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Happy birthday to me!!âșïžđ©·
9 more days until my 19th!! Feels so weird to almost be able to tell people Iâm 20 đŠđ„Č
One of my favoritesđ„° I really love this đ©âđŒ
a/n: training minho to reach for you when he is hurt instead of being an angry little guy (inspired by this racha log clip)
youâve seen it a few times now - minho stubbing his fragile toe against a corner and freezing, or bumping his elbow on a table and hissing slowly through his breath, his eyes closed and his head thrown back as if he is trying to control himself from combusting. him curling up on the couch with his legs pressed close to his chest, hands looking impossibly small where theyâre clasped around his knees to hold them close, a deep scowl on his face completing the picture.
he seems angry to the average person, like heâs somehow mad about being hurt and is stewing in that fury while the pangs of pain evaporate from his system. you know better, though. you know heâs not angry, but frustrated. a little annoyed at himself because all he wants to do is curl up in someoneâs arms and have them kiss his wound better like a tiny little kitten, but he canât do that. because heâs minho, and minhoâs complete brand is acting tough. sure, everyone knows hes a pure softie on the inside, but he canât really go around showing it can he?
youâve elected to convince him that he can.Â
it starts when his morning coffee splashes on the back of his hand and he hisses, glaring down at his hand like he wanted to chop it off (or something else equally as violent). usually youâd let him calm down on his own, knowing his faux anger goes as quickly as it comes, but today you swoop into his space and cradle his hand in both of yours. you press a gentle kiss to the spot, coffee staining your lips as you meet his eyes warmly. you guide his hand to the sink and let cool water run across it, rubbing your thumb against his skin in what you hoped was a comforting way.Â
âokay?â you ask once youâre satisfied with the temperature of his skin, wrapping a fluffy towel around his hand to dry it. he just blinks at you for a moment, head tilted so adorably that you feel a scream bubbling under your chest that you have to contain. heâs so cute. you finish making his coffee for him while he continues to stare at you with wide eyes, not faltering once until you press a kiss to his cheek on your way out of the kitchen.Â
the second time is when heâs come home from dance practice, a little sweaty and tired and very sore all over. heâs grumbling about his muscles hurting under his breath and you can barely hear it, but you know him well enough to know that his aborted movements and sharp little exhales mean that heâs in pain and doesnât want to say it. the way he sat himself on the sofa instead of showering first was also a sign - he liked to be clean, especially before relaxing.Â
you wince in sympathy, knowing the exact feeling of muscle pain from exercise and while it comes with the benefit of self-satisfaction it almost isnât worth the all-encompassing ache that comes right after. he reaches for his water but stops halfway, cringing at the stretch in both his arm and his abdomen, and falls back against the couch in defeat. you take pity on him, picking up his water and twisting open the cap for him, even going as far as to hold it up to his lips for him as he takes in greedy gulps. when heâs satisfied, he pulls back and fixes you with a suspicious look, like heâs asking what do you want with his eyes.Â
you just smile at him in return, giving his upper arms a gentle massage with your hands as you lean at an awkward angle to press a flutter of kisses to his stomach. heâs a little dazed when you finish your ritual, melted back into the cushions with a glazed over look in his eyes, and you cuddle up next to him with a satisfied smile.Â
âbetter?â you ask, letting your finger trail over his stomach in the pattern your lips had just made.
âyeah,â he breathes out, brow furrowing a little in confusion, thinking too hard.Â
the third instance is perhaps the most challenging, because it happens in public. the street youâre walking down hand in hand isnât the busiest, but there are bustling around corners and crossing streets. youâre not at all surprised when minho straightens up in excitement and pulls you to a tree at the end of a sidewalk, a tiny bundle of fur curled up underneath it. minho pulls out a little tube of cat treats from his jacket pocket, something he seems to have an endless supply of, and kneels down next to the small kitten.
the thing is, cats love minho. everyone knows that they do, itâs in his blood. youâre sure that he has cat genes somewhere in his ancestry.Â
but, as the both of you discover, this particular cat does not love minho. he leans towards the poor thing, making soft noises with his mouth as he holds the opened treats out, and the cat lets out an angry hiss and swipes at him with its little paw. he lets out a yelp, falling back on his haunches in surprise and his betrayed gaze trails after the kitten as it scampers away.Â
he raises the palm of his face to his hand, decorated with lines of angry red that donât look too bad but you know they probably sting something fierce. he leaves the cat treats abandoned under the tree as he stands and you prepare yourself for the anger to set in but - it doesnât come. instead, he looks up at you with wet, wide eyes and a trembling pout and your composure breaks.
you swoop in beside him and take his hand, blowing lightly onto his palm before pressing a light kiss to the corner of it. he rests his head on your shoulder in an uncharacteristic display of public skinship, not caring one bit of the passersby behind the both of you as he soaks in your comfort. you have to hide your shock - you didnât have to come to him, he asked for you. he sought you out in his pain, didnât get adorably angry, and leaned towards you. this wound was different, this one was personal, a betrayal of his brethren creating a mix of physical and emotional pain that served as the perfect opportunity for your conditioning to run its course.Â
with the way itâs going, youâll have him perfectly trained in no time.
Stop this madness my heart canât take all this fluff đ©âđŒ (saying heâs not gonna propose in college and then take MC off campus to propose is Han Jisung codedđ)
Pairing : Han Jisung x F!Reader TW : anonymous friends to lovers type beat ; physical fighting ; reader is bullied ; angst ; fluffy ending ; Word Count : 8.9k A/N : Haven't even started writing this one yet but I know it's gonna take a bit, I hope the wait is worth it!! I hope that this is good! I kind of changed things a little bit, but I feel like it's still good... right? It has a k-drama feel to it... Not proof read!! Request : Anonny : Hello! If your requests are open can you write something for skz han? Where han is a popular person that everyone likes and he doesn't know the identity of reader but they are able to have really nice conversations. He thinks he found the person he's been talking to and starts dating them and reader agrees to help the person with talking to him. But han actually starts talking to reader and realizes that they were the person he fell in love with. Reader didn't tell him their true identity bc they were told he could never love someone like them. I hope that makes sense.
An anonymous chat room⊠What could possibly go wrong? It had started as a way for other students to get help with certain subjects without the judgment of their peers over not knowing enough. Soon enough, like most things, it had completely lost its original reason for being made, and now it was being used for anything but studying. There were chat rooms for dissing people, chat rooms for hooking up, and then there was the more⊠safe chat rooms, for people that were just lonely and wanting to talk, people that were too awkward or shy to have conversations face to face. Everyone had an online identity that no one else knew about⊠A different persona⊠It was scary⊠But sometimes it was nice to just⊠Talk to someone.Â
JiHizzy : Hey! You online?Â
Your phone vibrated with the message, and you couldnât help but smile at the familiar sound of the notification. You had been talking to him for weeks now, and it was the one part of your day that you truly looked forward to.Â
JustAnotherGirl : Yeah! Whatâs up?
JiHizzy : Finally got back to my dorm. I was trying to study for finalsâŠ
JustAnotherGirl : Iâm gonna guess that didnât work out for you?Â
JiHizzy : Crazily enough, I ended up at the bar instead of the library.Â
JustAnotherGirl : I donât know how you could possibly get the two confused lol
JiHizzy : Itâs a friday night, I donât think anyone was at the library. Werenât you at the bar too? It was packed.Â
JustAnotherGirl : Mm⊠Nope! I donât really party like that, I was too busy studying for my finals.Â
JiHizzy : Ooh, the innocent type? I like that.
JustAnotherGirl : Are you flirting with me?Â
JiHizzy : I might be⊠You know the acronym of your username is jag⊠all you need is I and youâd be jagi to me.Â
JustAnotherGirl : That must be the alcohol talkingâŠ
JiHizzy : Not at all. Youâre just my type. I really want to meet you.
JustAnotherGirl : Oh, would you look at the time? We should get some sleep! Goodnight!Â
While it was supposed to stay an anonymous chat room, some people were just too popular to stay hidden longer than the first week. One of those people was JiHizzy, better known as Han Jisung, the most popular guy on campus simply because of his looks. All of the girls wanted him, and all of the guys wanted to be him. He was the top of the totem pole, and that put you at the very bottom.Â
If the two of you were to walk past each other on campus, he wouldnât even spare you a passing glance⊠But with the promise of anonymity, you were able to talk to him every night. You were able to know what it felt like to be liked by someone like him. You could never meet him though, if he found out who you really were⊠Heâd stop talking to you immediately. You didnât want to lose him⊠Even if you didnât truly have him.Â
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JiHizzy : Are you in class right now?Â
In the silence of the classroom, the vibration of your phone was much louder than you thought it would be. Everyone turned to look in your direction, and you quickly grabbed your phone and placed it on your lap, hoping that if another message came in, it would be silent.Â
JiHizzy : I know you are, youâre such a good girl⊠WAIT DOES THAT SOUND WEIRD!? IâM SORRY!!Â
JiHizzy : I was just thinking that maybe⊠Maybe you could tell me what class youâre inâŠ
JiHizzy : And I could get a glimpse of you⊠Or who I think is you⊠I just want to have a face to go with the nameâŠ
You held in your sigh as you felt your phone vibrate incessantly against your lap, chewing on your bottom lip as you attempted to focus on your studies, but it seemed like he wouldnât let up unless you responded.Â
JiHizzy : PLEASE!!Â
JustAnotherGirl : Why is it so important? I like being anonymous⊠I like talking to youâŠ
JiHizzy : Because I like you, and I canât stop thinking about you, and I want to daydream about youâŠ
JiHizzy : But itâs kind of hard to daydream about someone if I donât know what they look like.
