ND Culture Is Getting Very Irrationally Angry Around Midnight, And Having No Idea Why… It Could’ve

its always "mental health matters" until you start showing symptoms.

bpd culture is just go ahead and tell me right in the face that i'm annoying. dont act like youre alright talking to me. you probably talk shit about me behind my back, saying that i'm so fucking annoying and humiliating and disgusting.

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“no one’s ever mad at me unless they tell me so” is the best assumption i’ve ever made

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suspected BPD + self-evaluated AudHD culture is finally getting the courage to cut off your (suspected) FP after repeatedly having your boundaries disregarded and allowing your own mental health to deteriorate for the sake of preserving theirs and STILL having moments of soul-crushing guilt, paranoia, and anxiety despite knowing it was for the best. it's feeling like such a fool and feeling like you should've seen the red flags sooner. it's realizing just how unfair it was that you were held to a more strict standard in the relationship than they were and splitting on them because you feel so betrayed. it's breaking down multiple times because you feel like you're just giving up on them and maybe they'll finally change after you showed them the damage they caused you. it's being so scared and paranoid about even sending in asks to talk about this because what if they see this and retaliate against me for cutting them off and speaking about this publicly even if anonymously? it's being unable to focus because of the overwhelming amount of emotions you're feeling at one time. it's struggling to reach out to those who are supporting you because you don't want to be a bother.

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BPD culture is never being able to tell who is the toxic one in any of your relationships because it is always assumed you are the bad one.

i got a b in personality disorders??? did i not study enough?

i have impulsive bpd but i only get impulses to cut and dye my hair i would never do anything to hurt anyone because i'm a good boy 😇

the DSM-5 defines narcissism as being characterized in part by a "need for admiration." while this is true for most of us, i think it's a bit of an oversimplification to identify every narcissist's supply needs as just "admiration."

many narcissists just want acknowledgement. supply may not just mean praise and reverence, but also simple care. not a need to be worshiped and treated as godlike, but to be spoken to and treated as an important human being.

others may not just get supply from positive attention, but also negative attention. i've heard others talk about reveling in the thought of being the subject of someone else's resentment or hatred, just because it makes them an important figure in their life.

some narcissists seek out any attention, regardless of whether it contributes to an idolizing reputation; narcissists who become self-destructive because they know it'll get people's attention.

i think most narcissists appreciate admiration, but narcissistic supply isn't just that. what all narcissists have in common is that we need more attention than most people, be it because we were deprived of it when we needed it most or because we never learned how to live without it.

regardless, none of us really have the innate ability to feel important and appreciated unless we're given as much attention we can get.