Idk If It’s The Mental Illness But Sharing Literally Any Information Feels Like Oversharing. I’ll

Gaslighting is when they repeatedly cause you to feel crazy & confused. They play the victim by blaming YOU when you address their toxic behaviour. They avoid taking responsibility by lying, denying, & making you question your feelings, sanity, & facts. It's manipulation & abuse.

“I need to stop fantasizing about running away to some other life and start figuring out the one I have.”

— Holly Black

“We often want it so badly that we ruin it before it begins. Overthinking. Fantasizing. Imagining. Expecting. Worrying. Doubting. Just let it naturally evolve”

— Unknown

I’m jealous of those who can function like a normal human being. They don’t have anxiety holding them back from everything, they don’t struggle to get out of bed or have to put on an act that everything is fine when its not. They don’t struggle to hold friendships and relationships… they don’t feel sad for no fucking reason everyday. Those that can hold jobs and work towards their dreams, the ones who have self esteem and see the beauty in themselves. Those that know what its like to feel safe and secure, not insecure and fearful of it all. 

Sleeping is nice until you wake up and realize you're still sad.

“I know heaven’s a thing I go there when you touch me, honey Hell is when I fight with you But we can patch it up good Make confessions and we’re begging for forgiveness Got the wine for you”

— Taylor Swift, False God (Lover 2019)

done healing my inner child. next up is my inner teen. her highness demands a sword.