JustAnotherGirl : Well, daydream about what you think I look like. Itâs probably better than how I really look anyway.Â
JiHizzy : Youâre talking like Iâll stop messaging you or stop liking you if I meet youâŠ
JiHizzy : You donât think Iâm that kind of person⊠Do you?Â
JustAnotherGirl : I donât know who you are⊠But itâs just easier like this for meâŠÂ
JiHizzy : Alright alright
JiHizzy : Iâm sorry if I upset youâŠ
JiHizzy : But hey! I heard that theyâre releasing an update soon where we can actually talk to each other on the phone!
JustAnotherGirl : Canât people tell who other people are by their voice?Â
JiHizzy : Idk⊠But I want to call you when it comes out. Can we at least do that?
JustAnotherGirl : Maybe⊠Iâll think about it⊠I have to study now. So do you!Â
JiHizzy : Right! Okay, Iâll message you later!Â
He daydreamed about you⊠He thought about you⊠You wondered what this image looked like, the girl that he thought you were. You were sure that it looked nothing like you, and it was better that way. He was so popular, you didnât want to tarnish his image if he was even seen talking with you, let alone walking beside you⊠although you were sure that something like that would never happen.Â
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When the call feature was released, everyone was so excited. People were testing it out as soon as their apps updated⊠But you were dreading it. Texting guaranteed staying anonymous, but hearing someone's voice, even if they didnât know what you looked like, a voice was a way to identify someone. Even Jisungs voice, anyone and everyone could tell it was him coming if they heard him talking. His voice was distinct, it was his and his only. You didnât know how distinct your voice would be, and the only thing you had going for you was the fact that you didnât talk much at all.Â
A time that youâd usually be counting down to now had your stomach twisted up into knots, your knees folded up against your chest as you tried to think of anything but the inevitable phone call that you knew he would ask for. âWhatâs got you all worked up?â Your roommate asked as she walked into your room. As if things couldnât get any worse, she just had to be back in at a normal hour.Â
Of course you had gotten paired up to dorm with the most popular girl on campus, it was just another way of lifes mysterious twists and turns supposedly. She was absolutely ruthless, and while you had asked to have your room changed at the beginning of every semester, it miraculously could never be done. As if college wasnât hard enough, having to reside with her was just added stress.Â
âFine. Ignore me. I didnât want to talk to you anyway.â She mumbled, dropping down onto the ridiculously large and disgustingly luxurious bed that took up almost the entirety of her half of the room. She was rich, of course she was, and she took every opportunity to flaunt her wealth to everyone on campus, and you were no exception, you just got the brunt of it.Â
âIâm gonna take a shower real quick⊠Do you have to use the bathroom before I get in?â You asked, keeping your head down so she didnât look at you like the peasant that you knew she thought you were. She scoffed loudly, and out of the corner of your eye, you saw her flick her wrist in the direction of the bathroom.Â
JiHizzy : You awake? Donât tell me youâre sleeping already!Â
JiHizzy : You havenât been online in 3 hours! Come onnnnn!
JiHizzy : Are you ignoring me?!?!?! :(Â
JiHizzy : Did I do something⊠Say something wrong?Â
JiHizzy : Ahhh⊠Maybe you are sleeping⊠OkayÂ
JiHizzy : Goodnight! Sleep well!!
You never took your phone into the bathroom with you, not just because it seemed unsanitary or unhygienic, you also couldnât afford to potentially drop it on the tile floor and bust the screen. Maybe you should have, but again, you didnât think that your roommate would go through your phone. You were pretty sure that she wouldnât even touch something that belonged to you. You had never been more wrong.Â
The vibrating of your phone had caught her attention, and maybe if it had only gone off once she would have ignored it, but Jisung was a spam texter. âHmmâŠâ She hummed to herself as she snatched your phone off the nightstand, and her curiosity quickly turned to annoyance when she saw just who had been texting you. âNo way⊠Thereâs no way!â She shrieked, glaring at your phone.Â
As the story goes, the popular guy should automatically be with the popular girl⊠thatâs how it always goes! She wouldnât allow something like this to happen⊠It just couldnât. She was being a good person, she had to look out for Jisungs reputation, thatâs what it was. Luckily everything was anonymous, you were anonymous⊠He wouldnât have to be embarrassed to like you⊠He wouldnât even have to know it was you.Â
âWhat are you doing?â She was still holding your phone as you walked out of the bathroom, and your stomach dropped as you thought about what she could have been doing to your phone. Why would she even have it. âLook⊠I donât touch your stuff, please donât touch mine.â You mumbled as you scurried over to grab your phone out of her hand.Â
âJesus, donât have a tantrum.â She muttered, rolling her eyes as she turned her attention back to her own phone. âMaybe you should silence your notifications before leaving your phone unattended.â Her words only worried you more, prompting you to check what she could have been talking about, and you could feel the anxiousness creeping up further and further until it had taken you over completely.Â
She had seen the notifications, and youâd be a fool to think that she didnât know exactly who it was that was messaging you. Would she tell him? It would be absolutely humiliating, it would destroy you, you couldnât imagine the way he and his friends would react to finding out that it was you who he had been talking to. Should you tell her not to say anything? âIâŠâ No⊠It might make her say something. Maybe sheâll forget about it in the morning. That would be the best case scenario.Â
âI think Han Jisung and I would be the perfect couple, right? I mean, weâre both popular, weâre both insanely attractive! Thatâs why I feel so bad for him, you know? Itâs not like heâd willingly go for a complete loser, but this stupid anonymous app is really getting his hopes up.â You were right there, she knew exactly what she was doing, but she still had the audacity to look over at you with the fakest smile. âWere you saying something?âÂ
âN-NoâŠâ You stammered, pushing yourself up off your bed and heading to the door. âIâm gonna take a walk, Iâll be back laterâŠâ She didnât say anything to you as you left, simply laughing along with the multitudes of friends that she had on call. Had she told them? Were they all laughing at you? Of course they were, she was right⊠Why would he want to be with someone like you? You were a nobody, a speck of dust, no⊠Not even that. People notice dust⊠you were less than that.Â
But why didnât you deserve to be happy, even if that meant staying behind the safety and security of your phone screen and a basic username? Were you not allowed to have anything? Not even some sort of happiness brought by anonymous interaction? Isnât that how everything on the internet is nowadays anyway? No one really knows each other⊠So why is it such a big deal if you talk to him? Why should you be shamed for doing it the way you have been? Could you not even have this one thing?Â
Being outside was like a breath of fresh air, at least for a moment, but those thoughts brought on by the words of your roommate were suffocating. Should you even respond to him? He thought you were sleeping already⊠you could tell him you had been busy⊠His messages have the ability to help you feel better in an instant, and you needed that now. You clicked on the notification and quickly typed in your password to open the app, and not even a second passed before your phone was vibrating in your hand.Â
JiHizzy : Hey! There you are!Â
JustAnotherGirl : Hm⊠Were you just sitting and waiting for me to come online?
JiHizzy : and what if I was??Â
JiHizzy : you know I canât sleep without talking to you first.Â
JustAnotherGirl : I didnât know that thoughâŠ
JiHizzy : well now you know! :DÂ
JiHizzy : so⊠the call feature came out! I want to call you! Can I?
JustAnotherGirl : uhm⊠I donât knowâŠÂ
JiHizzy : are you in your room? Is your roommate sleeping? I can talk quiet!
JustAnotherGirl : no⊠no itâs not thatâŠ
JiHizzy : I want to hear your voice⊠please? We can talk about anything! Anything you want!Â
JustAnotherGirl : I guessâŠÂ
In a second your phone was buzzing, Jisungs screen name front and center on your screen. What a foolish feature this is, why not just give people your phone number if youâll just talk on the phone? Whatâs next? Video calling? What ifâŠ? You would never do that⊠You couldnât⊠He wouldnât want to see you anyway.Â
Your hands shook as you accepted the call and brought your phone up to your ear. âHehe, hey! Took you a bit to answer, I thought youâd just ignore me!â His voice came with a face, one that you could perfectly envision in your mind. His smile, the creasing of his eyes as he probably laid back against his pillow, one arm tucked under his head, perfectly at ease with everything. He was so lucky and he probably didnât even realize it.Â
âOh⊠uh⊠no. I was just⊠trying to find somewhere to sit.â You lied, looking around at the line of streetlamps that illuminated the sidewalks that led to different buildings. âH-HiâŠâ You stammered, and you knew exactly why you were flustered, why you were so nervous. Jisung was practically a GOD here, and you might as well have been an earthworm with how much lower you were than him. If anyone found out about this, you were sure that the both of you would be humiliated, but for vastly different reasons.Â
âYou donât have a couch or a bed or anything in your dorm?â He asked, and you felt stupid, this whole thing just felt insanely stupid. So what if you didnât have a couch or a bed in your dorm anyway, not everyone was made of money! What was he going to do, judge you for it? âWell⊠Look, if you need help or anything⊠I-âÂ
âI donât need help.â You stated quickly, and you truly didnât. Sure, you didnât have a couch or a flat screen television in your dorm, but you had a bed, and that was more than what most people had, so you had no reason to complain. âIâm actually-â A particularly loud gust of wind whipped around you, the force so strong that you could almost hear it crackling in your speaker, and it whipped up freshly fallen leaves around you.Â
âAre you outside?â There was a slight panic in his voice, although you werenât sure why. Itâs not like you hadnât braved elements far more atrocious than wind before. But then again, he didnât exactly know you well. With the image he had in his mind of you, he probably thought you were too pretty, too perfect to be outside in the wind, potentially getting your hair messed up. âDid you go outside just to talk to me? I-If I knew you were going to do that, I would have just said to wait until a different day to call. I donât want you to get ill.âÂ
You clicked your tongue against the roof of your mouth. Was he always this caring, or was he just pretending? Only the people closest to him would know, and you werenât close to him at all. Surely to be as popular as he was, heâd have to be some kind of an asshole⊠Thatâs how the movies and the shows always depict the popular guys. They were too good for people like you⊠But⊠He didnât know you were a person⊠A person like you. âItâs fine, really. Iâve walked home in thunderstorms before⊠A little gust of wind isnât going to take me out.âÂ
There was a sigh from his end of the call, and then the rustling of what sounded like sheets or blankets. âWell tell me where you are. Youâre already out, and I wouldnât mind walking a bit to come see you. I really want to know you⊠I can get my shoes on real quick and-â You hung up the call before he was finished, your breath held in your throat, and you didnât let it go until you were certain the call was ended. It was rude, sure, of course it was⊠But why was he so god damn pressed on meeting you!? Why wasnât this good enough for him too?!Â
JiHizzy : Did the call cut out? Was it the wind?? Are you okay!?
