What I Wanna Look Like.

I went to the beach today and saw the cutest couple. They were maybe 16, 17. The boy was tall and muscular with dirty blonde/ brown hair. He was very toned and attractive. The girl was shorter than him and thin, with long straight blonde hair. She wore a bikini which looked perfect on her thin frame. The boy scooped her off of her feet easily as if she weighed nothing at all and threw her into the water. They both laughed with their perfect smiles and playfully splashed in the water. They were both so happy. Maybe if you lost the weight, you’d be less self conscious. Maybe you’d be confident enough to have a good time. Maybe you’d get noticed by a cute guy. Maybe you’d be happy too.

Easy Fasting

My 24 hour fast is almost complete and it was actually easy for me this time!

How did I do it? There were 3 things which helped me a lot while fasting:

Drink Soup throughout the day to keep salty cravings away.

Drink home made iced tea to keep sugary cravings away.

Watch fasting documentaries to discover the science behind it all and all of it’s benefits, it has far more than just weightloss!

How to make iced tea at home, it’s very simple: Fill your bottle with a little bit of warm water and put like 4-5 teabags in. 30 mins are sufficient but the longer you wait, the stronger the flavour. After you put the teabags out, fill your bottle with the amount of icecubes you like. Then fill it up with cold water, try out sparkling water! Add sweetener to your liking. Done. ♥

Finger crossed.

I need to be skinny.

DAY 4: your greatest fears about weight loss

Probably that i’ll start binge over again :(

be the beautiful friend, not the fat friend

haha it’s like when i don’t binge i DonT completely hate myself so weird maybe there’s a correlation

caitblu

Today i binged.

I am tired of this shit.

I am tired of being the fat ass bitch everyone make fun of.

Im gonna fast tomorrow

When I say binge

I do not mean I over ate with a total of 1000 calories for the day.

I mean I went to the supermarket, accidentally.

I almost crashed driving home because I was too busy eating donuts

As if this food were my last.

I then heated microwaveable items first.

While

Eating an entire bag of chips

And dip. Before the timer for 2.5 minutes goes off.

Then licking every last bit of slimy oil off of my fingers before I realise it's too late

With cuts inside cheeks

Burnt tongues and fingers

Do I realize my mistake.

I now pour water into unwrapped chocolate to make it inedible and throw away my self esteem to the birds

But how can you explain to anyone that in a total of 15 minutes you consumed 2500 calories,

239 grams of carbs, 38 grams of protein, 139 grams of

Fat