The Way Clara Bow Is Written Both With The Optimism She Once Had And The Hindsight She Has Now, Layering

the way clara bow is written both with the optimism she once had and the hindsight she has now, layering both often at the same time. you'd be picked like a rose both in how in the moment she felt beautiful, chosen as the most beautiful one adored by all, but she knows now that cutting her stem froze her as she was, never allowed to grow further, only slowly fading until she's a dried, dull husk of what she once was, pressed between the pages of someone else book. also the crown is stained but you're the real queen both in how she felt holier than thou once crowned, and the mistakes of the fallen monarchs were markers of their own unworthiness but she is the real queen; she is different because she is pure and true and deserves it. but writing it now, she knows that the crown was stained not just from previous owners, but with blood shed by her own hands, and how it will never be scrubbed clean because of horrors she had to endure to get it that she will never entirely suppress and what she will have have to continue to do to keep it. however my favorite is I'm not trying to exaggerate but I think I might die if it happened to me... Die if I made it.... both in how as a young dreamer she felt so small and it felt so impossible, the shock of knowing she would achieve fame and fortune would nearly kill her. but she knows now the grim truth in what was once hyperbolic, how when it did happen, the breaks didn't come gently and the beast that is beauty tore her to shreds. parts of her at least, and perhaps the most significantly that little dreamer who scribbled that unintended prophecy in her diary decades ago. she made it and slowly and brutally and quietly without fanfare, she died. it harkens back to the lucky one, when she was just embarking on her rocket to fame and fortune, and she pondered another name goes up in lights. You wonder if you'll make it out alive. clara bow seems to answer that question with no, you won't, but nobody before you made it out alive either, not fully, not whole. the machine grinds ever on and on and there was never any other way.

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she finally played it, Rep is complete

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#the Album Prologues Are The Bible. To Me.

#the album prologues are the bible. to me.

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5 months ago

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swiftieortega13

9 months ago

can we talk about how wonderful this line is

i dream of cracking locks (where the harsh k sounds emphasize the action of cracking a lock) throwing my life to the wolves (where the wo sound is repeated in the first and last word) or the ocean rocks (again, the harsh k implying a cracking action like a jagged sharp stone, the o in or similar to the sound in throw and wolves) crashing into him tonight (the sh in crashing like the c sound in ocean)

because i looooove itttt

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1 year ago

If "loml" ends up standing for "love OR my life" I swear to all the deities I will FIGHT!!!!!!!!!

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3 months ago

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