JiHizzy : If you donât answer me, Iâll⊠I donât know⊠Iâm not a computer wizard butâŠ
JiHizzy : I know people can trace things and⊠Please tell me youâre okay. Iâm worried.
JustAnotherGirl : yeah⊠Iâm fineâŠÂ
JustAnotherGirl : my phone battery is dyingâŠÂ
JiHizzy : Oh! Okay!Â
JiHizzy : Get inside quick, please. Charge your phone and message me in the morning⊠yeah?
JustAnotherGirl : yeahâŠÂ
JustAnotherGirl : GoodnightâŠ
JiHizzy : Goodnight beautiful!Â
This was getting worse, it was only going to get harder⊠Maybe you should cut ties with him now⊠It would be better that way, wouldnât it? It wasnât paying off to selfishly keep him, basically trapped behind your phone screen because you were scared of the embarrassment that would come along with actually meeting him. You needed to let him goâŠ
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Your roommate was laying in bed, a sheet mask over her face and the bedside table lamp had been dimmed. She was sleeping, at least thatâs what you thought, until the door latch clicked as you shut it and she jumped up. âWhat were you out doing, huh?â The questions immediately started, and you shook your head, going over to your bed and yanking back the blankets. âI know that you werenât out with⊠him. He would drop dead before being seen with the likes of you, ya know?âÂ
She snickered annoyingly, and you whipped around, your face scrunched up as you tried to keep the tears at bay. âHow? How do you know that? How should I know that?! Do you know him?! Do you really know him?!â You asked, or, more like begged for her to give you the answers. You werenât really sure why you were going to her of all people, maybe you were just desperate to hear that⊠that you would be good enough⊠Maybe not for him⊠But for someone.Â
The loud laugh that poured from her lips was like a gut punch, and you dropped down onto your bed, absolutely humiliated, devastated, you felt like a fool. âListen⊠Iâm gonna do you a favor⊠You know, since weâre⊠friendsâŠâ This was bound to be an awful idea, you were sure of it, but you felt like she was going to keep talking anyway and⊠It was beginning to feel like you didnât have a choice. âI think itâll be a win for both of us⊠So, Iâll meet him, as you⊠And you get to keep talking to him at night. Heâll fall in love with me and my beautiful looks, as everyone always does, and⊠Well, you wonât be lonely. How does that sound?âÂ
It sounded terrible, it sounded awful, it was an elaborate ruse that surely no one would fall for⊠But⊠He wouldnât ask you to meet him anymore⊠Youâd still talk to him⊠She wouldnât bother you or even have a reason to try to embarrass you on campus. You could stay hidden, it could work⊠It could really work. âFineâŠâ You mumbled, running your hands over your face, trying not to think too hard. âYou⊠I donât want to get involved too much with⊠What the two of you might do⊠But if he brings it up in the chat⊠Youâll have to⊠Tell meâŠâ It was the last thing youâd ever want to know, but if this was going to work, youâd have to give him up just to have him still⊠It sounded crazy. Youâd never have with him what she could⊠All you would ever be able to have are late night conversations, living out a fantasy through the tellings of your roommate and him. It would have to be good enough.Â
âOh, donât worry⊠Iâll tell you everything!â She clapped her perfectly manicured nails together, and you knew there was something sinister about it, but this felt like the only way. âGet some sleep, we have a lot of planning to do tomorrow. This is going to be great!âÂ
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âWhere did you tell him to meet me⊠I mean⊠you?â She whispered, reading over your shoulder to try to see what the messages on your phone said. This was it⊠Today was the day⊠Sheâd probably tell him to delete the app since he finally met âyouâ. Was it worth it? Probably not⊠But you had been alone for the longest time before this all happened, youâd be fine with being alone after this as well. Nothing would change for you⊠But she would get everything she wanted⊠As if she didnât have it all already.Â
âThe⊠The fountain, at the center of campusâŠâ You mumbled. Would he really think it was you? The two of you sounded nothing alike⊠But would he be able to pick up on that? Probably not, he didnât seem like the type that really cared for things like that. He was so excited that you finally agreed to meet him, the messages were flooding in and she had been right there to read all of them.Â
JiHizzy : Iâm on my way to the fountain now!Â
JiHizzy : I canât believe this is finally happening⊠Weâve been talking for almost 4 months nowâŠ
JiHizzy : Isnât this crazy?!?!Â
JiHizzy : Iâm just a little nervous⊠I hope you donât mind.
JustAnotherGirl : I donât⊠I donât mind at allâŠ
Have fun⊠You thought to yourself as you stood at a distance, watching as Jooyi stood at the fountain, switching between sitting on the edge and standing every couple of seconds. She fumbled with the edge of her skirt, and fixed her hair, then checked her makeup. She was nothing like you⊠Would he be able to notice, even if you had only talked through text and occasionally on the phone? Was he able to tell your personality through little things like that?Â
Then you saw him, practically sprinting towards the fountain, it was like everything was in slow motion. Did he even know who to look for? Would Jooyi fit the image of you that he created in his mind? You leaned against the light pole, your phone clutched against your chest⊠One message and you could ruin this all for her⊠But it would cost you too much, and you would have nothing to show for it, nothing to gain. People like you werenât made for people like him, he would never stoop so low as to even look in your direction. They were made for each other⊠Who were you to ruin things?Â
âJisung!â You heard her voice ringing in your ears, and you looked up from the pavement to see her waving in his direction, and he paused. Did he know? You watched him closely, and you saw the smile slowly beginning to form on his face before he sprinted over to her. His arms wrapped around her waist in a tight hug, picking her up and spinning her around before setting her on the ground. It would never be you, that could never be you⊠You made two people happy today⊠It should feel good, but you felt sick, and you quickly turned away, rushing back to your dorm room. You didnât have to be there to watch it, youâd hear all about it when she came back.Â
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JiHizzy : It was⊠WowâŠÂ
JiHizzy : Finally meeting you in person! Itâs amazing!Â
JustAnotherGirl : Yeah! Iâm so happy that I finally got to meet you!Â
You sniffled softly as you looked over his messages. They wouldnât be the same again, nothing would. Heâd talk about everything that he did with âyouâ, and youâd just have to respond as if⊠as if it were truly you there. This⊠This deal⊠It wasnât fair at all. It was just rubbing into your face everything that Jooyi got to do with him⊠And he was the one unknowingly telling you⊠She was evil⊠But she was a master at being just that.Â
JiHizzy : Well⊠Do you want to talk on the phone? I meanâŠÂ
JiHizzy : Weâve already met each other and⊠I donât know whyâŠÂ
JiHizzy : I could ask you for your number⊠But I donât want to get rid of the app.
JustAnotherGirl : oh? Why?
JiHizzy : Thereâs just so many memories on hereâŠ
JiHizzy : Sometimes when Iâm alone or sad⊠I go back through our messages. You really know how to make me happyâŠ
JustAnotherGirl : Really�
JiHizzy : Yeah⊠Really.Â
JiHizzy : Donât tell anyone though! The guys would totally mock me for that.
JustAnotherGirl : I wonât⊠I wonât tell anyone.
