of my friends explains something about Plurality to me I have to fight the urge to ask if they're "More people per people" cause of this fuck ass post

takes are stupid. when are we going to start posting gives

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aough headach

“who’s the evil alter” about to be me if you don’t shut yo ass up

- 🥀

Pro-c radqueer, report don't engage

I love just saying "you're plural boy" in response to alterhumans being like "anyone else have their kins talk to them in their brain" like, I don't even feel the need to write a full "oh um maybe you might be a BIG SCARY SYSTEM.... look at 10 different essays now....." I'm just like. yeah that's plural. and I move on with my day. and yes, I do unironically feel like this is how plurality should largely be treated.

Came to the realization that I am not, in fact, a shape-shifter, but all of my "forms" were alters that fronted during my time as host. And later got their own names and became their own "characters" And that my "preferred" form to shape-shift into is literally just combining traits from everyone.

So, uh, I'm pretty sure we spent a lot of time being blurry.

- Cora

my ask game of silly questions

♥️ - small crush on you

🦞 - i have a squish on you!

🧡 - let's fuck asap (not creepy)

💛 - you're so pretty!!

💚 - i want to be your best friend!!

💙 - let's fuck asap (creepy)

💜 - dude i am drooling over you (add a /p or /romantic tone indicator, your choice of which!)

🩷 - cutie patootie alert!!

more questions and stuff under the cut (long post)

✏️ if you could change your name, what would you change it to?

📝 what name do you think suits me?

☀️ if you could be the god of something, what would you be the god of?

🖋️ what is the first tattoo you'll get after you turn 18?

🎵 what song from a musical do you feel represents you?

🦴 name one bone in the human body

🪐 what's a character you feel is literally you in another universe?

💄 if you did drag, what would be your theme and drag name?

⭐ name the first word of wait for it from hamilton. go.

📚 what was your favourite book as a child?

🔬 what's your favourite scientific name?

🌵 what's your favourite plant?

☕ if you could put something on a mug what would it be?

💉 what was your worst intrusive thought ever?

🐭 what's your favourite song from a disney movie?

👽 if you could design an alien what would it look like?

🧮 what's your favourite number?

🫠 did you have a dream smp phase? if so, who was your favourite character?

🪑 would you rather sit on a chair, a beanbag, or the floor?

🏝️ name an island of hawaii.

🦷 who's your favourite character from mouthwashing?

🌿 favourite vine or audio meme?

🤣 favourite laugh?

🖥️ ever written a fanfic? if so, what about?

💖 what's your love language?

🎶 a song that makes you think of me?

😈 dare me anything!

❓ question of my choice!

🪞 if you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

💘 have you ever written love poems?

🎤 celebrity crush?

⁉️ what's something i definitely don't know about you?

🧟 if we were in a zombie apocalypse and i turned into a zombie, would you kill me?

📐 ever been in a love triangle?

📸 guess what i look like (the asker guesses what i look like)

🎙️ post a voice note please :]

🤝 the asker tells me what their first impression of me was

🍗 list off your disorders like you're ordering from a menu.

🌪️ what natural element do you feel most connected to?

💤 what's the longest you've ever fallen asleep?

🖊️ drop a random piece of lore

📺 pitch your trauma like you'd pitch a tv show or book synopsis.

🌈 when did you come out?

📱 what was your first phone and when did you get it?

🔮 what's your life path number?

✈️ ever been on a plane? if so, where to?

🥫 is cringe culture dead?

📜 have you ever been part of a religion? if so, which one(s)?

📻 most vintage thing you own?

💭 first memory?

👾 ever experienced sleep paralysis?

🐈 ever been into something considered 'cringe'?

🫂 favourite comfort media

🧸 how frequently do you age regress, if at all?

🗺️ do you feel connected to your ancestors?

👻 have you ever seen or heard a ghost?

💥 what was your worst panic attack or flashback?

👁️ are you paranoid?

🏫 what was your first day at school like this year?

🗡️ weirdest scar you have?

🔥 a person you wish was burning in hell?

👀 what's an odd little behaviour you exhibit?

👊🏻 what's the most angry you've ever been and what did you do about it?

🪙 favourite greek or roman god/goddess?

🌍 where do your ancestors come from?

👥 drop some lore about an alter in your system!

‼️ worst fear?

if you could have one animalistic feature, what would it be?

🐺 if you could shapeshift into only one animal or object, what would it be?

🚬 have you ever smoked before? if so, would you do it again?

🐇 what's an 'abnormal' trigger you have?

💊 weirdest hallucination you've had?

🧠 worst hallucination you've had?

🦴 ever broken a bone?

💪🏻 does anyone in your system have an atypical role?

💬 what's a silly quote from someone in your system?

🌎 who has the strongest accent?

🦊 does your system have any positive triggers (not required to answer)

🐨 how young is the youngest member of your system?

🏚️ how old is the oldest member of your system?

🔊 who has the most distinct voice in your system externally and/or internally?

🍄 what does your headspace look like? if you have one ofc

🏰 what does your innerworld look like?

❤️‍🔥 most attractive alter you have, in your opinion?

🏋🏻 how did you discover you were a system?

📖 how many fictives do you have?

& do you regularly update pluralkit or simply plural, if you have either?

😴 have you ever switched while sleeping?

🌄 have you ever discovered an alter via a dream?

💢 do you have any problematic headmates?

✝️ does anyone in your system have conflicting religions? if so, what are they?

🎧 do you find any songs very relatable to your experience of being a system?

🔫 weirdest trigger to switching you've ever experienced?

🗣️ do you experience flashbacks?

🔪 do you have any 'mean' alters?

🗯️ is there anyone in your system who speaks a completely different language?

😶 is there anyone in your system who can't speak at all?