“I’m Invisible.” [video]

Numbing cream

This morning I had some time to be lazy in the bed before work. I was going to edge, then I remembered the numbing cream. I have Emla for using before laser epilation (to get rid of the hair) on my labia. 

I’ve been fantasizing about BeingFuckedWithNumbingCreamOn SlowlyLosingSensationAnd WastingTheRareChanceToCum for some time now. Wanted to try how it really feels.

I took the cream from the bed side drawer and put a large amount on my finger. 

Even the thought of this made my pussy drip. Without even touching my clit, I was on the edge. It’s all in the mind, after all ;) In my strange mind. 

I reached my clit and rubbed the whole amount in circles, until it was all soaked. Some on the surrounding area too. I made sure there was an excess amount of cream directly on the clit. 

I edged, just from this brief stimulation on my clit. With the thought of the numbing cream, it was so intense. I stopped touching, but I was going to go over the edge, I could feel it. So I opened my legs wide and opened my labia with hands wide, to stop the slightest contact on my clit. Like that, I waited for 10 minutes, and rubbed to test. The sense had decreased, but I could still feel the touch. Ahh it was soo sweet. I waited another 15 minutes and rubbed again. Oh my.. nothing. 

My clit stopped existing. I touched and rubbed and pressed. Nothing. Just a piece of nerveless meat. Like your mouth after the dentist gives you the anesthetic shot.

My clit completely numbed, I reached for my dildo. It is very smooth, polished wood, curved, to press the right spots inside. I started fucking myself with it. There was a lot of pleasure from the dildo too. I thought I was getting close. If I went over the edge I decided to let it happen so that I prove myself that I can cum from penetration only. I would cum, and remove the dildo just when I start to throb, and ruin it. 

Idea of ruining a penetration-only orgasm sounded so evil. Made me hotter. 

I fucked myself so fast with the dildo. Without my clit feeling nothing, the pleasure was intense, but just not enough. Or maybe it would be enough if I could continue as long as necessary but my arm would get so tired after like 4-5 minutes I’d need to stop and rest. With each frenzied thrust, I edged. With each stop for rest, I calmed down. As I was fucking myself with the dildo like crazy I heard these inner voices of some strangers I imagined playing with me:

 “This is all you get for pleasure now. Your clit is gone. Kaputt. Nada. All you get is penetration only. Cum from this.” 

This was so hot and I was so close I was panting and moaning in the bedroom out loud and sweating… Yet I could not go over that edge.

More than an hour of furiously trying, my arms were very tired, and my body was very frustrated. I gave up. I dressed, and came to work.

My clit came back like half and hour later I left home. It started throbbing with need under my jeans.

I have been at work for 3 hours. I can not do real work. I can not concentrate on anything. The ache on my pussy has consumed me. The need is overwhelming.

When I talk to my colleagues, it’s like I’m faking the conversation. What I’m really thinking about is the ache.

Instead of doing proper work, I am typing this on my laptop, getting wetter and more needy as type it.

Sir wanted me to start a tumblr...

He said it would be interesting if I set one up as his pet so he could see what I share and post. So here I am searching smutty stuff and blogs that interest me. Definitely isn't making me horny after edging for 10 minutes this morning and being denied release... Hopefully he'll let me cum tonight.

kitty cuddles

I was bratty and complained last night when Sir teased me over text so I wasn't allowed to cum. This morning I completed this writing task and was allowed to cum after I finished it. Totally didn't take me more than 2 hours to finish it >>

I was lucky

After edging for 19 minutes the fate of morning release ended up being on a spinner. If it landed on 3 I was allowed to cum however if it landed on 5 I would just feel arousal gel covering me. Fortunately it did land on 3 and sir let me have release this morning!

Just a little aroused...

On a call with Sir and he’s told me to post about how I feel. I feel very horny and submissive after he’s described to me in detail of how he would use me as his little obedient slut. I want him to tease me more and to have more pleasure.

Punishment

Last night I accidentally disobeyed sir for touching without sucking. As punishment sir had me do a write me task with the line “I will not touch without sucking” and I wasn’t allowed to cum for the rest of the night. It was 100 lines and each mistake I made added 3 more lines. Each buzz also made me feel aroused and fuzzy. This also happened to be when I was tired at 2 am so my focus already wasn’t too great. An hour later a horny, fuzzy and exhausted me finished and went to sleep.