Jooyi burst through the door, shopping bags lining her arms and she dropped them carelessly to the floor before falling back onto her bed, a loud, ear piercing squeal escaping her as she kicked her feet. âHeâs so amazing! Heâs so much cuter up close! He wants to take me on a date this weekend!!â She squealed again, and you felt disgusted. Did he want to take her on a date, or did he want to take you on a date? Was it her looks or was it your personality that he liked?Â
âIâm⊠Really happy for you, Jooyi.â You lied through gritted teeth. You hated hearing about it, you hated hearing her in general, but hearing her talk about him as if she was the one who had put in the work over four months to get him to like her⊠It was unfair. You faked a yawn and rubbed your eyes, acting tired just to be able to wipe your tears without her noticing. âIâm gonna go to the library and study. Iâll see you later.âÂ
She was lost in her own world, but she sat up as you reached the door, your backpack slung over your shoulder and your hand on the doorknob. âHey!â You put on a smile as you turned to face her, waiting for her to continue. âDid he message you? Did he talk about me? Hmm?âÂ
You felt your phone vibrate in your back pocket, you knew it was him, but you shook your head. âHavenât heard from him⊠Maybe he deleted the app⊠I donât know. I have to study though, Iâll let you know if he does.â She sighed softly, letting her head fall back against the mattress, she was back in dreamland. Her whole life was a dream⊠And yours was a nonstop nightmare.Â
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The library was practically empty when you walked in, you could hear every squeak of the floorboards as the one or two other students paced the shelves of books. You could almost hear the buzzing of the fluorescent light that hung over your head⊠You could hear⊠âIs this seat taken?â The man asked, and you looked up to see Jisung standing next to the chair that was across from you. It was strange, and you looked around at the vast amount of empty tables that filled the large building. Why would he want to sit with you? âI donât like sitting by myself⊠I feel like itâs easier to study when I have someone sitting with me.âÂ
Could he read your mind? Pfft, no! Thatâs impossible. âItâs not takenâŠâ You mumbled, trying to keep your voice low, hoping that he wouldnât recognize it from the phone calls. You couldnât even begin to imagine how furious Jooyi would be if she found out about this. Maybe you should just leave. You could study another night. Then your phone vibrated against the table, your heart froze, and Jisung, who had been smiling at his own phone looked up at you.Â
âHeh⊠Thatâs a coincidence. I just sent a message and your phone vibrated!â He said rather cheerfully, and the way he looked at you, it was like he was expecting you to check it. There was no way in hell youâd do that though. You awkwardly giggled, shoving your phone into your backpack as you shook your head.Â
âProbably an email or something⊠It is⊠Ironic thoughâŠâ You whispered, lowering your head even further into the textbook that you had opened. You felt his eyes linger on you though, like they were burning through you, and you didnât know whether to feel flustered, nervous, or both those things and everything in between. âD-Do you need something? A pencil⊠Or-âÂ
âI know youâŠâ He said matter-of-factly, and it was like your throat closed up and your chest tightened. How did he know you? What was he talking about? He couldnât possibly know you. âYouâre the top student⊠Youâre like, mega smart! I can see why now⊠Do you always study this late?âÂ
Relief, a sigh of relief and a deep breath. You were safe⊠You shouldnât overthink too much. âMmnâŠâ You nodded your head once but kept it bowed, trying to focus on the words in the textbook, but it was so hard. âThank youâŠâ You added, wondering if maybe that was what he was waiting for.Â
He chuckled softly, and then you felt the table shake as he dropped his own backpack on the table and started pulling out a bunch of notebooks. âYou make it seem so easy. How do you just⊠Concentrate? Itâs so hard for me to do.â He whined, and you looked around as his voice got higher and higher. âOh⊠Sorry.â His voice dropped back down to a whisper and then he chuckled softly.Â
His laugh was contagious and you couldnât help but laugh along with him, your hand clasping over your mouth to try to muffle the noise. âItâs easy⊠You just have to find the fun in it.â He rolled his eyes and stuck his tongue out at you and you pursed your lips, trying not to laugh at his reaction. âSeriously. Here, let me show you.âÂ
It was supposed to be a solo study session, honestly, it was just to try to get away from your roommate long enough for her to fall asleep. You never in your wildest dreams expected this to happen. It was like a scene straight out of a k-drama, but you also knew that after these types of scenes, things got bad. But you didnât want to think about that right now⊠All you could think about was the way that he laughed with you, the way he smiled at you, the way he talked to you like you were a person and not just the dirt beneath his shoes.Â
âYou remind me of someone.â He said nonchalantly as you both started packing up your books. You blinked a few times, your head tilting to the side as you waited for him to elaborate, but he was looking at his phone, his smile dropping slightly as he turned it off and slid it into his pocket. âOh⊠Itâs nothing. She must have just fallen asleep. Sheâs always so tired. She studies a lot⊠Kind of like you. Maybe you can tutor me⊠Iâll bring her too! That would be cool, right?â Cool⊠Not at all. It was the complete opposite of cool. That⊠That would never work.
âM-Maybe⊠I donât know⊠I tutor a couple other people.â You came up with the lie quickly, and you hated the way his smile almost completely disappeared. Maybe you could make an exception⊠Itâs not like heâd find out⊠Right? Jooyi would just have to act interested in studying. You were sure that if you told her, sheâd be on board⊠âIâll⊠Iâll see if I can schedule you in.âÂ
And just like that, his smile was back and he was pulling his phone out again. âAwesome! Uhm, how about we exchange phone numbers andâŠâ He trailed off when he saw the look on your face, and you were sure that you looked quite uneasy. There was no way that would go over well with Jooyi, sheâd flip shit. âHow about Anonny⊠You know the app, right? Everyone has it!â Oh shit⊠That was even worse.Â
âHow about⊠We leave it up to fate.â His eyebrow arched, and you were really going out on a limb here with the excuses, but you had to protect yourself⊠Not just from him, but from Jooyi too. You didnât have much to lose⊠But it was enough to have you terrified. âIf we both manage to come to the library at the same time, if you see me here, Iâll tutor you. I usually come at night though⊠Just so you know.âÂ
You bowed your head to him as you got up, putting on your backpack and heading out, and you could hear him following behind you. âIâll be here. Every night. Iâll study on my own too⊠Thank you, for helping me.â You hummed in response, pushing open the main door and you were met with a rather brisk gust of wind that had you shivering and shoving your hands into your pockets. âAre you cold? HereâŠâ He shimmied out of his top coat, placing it over your shoulders and smiling when he saw it on you. âYou can return it to me next time fate brings us together, okay? Just stay warm, and get home safe.âÂ
For fucks sakeâŠÂ
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JiHizzy : Hey, whatcha up to?
JiHizzy : Itâs been like⊠3 hours⊠Are you mad or something?Â
JiHizzy : You must be sleeping⊠I just feel like somethings wrongâŠÂ
JiHizzy : Let me know when you get this message⊠Okay?
Your roommate was fast asleep when you finally got in, and you quickly took off Jisungs coat and slid it under your bed, safe for now at least from the prying eyes of Jooyi. As you curled up under your blankets, ready to just fall asleep, ready to let yourself drift off into a world where you didnât have to pretend and you didnât have to lie to the man who had sat across from you in the library when there were so many tables to choose from. The man who smiled at you and made you feel like you were the only person in the room. Then your phone vibrated once more from under your pillow.Â
JiHizzy : I was studying tonight⊠I know how important it is to you and⊠I wanted to do it. JiHizzy : I met someone there, she reminded me of you a lot!Â
JiHizzy : I hope these arenât waking you up⊠I know youâre sleeping.Â
JustAnotherGirl : I was at the library too. We must have just missed each otherâŠ
JiHizzy : NO WAY! Dammit! WellâŠÂ
JiHizzy : I was thinking that we can do study dates. Wouldnât that be cool?Â
JustAnotherGirl : It would. I really like that idea.Â
JiHizzy : Awesome! Okay!Â
JiHizzy : Goodnight cutie!Â
Study dates⊠Thatâs how you had looked at tonight, or you were just delusional. If tonight had happened sooner⊠Would you have taken Jooyi up on her deal? He seemed to be just fine with you⊠He wasnât embarrassed, he wasnât ashamed to be sitting across from you and laughing with you⊠Would he have liked you still if he knew who you really were?Â
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âSo, how was your night last night? You got home safe?â Jisung asked and you heard Jooyi giggle loudly, it was so fake, it made you sick. He was such a genuine person, and she was nothing but a stuck up little-Â
âMy night was wonderful! I went shopping for our date this weekend. I canât wait for you to see the outfits I picked out!â You sank down onto the bench. Shit⊠You hadnât told her⊠What would happen now?Â
âSh-Shopping?â He questioned, and you wanted to crawl under a rock. You wanted to hide from her and the wrath that you knew was bound to be coming your way. âI thought you were studying? You said⊠You said you were at the libraryâŠâÂ
She went silent, and even though you were outside, you could feel the tension in the air. âDid⊠Did I say shopping?! Oh my gosh, I meant studying! Iâm a big nerd! You know me!â She laughed again, but this time there was something else⊠Nervousness? Irritation? Anger? Sheâd be looking for you.Â
âYouâre acting weird⊠Are you okay?â He asked, and she scoffed loudly. Should you spare a glance and risk meeting eyes with her? âWere you just⊠Lying about studying? Was it to try to⊠Impress me? You know you donât have to do that.âÂ
âI know I donât. Iâm impressive enough!â She said loudly, itâs like she enjoyed making scenes. She was disgusting. âI have to go really quick, I forgot my big olâ textbook back at my room. Iâll meet up with you later? We can have lunch!âÂ
âY-Yeah⊠SureâŠâ Something had changed⊠He wasnât buying it anymore. But you didnât have time to worry about that. Jooyi was looking for you, and you were tired of being scared of her. You were tired of worrying about what sheâd do or what sheâd say about you. Jisung liked you, even if just as a friend⊠You had been made clear of that last night at the library. She couldnât even make it one day⊠The two of you were just too different, and he had noticed. You werenât sure what would happen next, but you werenât going to hide away, you werenât going to give in. You deserved to be happy⊠You might not have the money, you donât have the luxuries, but you have the willpower, and you have the drive⊠And that was worth way more than what her money could ever buy.Â
âI need to talk to you⊠Now.â As if like magic, she appeared in front of you. She was angry, no doubt, but there was nothing she could do to hurt you. So you got up, following her off to the side of one of the buildings, and before you could say anything the palm of her hand connected with your cheek. âYou bitch! You said that youâd tell me when he messaged you! Was this your plan?! To humiliate me in front of him!âÂ
Now it was your turn to scoff, your turn to laugh, and while the sting in your cheek hurt, it didnât hurt as much as knowing that you almost let him get away, you almost let him get stuck with someone like her. âI didnât have to plan it for it to work out like this. You humiliated yourself. He isnât your type⊠Deal with it.âÂ
