Th0m4k - Thoma

Hey peeps! A small life update:

as some of you know, I was doing a "reset week" last week, but sort of disappeared around Thursday as important things were going on

I try my best to keep this blog an inviting, cosy respite from the outside world so will only say this here: please do look up and see if there's anything you can do to help. Protests. Donating (I donated to Save the Children, helping children and families in Ukraine). But also remember that if you can't do either of those, helping to solve problems in your area also contributes to decreasing world suck. This video explains it better than me.

On a personal note I feel like I've been on an emotional rollercoster

Positive points: meditation has stuck and it's been so great. Giving myself time to do nothing, letting the mind be clear. Exercise has also been going great, noticing immense improvements on my previously injured leg - feels like recovery is here and here to stay.

Have been reaping the benefits of "actually doing the things" - a theme for this year which is to actually do things instead of just saying I want to do them. Went on a day trip with a newer friend and it was amazing. Went to see a show with my sister and was so incredible.

Less positive points: a lack of motivation to work, which usually isn't a problem, having built systems through the years to work through these moments and just get shit done. But they're not really working right now and as a result I feel stressed and guilty.

Have also been struggling to listen / understand my body and its needs? Am I hungry or do I just need comfort? Am I physically or emotionally tired? Do I need to do more to get out of a rut or do I need rest? It's all very confusing, and as the last sentence in my journal entry says "feeling lost" (alternate title: being in your early twenties)

I'm back home tomorrow for a long weekend which I think it what I need - a calmer environment where I can't be as distracted. Also many dance classes today which I know help a lot. In the meantime, trying to be kind to myself and focus on the small wins.

I hope you are all well. Take this as your sign to take a few deep breaths.

You don’t exist to please other people. You don’t exist to fit in a mold. You exist for yourself, and no one else.

“We meet ourselves time and time again in a thousand disguises on the path of life.” -Carl Jung

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