Latest Posts by tapioca-tundruh - Page 10

Nobody talks about what it’s like to be trans in performing arts. I do Orchestra and Chorus and for both I need uniforms for the concerts.

For Orchestra, we have the option of a blouse and palazzo pants if we don’t want a dress. But that still feels too feminine for me and makes me very dysphoric.

On the other hand, in Chorus we don’t have any other option. The only option I have in the dress. Which makes me dysphoric as well.

And honestly, it’s not just the clothes. That’s the smallest part of it. It’s seeing the guys in button ups and dress shoes with bowties on. It’s the knowledge that I’ll never be a teenager again and I’ll never feel comfortable during these times. No matter how much I genuinely enjoy going to these concerts. (Not Orchestra tho but that’s another can of worms.)

It’s also the fact that my mom will never in a million years let me buy the boys uniform. It’s a burning reminder that she’ll never accept me for the way I am. And even if she did, my chest would ruin it and I’d feel really silly. I hate this :(

Paul McCartney’s ‘anchor t-shirt‘ appreciation post, various 1966.

“I love underrated/overhated musicals!!!” Okay but do you remember how those boys could dance? Do you know it’s happy ever after hour? Did you know we’ve got magic to do? Do you know the mystical divinity of unashamed felinity? Yeah, that’s what I thought.

hi beatles fandom

THIS WHOLE SEGMENT I WANT HIM.

Alonzo with heterochromia because yes

. . timothy scott as mr mistoffelees , original broadway cast . . lace dividers by @byuvly

see the dew on a sunflower

daydreaming isn’t enough i need it to happen to me in real life

Recording Fool on the Hill

Smth I notice that makes me feel kinda different from other transmascs or ppl who have chest dysphoria/want top surgery is my dysphoria is more physical than visual

Most people I’ve heard talk about chest dysphoria seem to care a lot about how their body is perceived (by others or themself). They bind to make their chest less visible, they want their chest to LOOK as flat as possible

For me binding doesn’t do much. I mean, sure, seeing my chest is dysphoric, but putting one shirt over it so I don’t see the skin is all I need to not even rlly notice. Yet, I still get dysphoric even when I do bind or fully hide my chest because I can FEEL it. I know it’s there physically. The weight, just the meer fact it exists and is on my body is what causes me the most dysphoria, not whether or not it can be seen. How well hidden smth is doesn’t change whether or not it exists….

word association with paul (1990)

"and Derry told us he had spent the night with John Lennon". Which could mean anything. From the book The Beatles in Hamburg

george posing <3

THE BEATLES DRAWTOBER

Day 3 - Hamburg days

George and his ugly ass boots. I hate those boots with all my life. Why. WHY?!

Well, anyways, I felt terrible yesterday so I didn't do day 2 💔💔

the baby being deported in 1960

JAY LENO: Who was the best cuddler?

RINGO: Ohhh. Georgie loved a hug.

“We’d walk down Lilly Lane which was like a lovers’ lane and kiss and cuddle.” - Iris Caldwell 

“He was just standing there. Little George, all lost. I gave him a big bag of sweets and some apples. He threw his arms around me and Stu, which was the sort of demonstrative thing they never did.’" - Astrid Kirchherr

“George giving me a bear hugggg. My first time in London and…what a welcome!!! ‘It’s Klaus!’ George Harrison called, setting his guitar aside and walking toward me to give me a firm hug.” - Klaus Voormann

“I was surprised to see how affectionate he was with Olivia, holding hands, heads touching as they talked, snuggling up next to her at every opportunity…” - Chris O’Dell

“Olivia was in the room and asked Madeleine her name. The next thing [Madeleine] knew, George was walking across the room directly to her, and as if they were old friends, put his arms around her! She was so overwhelmed and she automatically put her arms around him and hugged him back.” - A fan

“Even hugging George was a psychedelic experience, what a gem of a man. Love him forever.” - Dave Stewart

“George was the kind of guy who wasn’t going to leave until he hugged you for five minutes and told you how much he loved you.” - Tom Petty

“Just a few months after his death, I was in Bungalow 8, a New York club that Paul Shaffer dragged me to, when I noticed a skinny fellow who was the spitting image of George - only young George - coming right toward me. Before I could say anything this young man embraced me in a tender hug and then pulled back to explain himself. ‘I’m Dhani Harrison,’ he said. ‘One of the last things my father told me was that if I ever come across people who were important to him, I should give them a hug.’” - Martin Short

I saw an ai video of a cat petting a baby to try and comfort it and it’s paw turned into a human hand near the end. I’ve never been more freaked out in my life. Ban ai not just because it’s used for dangerous things but because it’s just scary as fuck to look at 😭