âYouâŠâ She started, but it quickly turned to a scream, one filled with pure rage as she started grabbing at the pockets of your jacket. âGive me your phone! He doesnât want you! He wants me! Youâre nothing! Youâre poor and youâre pathetic and youâll never have him! Why would anyone want you!â She just⊠screamed⊠She screamed so loud, and with every attempt to grab at you, you swatted her hands away, backing up further and further until you bumped into something⊠or⊠someone. âOh! Jisung!â She full stopped, adjusting her hair and putting on the fakest smile.Â
âWhat are you doing?â He asked, looking between you and Jooyi. âWhat are you talking about?â His eyes focused on you a lot longer, as if studying you, and you felt the heat of his gaze, but it didnât burn, it just made you feel warm, it made you feel safe. âWhy do you want her phone?âÂ
Jooyi was stuttering over herself, unable to form a coherent sentence as her head shook violently. âShe⊠Sh-Sheâs blackmailing me, Ji! She stole my username on Anonny⊠Sheâs pretending to be me so that she can get with you⊠So she can take you away from me!â She whined, and you couldnât help but look disgustedly at her. She truly was the queen of scenes, stomping her feet and throwing a tantrum like a child would. How pathetic.Â
âMy⊠tutor⊠Is blackmailing⊠You?â He questioned, and her eyes widened before turning her daggers towards you. âWhatâs your name on Anonny? If she stole it from you⊠What is it?â You didnât have to do anything, he was putting all of the pieces together for himself. You werenât sure what would happen once the puzzle finally came together⊠And maybe it wouldnât work out for you⊠But to see her get knocked down to size, it made it all worth it.Â
âI-It⊠My Anonny name? You know it! You tell me what it is!â She said, and you knew why, she was trying to get him to say it⊠But he was smarter than that. He shook his head, letting out a disappointed chuckle, and then his attention was back on you. âDonât! Donât look at her! Look at me! You love me!âÂ
âDo I?â He whispered, but he never looked away from you, his head tilted and a small smile on his face. âWhatâs your Anonny username?â He asked, and you felt the heat rising inside of you. This was your chance, your moment, you didnât know where it would lead you to, but it was time.Â
âIâm⊠JustAnotherGirl⊠Just another girl that has a crush on you⊠That gets overlooked and forgotten. But Iâm here⊠And Iâve been here for four monthsâŠâ You murmured, and he let out a shaky gasp. Was he embarrassed? Was he ashamed that you were the girl he had been talking to for so long? âIâm sorry. Iâm not popular, Iâm not even close to rich. I donât have much to give⊠But-âÂ
âBut youâre perfectâŠâ He stepped closer to you, causing you to stumble back as your breath hitched in your throat. âYouâre smart, and youâre sweet⊠Youâre kind and youâre genuine. Youâre not materialistic, youâre just⊠Youâre wonderful, youâre wonderfully youâŠâ His hand reached up, his knuckles brushing lightly against your cheek. âYouâre the girl that I fell in love withâŠâÂ
âWHAT!!?â Jooyi screeched from behind you, and before you knew it, you and Jisung were being pushed apart. âAre you serious right now?! Her?! Sheâs⊠Sheâs a roach! Sheâs vermin! I canât believe you right now! Have you seen me?!âÂ
âSadly.â Jisung retorted, and it took everything in you not to laugh, but everyone that had gathered around to see what was going on laughed enough for you. âIâd really appreciate it if you didnât talk about my girlfriend like that.âÂ
âG-Girlfriend?!â Jooyi scoffed, running her hands through her hair. âYouâve got to be kidding me! Just⊠When you lose all your friends because youâre with a loser, donât come crawling back to me! Have fun being not popular!âÂ
âI think itâs time for us to go, donât you?â He asked, completely ignoring her now as he draped his arm over your shoulder. âYou want lunch? Anything you want, itâs on me.âÂ
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HanJi : Iâll be at the library soon. Iâve got hot cocoa!
Beautiful Wonderful Girlfriend : Donât drive too fast, the snow is really coming down nowâŠÂ
âI know it isâŠâ His voice came from behind you, and then the cups of hot cocoa were placed in front of you on the table. âItâs really pretty, isnât it?â You glanced out the window, awestruck at just how beautiful campus could look when blanketed in dazzling white snow. âYou brought your coat, right?âÂ
You nodded your head, patting the chair beside you where the coat that he had given you almost 2 years ago was neatly hanging over the back of the seat. âItâs your coat⊠You just wonât let me give it back.â You teased, and he let out a soft sigh as he dropped down into his seat. He hadnât changed a bit since the first time you both sat at this table together.Â
It was strange how time worked, it felt like forever ago, but you remembered it like it had happened just yesterday. âItâs our coat, babe. Whatâs mine is yours.â He sounded so serious, but you couldnât help but laugh at the statement. He was talking like the two of you were⊠Married? Your laughter subsided as you stared at him across the table, your lips parted slightly as you let out a quiet breath.Â
âYouâre funnyâŠâ You said sheepishly, turning your attention back out the window, focusing on the snowflakes that danced down from the sky, finding the perfect place to rest. âWeâre not married, our things donât have to be sharedâŠâ Even though you both had been together for two years and he was the sweetest, most loving boyfriend you had ever had⊠You still couldnât get those words out of your head. The words from the past that had been uttered by the girl that had wanted to take your place⊠He would never want to be with someone like youâŠ
âYetâŠâ He murmured, the word like a breath leaving his lips. You blinked a few times, feeling the heat rising in your cheeks, your heart thumping loudly in your chest. Did he really love you that much? Could someone really love you that much? Were you deserving of this much love, to be with someone like him? âWhat are you thinking about, babe?â He cooed, reaching across the table to grab your hands that were folded on top, his thumb brushing lightly across your knuckles.Â
âIâm justâŠâ You began, feeling the familiar sting of fresh tears beginning to brim in your eyes, but it was slightly different this time⊠They werenât tears of sadness or fear⊠You were happy. âIâm so lucky⊠And⊠I never thought Iâd be with someone so amazing⊠So perfectâŠâ You could barely get your voice above a whisper, your throat closing up from trying to hold back your tears.Â
âMmâŠâ He hummed, pushing away from the table and getting up, walking around to your side of the table and grabbing your hand. âLetâs take a walk⊠yeah?â One more glance out the window and you saw the snow creating almost a wall of white as it came down harder, but there was no wind, it was just⊠beautiful. âIâll keep you warm, donât worry.âÂ
You nodded your head, grabbing the coat and slipping it on, the scent of his cologne, although faded, still brought you comfort when you put it on. âWhere are we going?â You quizzed, slipping your fingers between his as you both walked out of the library. You were sure that nothing would be open, not with this weather.Â
âAnywhere⊠I just⊠I want to walk with you.â He said, his voice kind of shaky, like his nerves had gotten the better of him. He led you aimlessly through campus, and you followed right along beside him. You didnât really care where you were going, as long as you were with him, youâd follow the path he was taking blindly with your hand in his. âIâve been thinking a lot about how Iâll do itâŠâÂ
Was he talking to you or was he just thinking out loud? You looked to him, the snowflakes catching on your eyelashes as you tried to read him, but he was looking straight forward, his lips turned up into a lopsided smile. âHow youâll do what?â Even though you were speaking softly, the silence that surrounded you made every word sound so loud.Â
âPropose.â He sounded so calm, but the singular word alone had you pausing, pulling him back so he would face you. âWhat? Can I not think about how Iâm going to propose to my wonderful, beautiful, amazing, sweet, lovely-âÂ
âOkay okay!â Even after 2 years, you still werenât the best at taking compliments, especially when he was looking at you so intently. âWhy are you thinking about that right now? Weâre still in college and⊠I want you to focus on graduating. So we can both be successful. You know?âÂ
His hand slipped out of yours and then his arm snaked around your waist as he started walking again, pulling you along with him. âI can focus on graduating, and I can focus on you. Iâve been doing it since the day I truly met you⊠the real you.â He chuckled quietly, the sound building in his chest as his head shook. It was funny now, to look back on everything that happened. âAnd I like thinking about the future, it makes me happy to know that Iâll be spending it with you. But you donât have to worry about me proposing in college⊠I wouldnât want everyone to see. I want it to be a moment for us to remember.â You hummed softly, leaning against his shoulder as you simply listened to him, you let him get lost in his thoughts because you didnât mind getting lost in them either. They had you looking forward to a better, simpler time where the two of you would be able to be together without worrying about grades and finals. âFlower petals will line the path that Iâll take you downâŠâ He murmured, and your eyes were focused on his face, not noticing the trail of pink and red in the snow. âA gazebo, with fairy lights twinkling brightly, shining in your eyesâŠâ He continued, sighing softly. âNobody is around, the snow is falling, you look absolutely stunning against the backdropâŠâÂ
âA winter proposal?â You asked, and you were so lost in his thoughts and your own that you hadnât even noticed how far you had walked until he was leading you up the stairs of a white wooden gazebo, perfect icicles hanging off the roof of it, and⊠fairy lights illuminated the inside. âJiâŠâ You whispered his name, a tuft of smoke coming from your mouth as you breathed it out. His arm left your waist and he kneeled down in front of you, his cheeks a dark pink from both the cold and his nerves. âYou said⊠You said you wouldnât propose when we were still in collegeâŠâÂ
He snickered, fishing a black velvet box out of his pocket, his snow dampened hair curtaining his eyes as he kept his head down. âI meant⊠not while we were in the college. Weâre not on the grounds anymoreâŠâ He finally looked up at you, and you let out a shaky gasp as it truly set in what he was doing. âI donât want to wait any longer, I know that youâre the one that I want to spend all of my life with. Iâve never felt more comfortable with anyone else. I love you, Iâve known that I loved you since before I even⊠before I even knew you. I wake up every morning and thank everything that youâre mine, and I fall asleep every night knowing that no matter what, everything will be okay because I have you by my side. I donât care what anyone thinks, I donât care what people might say⊠I only care that youâre happy⊠And if you say yes, I promise⊠To do my best to make you feel happy and loved every single day until the day that I die.â He opened the box, and the diamond facets of the silver ring glistened and reflected the lights that had been strung up. âSo⊠Will you⊠Will you marry me?âÂ
You choked out a sob, dropping to your knees in front of him as you nodded your head yes, and he quickly pulled the ring out of the box, his hand shaking as he slid it onto your finger. âJiâŠâ Was all you could say as you looked at the ring, cold, yet so beautiful in its place. His chilled hands cupped your cheeks, tilting your head so that your eyes would meet his. âI love youâŠâÂ
âAnd Iâll always love you.â He leaned in, kissing you softly and humming against your lips. âShall we go back inside and warm up, my beautiful, lovely, wonderful, amazing-âÂ
âStop~â You playfully whined, giggling quietly as you dropped your gaze once more. âYouâre so cheesyâŠâ You mumbled, and then you felt his lips against your forehead, his fingers brushing your hair out of your face.Â
âAnd youâre⊠Youâre everything to meâŠâ He pushed himself up to his feet, carefully pulling you up and then hugging you tightly. âThank you, for making me happy, for loving me⊠I canât wait to marry you."
