You Ever Hear A Song So Good You Gotta Restart It Before It Even Finish

i don’t feel like an adult and i don’t feel like a real person and i don’t feel like i have autonomy or agency in my life although i’ve made every decision of my free will

youve died a thousand times before who caaares just climb out of this grave again & again &agaian & agaian & again & again & aga

the twilight books had such a good aesthetic. rainy days. forests green. cloudy skies. warm homes. old high schools, run down but still alive somehow. laughing kids. small town streets lit with flickering lamps. dreams of knights in shining armour. the nostalgia of life. 

i wish i wasn’t just cognitively empathetic, like i feel so deeply for other people and their situations but every time i try and express it i sound so disingenuous

“I lied and said I was busy.

I was busy;

but not in a way most people understand.

I was busy taking deeper breaths.

I was busy silencing irrational thoughts.

I was busy calming a racing heart.

I was busy telling myself I am okay.

Sometimes, this is my busy -

and I will not apologize for it.”

- Brittin Oakman

- Artwork : Sivan.ka

(grabs you by the shoulders) you have to make room for new experiences in your life. you have to go through the unpleasant work of leaving your comfort zone, even if just for a few minutes at a time. because if you don't, your brain will trick you into stagnation. you will start to believe that the world can barely fit you in it. but that's not true. it's the opposite way around. you can fit the whole word inside of you. your task is only this: to welcome it with open arms