Impulse / Fix

The moment I read 2.1.45, I knew I had to draw this lady. Exams can be worried about later.

Also, I realised too late that the little triangles on the chimera's head are probably horns. If Red sees this, I sincerely apologise for the cat ears.

ummmmm thinking about VR LA and Maxim again guys . thinking about maxim overthinking and probably doing way too much internal self reflection in a very self deprecating kind of way and VR LA being . VR LA who is just completely oblivious to everything and genuinely believes he just likes maxim as a friend . and Maxim has been pining for the last like . 5 years . and is just like oh well I guess this is my life now . clearly I have been rejected because I have been so obvious (not really but it's incredibly obvious for maxim) and he has not responded . I will simply wallow in the corner for a while before accepting the fact that I am simply doomed to never be loved . at least he doesn't seem to be pushing me away and we can still be friends . how agonizing it is to have him so close but knowing he doesn't want me in return . but alas , better than not having him at all .

meanwhile VR LA is like omg yayyy I can't wait to go hang out with maxim my prettiest friend maxim <3 I'm so glad that me and maxim are such good friends ! it's kinda different from being best friends with dani and the crew for some reason idk... but he's just as important to me as them and I care about him a lot 😊 we are such good intellectual equals friends 😊

and then someone grabs VR LA and stares directly into his eyes and tells him explicitly that he's in love with Maxim and he's like O H H !!!! SHIT YOURE RIGHT- I GOTTA TELL HIM RIGHT NOW !!!!!!!

EVERYBODY CHECK OUT THIS ARTIST ON TWITTER OMG

@heuldoch7b reminded me of your recent blocky magnus!

https://x.com/lanostry/status/1895107367966253364?s=19

they made the emperor of mankind toooo and sanguinius as wellll

(Idk if this counts as a repost of their work? >_< I don't wanna be an asshole and take credit or get attention that they should be getting so pls check out their twitter page! If it is then ill delete the post! They made trazyn as well as a few others :3)

omfg i forgot that i never showed tumblr my greatest achievement. my pride and joy, my pi-ass de résistance

there's a rare special kind of girl you can only find adrift in the hulks of ruined spacecraft or long buried tombs or inside sealed canisters with warning signs all over

A little head bonk kiss <3

VR-LA’s design just kept getting more and more detailed as I progressed lol, but the simplicity of Maxim’s compared to him is honestly quite in character. But yeah! Tis them, they own my brain.

How do you manage to motivate yourself when you're feeling tired or depressed?

Usually I try to give myself time to rest until those feelings lessen, since they're generally symptomatic of having pushed too hard, but on occasions where tiredness seems to be getting a little too cozy with depression, there's a few things I do.

I've observed in myself a habit of sort of… waiting in a holding pattern for something to push me into action. "Something" isn't defined clearly, but it becomes a real problem on depressed or low-executive-function days. This might just BE what low executive function feels like, tbh; like there's some invisible trigger and I can't Do The Thing until something trips it. When I notice I'm stuck in a holding pattern, I have a few tricks to snap myself out of it:

Flip a coin. Heads I get up and Do The Thing, tails I don't. The simple act of challenging myself is enough to motivate me sometimes, regardless of the outcome, but sometimes this makes me realize that I am legitimately tired, so I stay put and recharge a little until I want to flip for it again.

Set a five- or ten-minute timer and do whatever I need to do until the timer runs out. An artificial deadline can bypass the holding pattern. Sometimes this gives me momentum, and when the timer runs out I keep going. Sometimes this does NOT build momentum, and I crash after the timer runs out - but I crash with five more minutes of progress done. Any progress is better than no progress.

Assume Direct Control. This one only works sometimes, but sometimes it's as simple as breaking down a list of individual units of tangible progress - Get Off Of Bed, Put On Pants, Plug In Tablet, Etc Etc - and just grab the manual controls in my brain and make myself do each thing in turn. Sometimes I'll assume direct control to make myself take a Stupid Mental Health Walk, which has thus far worked every time to improve my mood and energy even though when I am in a Low Mood the last thing I want to do is subject myself to the mortifying ordeal of wearing pants and dealing with people.

I also find that sometimes it's helpful to pull the thread of what you're waiting for. Sometimes I'll realize I've locked myself into a weird paralysis because I've accidentally made something a prerequisite for other tasks. For example, I might realize I'm feeling weirdly frozen and uncomfortable because I haven't taken out the trash, and I've told myself I can't do X Y and Z until the trash is taken out, but I don't want to take out the trash, so I've locked X Y and Z behind Unpleasant Task in a subconscious attempt to motivate myself to Do The Task but instead I've just dramatically reduced the number of things I feel I can do. Often just noticing this pattern is enough to break out of it.

I also find that sometimes the invisible trigger I'm waiting for is just waiting to want to do something. That is unfortunately a trap. There are many things you can enjoy or benefit from without wanting to do them beforehand, because the thought of it is unpleasant or scary or anxiety-inducing or otherwise loaded down with what-ifs and caveats. I will never WANT to have a doctor's appointment, but I feel very good AFTER arranging and going to one. I very rarely WANT to exercise, but after the fact I feel very rewarded and more confident in my abilities. I've only WANTED to go on like a third of the walks I've taken this year, but every single one of them has been pleasant and beneficial to my mental health. Sometimes you just gotta say "I don't WANT to do it, but I'll be glad I did it" and manually pilot yourself into Doing It.

just finished HarrowMaster,I love Solomon🥰🥰

seeing all the 14-17 y/o queer kids who don’t know what v for vendetta is…. u mean the blockbuster film written by two trans women about a masked vigilante who decides to singlehandedly take down a fascist alternate version of england set in the distant year of 2020… and his driving force was getting justice for a lesbian who he never met but whose diary he found, who was separated from her wife before being killed by said fascist gov…. and it stars natalie portman…. okay