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Pairing : Dad!Lee Minho x F!Reader TW : pregnant reader ; one child ; just fluff ; the fluffiest fluff ; Word Count : 2.3k Request : Anonny : Can we have more dad lee know đ„č after the newest skz family ep dad lee know has taken over me A/N : Gonna make this in headcanon mode so that I can give multiple examples, I can't focus on just one. The Minho brainrot has gotten to me!
Dad Lee Know who announced your pregnancy through bubble and took an hour and half a bag of kitty treats just to line Soonie, Doongie, and Dori up around your positive pregnancy test. The only caption was âIâve been promoted from cat dad to real dad.âÂ
Dad Lee Know who keeps the pregnancy tracker app on his phone because he wants you to have enough storage on your phone to take constant pictures of belly updates. He sends you a text every time a week passes letting you know what the baby is the size of. Your favorite text was probably the random âBASEBALL!!!â text, it took you a good five minutes to understand what it meant since he didnât elaborate.Â
Dad Lee Know who comes home from work every day and gives your belly kisses, telling his little baseball sized baby that he missed them dearly. He says itâs so that they get used to hearing it already and theyâll know what it means when they come out.Â
Dad Lee Know who plans his entire schedule around your doctors appointments, making sure that heâs able to make it to each and every one of them. He and Chan almost got into a fight because Chan accidentally said the wrong date for practice. He even wrote the appointment dates on the staff calendar so they knew not to schedule anything for those days.Â
Dad Lee Know who had playfully made a bet with the guys about the gender of his child. He said he had thought it was, and he had wanted a boy, but when it was revealed that he was having a daughter he had cried tears of joy and excitedly wrote in the group chat that heâd give the guys the money he owed them for the bet after he took you out to eat.Â
Dad Lee Know who started decorating the nursery for his daughter the day after the appointment, declaring that the nursery would be fit for a princess⊠And then proudly stating that his daughter is a princess already. She was going to be spoiled beyond belief.Â
Dad Lee Know who had bought a heart doppler just so that he could lay in bed at night beside you with his headphones on listening to the sound of his daughter's rapid heartbeat. (He had also googled on the first night if it was normal for a baby's heartbeat to be almost 170bpm in the womb⊠It is normal.)Â
Dad Lee Know who took paternity leave 3 weeks before your due date because he had read that by that time the baby could come at any point and he didnât want to take any chances of missing the moment.Â
Dad Lee Know who put on a strong face when your water broke while you both were out shopping for more baby clothes. On the inside he was freaking out, but he was staying calm for you.Â
Dad Lee Know who held your hand on the ride to the hospital, tears already pricking his eyes knowing that his baby girl would soon enter this world and heâd be able to hold her.Â
Dad Lee Know who freaked out a little bit (a lot) when he saw his daughter's head crowning, he was about to faint, so he opted to stay up close to your head through the rest of the delivery because he wanted to be conscious when she fully came out.Â
Dad Lee Know who told you that you were doing amazing and how proud he was of you even though you were being so mean during the delivery. He understood though, it looked like it hurted a lot. He was so proud to call you his wife.Â
Dad Lee Know whoâs hand was shaking as he cut the umbilical cord, his breath was held, but that was the moment that he truly felt like a dad, like a father. He finally let the breath out when the cord was cut.Â
Dad Lee Know who cried harder than you when he heard his daughterâs first cries.Â
Dad Lee Know who begged you to let him hold her first, and you were honestly so tired that you didnât even have the energy to say no.Â
Dad Lee Know who almost filled up his phone storage completely on his daughter's first day on earth because he couldnât stop taking pictures of her. She was so beautiful, he had hearts in his eyes the moment he laid them on her. She was precious to him and he let the world know it.Â
Dad Lee Know who sent a picture of her to the group chat with the caption âI made this! So did Y/N, but look at her! Look what we made!â In that moment he had created a team of uncles that would promise to protect her just as much as Minho would.Â
Dad Lee Know who woke up every night with his daughter because he didnât want to miss a moment with her. He also knew that you needed your sleep, you had done all of the hard work, the least he could do is let you get some rest.Â
Dad Lee Know who introduced his daughter to his cats as their new sister. âSheâs not old enough to play yet, so be nice. You can look, but donât touch. Okay?â It seemed like they understood him though, they would sit around her swing and stare at her, almost like they were guarding her or watching out for her, and they would only move away when you or Minho picked her up.Â
Dad Lee Know who would get slightly sad when you would breastfeed his daughter because it was one of the things he couldnât do. He surprised you with a breast pump because he wanted her to know he could give the milk too, just⊠In bottle form.Â
Dad Lee Know who immediately felt guilty about the breast pump because it looked painful and he didnât want you to be sore. The only time you did it now was when you knew you were going out and you wanted to have the milk ready.Â
Dad Lee Know who almost threw up the first time he changed her diaper. After he was done it looked like he had lost about 20 years which was hysterical to you. All of the guys heard about it and they clowned him for it for a good bit.Â
Dad Lee Know who cried his eyes out the night before his paternity leave was over. He didnât want to go back to work, he didnât want to spend a single moment away from you or his daughter, the thought that he might miss something was devastating to him.Â
Dad Lee Know who had attempted to sneak his daughter to work with him in the baby wrap carrier, and then crying even more when you caught him and told him he couldnât, at least not until she was a couple months older.Â
Dad Lee Know who refused to believe that his daughter was already five months old when the day came around. He was a softie and he didnât like to think that his baby girl was growing already, he wanted her to stay little forever.Â
Dad Lee Knowwho brought home a âBabyâs First Christmasâ ornament when he came home from work and then proceeded to cry his eyes out because âwhere did the time go? Tell her to stop growing.âÂ
Dad Lee Know who went all out for her first birthday party which he wanted to be princess themed because, alas, she was his princess. He took pictures and videos all day, and then that night when she was fast asleep, he laid in bed beside you, choked up and sniffling as he told you that he felt like he was missing too much of her life because of his job.Â
Dad Lee Know who had been the one to see her take her first steps and jokingly flaunted that you had missed it⊠But then quickly apologized when he saw that it upset you and pulled out his phone because he had managed to record it. The group chat also got the video, they were constantly in the loop about everything that she did.Â
Dad Lee Know who demanded that you and his daughter be allowed to go on tour with him and the guys, and then giving management the ultimatum that it was the three of you, or none of you at all. That was his daughter's first plane trip.Â
Dad Lee Know who death stared at anyone that even looked slightly annoyed when your daughter got a little cranky on the plane. He kept her on his lap the whole time and bounced her and sang to her so that youâd have a comfortable flight.Â
Dad Lee Know who talked only about you and his daughter when he had the chance to during concerts. If fans had a problem with it, he didnât really care. You and his baby were the most important things in his life right now, and you always would be. If the fans didnât like hearing about it, they could leave.Â
Dad Lee Know who personally wrote a song about you and his daughter, and with the help of Chan, Changbin, and Jisung, he was able to have it finished just in time for your anniversary.Â
Dad Lee Know who woke up every morning to make breakfast for his daughter and pack her lunch when she was old enough to go to school.Â
Dad Lee Know who was the only father crying in a sea of mothers (including you) when it was her first day of kindergarten. He didnât want to let go of her hand, and you had to practically pry his fingers off.Â
Dad Lee Know who took an entire day off work that day just so he could cuddle up with you and cry to you about how empty and quiet the house felt without her there.Â
Dad Lee Know who was the first parent up at the school every single day, waiting a whole hour out on the bench in front of her classroom door with a snack and a brand new stuffed animal. Thatâs how her stuffed animal collection began.Â
Dad Lee Know who would sit on the floor next to his daughter's bed and read her bedtime stories, acting out parts of the stories with her stuffed animals because he knew it made her smile.Â
Dad Lee Know who fell asleep one night in the middle of reading the bedtime stories, his head resting on the edge of his daughters mattress, and when he woke up she was sitting on his lap and sleeping as well. He didnât move that night and he didnât mind the backache that came along with sleeping that way either.Â
Dad Lee Know who was the loudest person in the crowd when his daughter walked across the stage for her little award for perfect grades. âTHAT'S MY BABY! YES! DADDY IS SO PROUD OF YOU PRINCESS!âÂ
Dad Lee Know who stayed up all night to help his 6th grade daughter with her science fair project, even after she headed off to bed, he continued to work on it just to make sure she got first place.Â
Dad Lee Know who about lost his shit when she got second place, you and his daughter had to usher him out of the gymnasium where everything was set up so that he wouldnât embarrass her.Â
Dad Lee Know who took you and his daughter out to dinner after the science fair mishap and told his daughter that âit doesn't matter whether you got second place or first place, youâll always be number one to me. Youâre the smartest girl I know and Iâm so proud of you.âÂ
Dad Lee Know who would help his daughter with her homework every night, even if he spent all day practicing or recording, he was never too tired to help her.Â
Dad Lee Know who would still tuck his daughter in at night and make sure her closet was shut and her night light was on when she would fall asleep no matter how old she got.Â
Dad Lee Know who got choked up when his daughter graduated high school, his voice cracking when she walked across the stage and hiding his face in your shoulder so that no one would see him crying.Â
Dad Lee Knowwho you had to give a speech to when his daughter said that she wanted to bring her boyfriend over to meet you and Minho. âDonât look at him like you want to kill him, Minho.â âBut what if I want to kill him? Heâs trying to take my baby girl away.â âBaby, sheâs 19âŠâ âBlah blah blah I donât want to hear it! Sheâs a baby!âÂ
Dad Lee Know who threw a massive party when his daughter got accepted into SNU. He tried to uninvite his daughterâs boyfriend, but she insisted that he come or she wouldnât show up.Â
Dad Lee Know who taught his daughter to drive. He was terrified, and she almost crashed into the curb, but he told her she was doing a great job regardless so that he didnât break her spirits.Â
Dad Lee Know who would do anything for his daughter, she is his entire life, his whole world. He loved her with his entire heart. Heâs the best father in the universe, he would lay down his life for her, he would give up everything for her. Sheâs the greatest thing to ever happen to him, and watching her grow has been bittersweet, sad but rewarding. He wanted nothing but the best for her, and heâd make sure that no matter how old he got, or how old she got, heâd always be there for her.Â
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and a leather jacket
⊠is there anything that needs to be said right nowđ§đŒââïž
CHANGBIN ⥠SKZ-TALKER EP. 38
My Minho bias is going crazy right now đđ€
Oh, my God, man.
I hate wearing gloves so the fact he always has some with him is like hajsjdnfnf my heartđąâ€ïž
pairing: minho x reader genre/warnings: established relationship, fluff; minho is lowkey the biggest simp wbk, unedited ÂŻ\_(ă)_/ÂŻ word count: 0.9k note: first fic of 2024! don't look at me tho, at this point i just keep writing the most self-indulgent shit lol
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minho is the type to - 15 seconds after he meets you for your weekly date night - ask you where your gloves are when he sees your reddened and shivering hands. there was a greeting kiss preceding the question, of course.
"i think we both know what the answer is," you tell him, trying to rub your hands together for warmth until he takes them and presses your cold fingers against his cheeks, before he kisses your palms.
"whatâs the point of getting matching gloves if you keep forgetting yours?" he says, a light scolding tone in his voice that matches the slight frown tugging on his brows.
"it's not my fault!" you try to defend yourself. you'd raise your hands for emphasis, but he's still keeping them near his face, alternating between kisses and blowing into them to get you all nice and toasty. "i keep them by the door on purpose so i wouldn't forget to take them with me when i go out. you have to at least give me a little credit for that. i just... never actually remember to bring them."
he rolls his eyes, an act that most would find patronizing especially if minho is the one who's doing it. but when it comes to you, everything minho does is full of affection, even as he pretends to be annoyed.
"what am i going to do with you?" he mutters like a disappointed parent.
"it was your idea to get the gloves. i didn't really need them though. i have you."
"but i'm not with you all the time, baby. you need to keep yourself warm."
"well, you're here with me, aren't you? you can keep me warm now. i'll worry about cold hands later."
squishing his cheeks together, you pull him toward you for a swift peck.
despite his exasperated sigh, minho still presses his lips against each of your palms one last time, even turns them over to kiss your knuckles, before he settles on intertwining his left hand with your right one, stuffing them in his coat pocket as he pulls the both of you toward the direction of your dinner reservation.
"wait!" you exclaim, holding up your neglected hand, "what about this one? it's cold too."
he turns to look at you, his face devoid of all emotions as he assesses your so-called dilemma. then, minho lets go of you, telling you to put both your hands in your own pockets.
"come onnn," you lament, pouting at the man in front of you.
"you come on," he retorts. "just do it."
you huff childishly, watching as the breath comes out in a puff of smoke in the cold air, thinking minho is really letting you fend for warmth by yourself for the remaining 10 minutes that it takes to walk to the restaurant.
it's not like you meant to forget the gloves at home.
before you can resume walking, minho moves to stand behind you, pulling you to him, eliciting a surprised oof! from you. he shoves his hands into your pockets, intertwining your fingers once again within the confines of the fabric as he shuffles you forward, his legs on either side of yours so it's easier for you to walk. the thick coats and wool scarves that you're both wearing already make you look like a pair of clumsy bears roaming the street, but with your back pressed against his front like this, you have no doubt that by-passers must be thinking you're two cotton balls waddling in the middle of the city.
"minho!" you laugh, partially embarrassed that people are side-eyeing this strange public display of affection. "stop!"
"you wanted me to keep you warm, didn't you?"
"people are staring!"
"you said you were cold." he seems unfazed though, continuing to nudge you forward like it's the most normal thing in the world. "make up your mind."
"i take it back!"
you do your best to plant your feet firmly on the ground to keep him from moving. it works though, or at least it staggers him enough for you to wriggle out of his hold. you take a few steps away from minho, and he looks at you with unimpressed eyes.
"i take it back," you repeat. "we're only a couple blocks away. i think i'll manage."
he stares at you for a moment longer, before he reaches into his bag and pulls out a pair of gloves, identical to the matching ones that you two picked out together a few weeks ago.
"how do you have my gloves?"
"these aren't the ones at your place," he clarifies. "this is your backup pair. i went back to the store and got them because i know you never remember to take shit with you."
you don't even try to suppress the grin that tugs on your lips when he walks closer to you, taking your hands and attentively covers your skin with the wool. "so you just... keep them with you at all times now?" you ask.
"pretty much, yeah."
once he's made sure that gloves are hugging your fingers snugly, you pull him down for a kiss, your lips moving together warmly. you feel him smile against you even though he's trying to look stern.
"you love me sooo much," you simper when you break from the kiss.
minho sighs, a long one as if to say yes, unfortunately i do love you very much.
"now come on." this time he does speak aloud. "let's go before they give away our table."
because that's just the kind of person minho is. because no matter how grumpy he may appear from the outside, he's still the type to always think of you and your wellbeing and show up for you even when you don't show up for yourself. no matter how callous his facade is, he is still the type to love you quietly. tenderly. completely.
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I really want to read this but Iâm scared itâs gonna break me đđđŒ
After Cynthia Jones gets into a car accident and loses her memory, she's haunted by dreams of a stranger. He's faceless, sarcastic, and overwhelmingly charming. Without his face and without her memories, there's not much she can do. Haunted by fragments of the past, struggling to remember the present, and terrified of the future; she's forced to uncover secrets from the past that could change everything.
Kim Seungmin is a K-pop idol and when a few sasaengs cause the love of his life to get into a life-altering accident, he's torn. He loves her, but everyone always says if you love them, let them go. Coerced to grapple with the startling new course of his life, with the help of Cynthia's best friend, who only wants the best for Cynthia; he cuts ties with his past lover entirely.
Juggling heartbreak, loss of identity, isolation, and loneliness begs an answer to the question everyone so desperately searches for; if you love someone, should you truly let them go?
_ _ _
Forget-me-not is currently an ongoing fanfic on Wattpad and Ao3.
*Dual points of view
*Amnesia
*A toxic friendship
*PTSD
*Depression and loneliness
*An unsolved mystery
*Hurt/comfort
*Seungmin's witty insults and remarks despite everything that's happened
*The rest of SKZ appearing and being themselves
*A slow build romance
*Drama, drama, drama
*Flowers and flower language
*The moon chases the sun
*Loss of self-identity
*Happy ending (unlike the last full length fic)
Exactly how I imagined he would react đ„Čâ€ïž So heartwarming!!
â Genre: Fluff, crack
â Warnings: No
â Request: For @cherrybeartoast âĄ
â Characters: Seungmin, Y/N, SKZ
â Word Count: 1k
âClose your eyes,â Y/N giggled as she jumped up behind Seungmin; the man in question sighed in a dramatic way, though he did as she said and let his eyes fall shut with the faintest of smiles on his lips.
Pulling out two small balls of fluff from behind her back, Y/N giggled in excitement. She held them out in front of the man and waved them around giddily, the rattle of the keychains making Seungmin open his eyes again.
âLook!â Y/N grinned. âI got these for us. Miffy is mine ⊠I got you Snuffy.â
She handed the little brown dog to Seungmin; he turned it around slowly in his hands, his fingers toying with the soft fur.
âY/N,â Seungminâs voice had adopted his familiar dry tone and Y/N couldn't help but grin. âDo I look like your dog?â
Y/N squeezed her arms around his shoulders, her body half clinging onto his body, half swinging around her. âDo you want the truth?â
Seungmin turned his head ever so slightly and glared at the girl.
âDo you like it?â Y/N asked. She bounced her Miffy plush down Seungmin's arm, the man's lips twitching as he watched her bump it against the dog in his hands.
âMaybe,â Seungmin said. Y/N started to laugh at his impassive face, and when Seungmin tucked it away in his pocket, she grinned.
Seungmin cleared his throat. âThanks.â
Y/N's grin widened, her eyes sparkling as she tried to hug Seungmin even harder. He grumbled but accepted her clinginess anyway, the only thing implying he enjoyed it being his slow leaning back into her. His body seemed to melt into hers and Y/N giggled as she kissed his cheek, her fingers mischievously going to cup his face before squishing it into a funny shape.
*â*â*
Jeongin stared blankly as Seungmin jumped around the practice room. His hair flew in energetic waves as he almost bounced off of the walls in excitement; tightly clutched in his hand was the plush keychain Y/N had given him, and Jeongin sighed when he realised he was Seungmin's next victim.
âLook how cute he is,â Seungmin said for the sixth time. He smiled widely as he grabbed Jeongin by the neck and waved the plushie at him. âY/N got me it!â
Jeongins's lips pressed into a thin line as he sighed. He patted Seungmin's shoulder. âGood for you bro. It's very cute.â
From the other side of the room, Hyunjin burst out laughing. He collapsed into the mirrored wall behind him and banged his head against the glass; it only made him shriek with more laughter, his hands clapping together once as his hair flew into his eyes.
Chan looked up and shook his head. There was a tender look on his face as he watched Seungmin shoot across the room, showing each one of the members the newest addition to his Sanrio collection.
âWhat has she done to him?â Jisung asked loudly as he sat down beside Chan on the floor. He cracked open a bottle of water and missed his mouth completely In his eagerness to get the beverage down him; it splashed over his front and spilled onto the floor, and he smiled guilty at Chan who sighed laboriously.
âI have no idea,â Chris said as he mopped the water up with a crumpled napkin from his pocket. âBut I'll have to thank her some time ⊠I've never seen Seungmin this happy, like ⊠ever. It's adorable.â
âIt's weird,â Jisung said. His entire face exploded into one of amusement as he watched Seungmin launch himself onto an unassuming Minho.
âI don't care!â Minho yelled in annoyance as he stormed away from Seungmin.
Seungmin grinned devilishly and dashed after Minho with his hand outstretched, his keychain dangling from his fingers.
âWow,â Chan chuckled as he watched the scene unfold. âNow that's definitely something.â
From an inconspicuous corner, Jeongin was whispering in hushed tones into his phone.
âY/N! Can you stop buying Seungmin plushies?â Jeongin hissed. His eyes were wide as he surveyed the chaos brewing in the room; Seungmin was chasing everyone around with a manic glint in his eyes, his mouth open with a happy grin and the Snuffy plush wiggling around in his hand.
Y/N giggled over the phone. âWhat? Why?â
âHe won't shut up about Snuffy!â Jeongin whined. âWe've barely finished practice and he's shoving it in all our faces ⊠I am tired, Y/N.â
âReally? He barely reacted to it when I gave it to him yesterday,â Y/N said.
Jeongin wrinkled his nose. âHe tries to act cool in front of you. Wait a minute ⊠I'm going to send you a video.â
â*â*
âSo ⊠you really like the keychain, huh?â Y/N asked nonchalantly once she was cuddled up on the sofa with Seungmin.
The ghost of a smile passed over Seungmin's lips. âIt's okay.â
âReally? Is this how someone acts when things are just âokayâ?â
Y/N held out her phone to him; Seungmin's eyes widened and the entirety of his face and neck flushed the colour of beetroot as he saw himself running around the practice room like a headless chicken. His mouth fell open and he tried to reach for Y/N's phone; but she pulled it away and burst into a fit of giggles at the shyness creeping over him.
âYou're so cute,â Y/N grinned. She tossed her phone to the side and threw her arms around Seungmin who had now closed the hood of his hoodie around his face. Only his nose was visible and Y/N kissed it as she squeezed him tightly.
âWho sent the video?â Seungmin's voice was muffled.
Y/N smiled. âNot telling.â
âThat's not fair,â Seungmin grumbled. âWho's side are you on? Mine or his?â
âHis,â Y/N said. âBecause he sends me cute videos of the cutest man in the whole world.â
Seungmin pushed his hood back and stared at Y/N.
She smiled back cheekily. âOh, wait. Cutest dog in the whole world.â
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I need someone to tell me they mega love me like Minho does đđŒđ§đ»ââïž
SUMMARY: minho loves you: to him, itâs as clear as water. Its only after he finds out that youâre starting to doubt itâhe needs you to know just how much.
REQUESTED! here by an anonnie. I hope you like it, pookie, âcause I had fun doing this! <3
CW: slight hurt/comfort if you squint, but itâs just fluffy fluffy lino being really down bad and not knowing how to grasp it tbh which just gives me my serotonin dosis for the rest of the month lol
WC: 1.2k
A/N: also omfg kats posting two requests on the same day? thatâs right baby, look at me go! đ€©đ€©đ€©
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Minho was not the type to show his affection.
He comes off more like a shy kitten that slowly gets used to you, your sweet smell and how soft your touch feels, and then slowly opens up.
âBut, uh⊠can I be real with you for a sec?â
Itâs a feminine voice with a strong accent. He can hear it comming from your room, and the slight glitchiness of it makes it obvious that itâs a phone call set on speaker.
âSure.â He can almost see you shrug, but he just closes the main door as soft as he can, pleading for the cats to stay silent for a little bit longer.
Minho canât exactly place together why heâs overhearing your phone call. He knows who youâre calling, he can recognize Chanâs sister by her tone. But still, he keeps quiet, gently placing his bag down and silently taking his shoes off.
âI justâ and donât get me wrong, but, your boyfriend kinda seems⊠bored of you.â
What? Minho has to hold back a scoff, remaining as still as a statue next to the front door. Heâs waiting for you to deny it.
âYou think so?â
And then, he frowns, because you didnât. Instead, your tone sounded hesitant. Dubious.
As if you werenât sure if Minho loved you.
âYou say he keeps cancelling your plans together. He has stopped making time for you. Like, girl, you canât remember when was the last time he told you he loved you.â
Hannah pauses, and that only makes it worse, because it lets every word sink in.
âI uh, well. I ainât gonna say that he should throw flowers at you every single second, but, uh, you know.â
He can only hear you groan loudly, almost picturing that cute motion you usually did when he meaningly teased you, taking your hair and covering your face with it.
âCanât say anything for sure with him,â Hannah adds. âBut, just by what youâre sayingâŠâ
Minhoâs heart clenches tightly in his chest. He doesnât want to keep hearing this... this nonsense. God, he loves you. And you⊠canât see it? Frowning, he starts walking to your room, but his movements end in a halt, his hand just above the doorknob, threatening to grasp it and fully open the door.
âGirl, itâs gotta be late down there. Sorry this whole call was about me.â Your chuckle comes off slightly dry. âIâll talk to you later, âkay? Go get some good sleep.â Your tone just screams how bad youâre feeling, and it just makes his chest swell with guilt that slowly creeps up his body.
Maybe he had been taking you for granted?
He opens the door as soon as you press the red button, sighing loudly after ending the call. When you see him, you jump in your place, startled by his presence, and you stand up awkwardly.
âMinho!â You say in a squirm. He canât help but cringe slightly.
âNo.â His tone sounds childish, like a petty toddler who didnât want to eat the carrots in their lunch.
You frown slowly, the slightly wary grimace melting on your face, allowing a soft confusion to step in.
âNo what?â You mutter.
He walks to you slowly, and grabs your hand, taking it to his chest, pressing it flat against his clothed skin, over his heart. You can feel his heartbeat, a not-too-slow rhythm: thump, thump, thump.
âCall me by a pet name. Any pet name.â He says, his tone equally firm and soft. âCall me by a pet name and say you love me.â
Heâs serious, but god, so fucking nervous. His brain is slowly melting away because heâs so bad with words and he isnât sure any action could be enough. Heâs already blushing.
âI, huh⊠I love you, jagi.â You mumble, still confused.
And even if you donât say it as fondly as always, or if your smile isnât beaming like how it usually did, you can feel his heartbeat quickening.
âYou can feel it, right?â His eyes are soft and worried.
Oh, God. You just know youâve gotta be pouting. Itâs hard to react with words, and the only thing you can fathom doing is linking your arms behind his nape and sinking your face on the crook of his neck.
âMin, Iâm so sorry.â
âN-no, kitten.â He mumbles, hugging you tightly too. âI am the one whoâs sorry.â
He breathes in, drowning in your soft fragrance. Home. Itâs you, itâs warm, and he loves it.
He loves you.
So, he says it. He has to say it. He canât not say it.
âI love you.â
And it feels so good to let it out that he chuckles. He has to say it again. âI love you.â And again. âGod, I love you.â Just once more. âI love you so much.â Heâs giggling like a fool, but heâs a fool in love, and that makes him blush even more. âI canât not love you. Not loving you would turn everyday into Mondays. Like, I can get it tattoed if you want me to. I just. I love you so much that âI love youâ canât evenâ.â
You move from his shoulder, now facing him, and you cradle his face, pulling him in a kiss thatâs so sweet that threatens to give both of you type 1 diabetes.
âY-youâre crying.â Minho mumbles, softly brushing the stray tears away with his thumb.
âItâs your fault, silly.â You sniff, giggling too. âHow can you say stuff like that?â
Your heart is beating like crazy, the butterflies in your stomach are multiplying by seconds and in your cheeks glistens a bright and deep shade of pink.
You want to say it too. But in his own way.
So, you take his hand and settle it on your chest. Right above your heart.
Itâs a rapid thump thump thump that Minho feels right away. He canât help but smile widely.
âI super-mega-love you.â He teases, picking you up in between his arms.
Youâre laughing, squirming in his hold.
âLee Minho! Put me down!â
But he just grips your body tighter to his, and walking as if you weighted nothing, heading towards your bed, plopping you down there.
âGood girl.â He snickers, and you blush even further. Minho takes your chin tenderly and pecks your lips. For a moment, certain kind of idea flashes through his head, but he just kissed you again, following his previous thought.
He opens your closet with a toothy grin, and halfly eyes the window before picking up a random shirt, a grey hoodie that used to be his, a dark skirt and your thigh-high socks, going as far as to the suspenders for you.
He then turns to face you, his eyes glowing. He canât wait to see you all dolled up. Minho feels like a teenager, and he loves it.
âYou have twenty minutes.â
You blink at him, and you canât help but smile, confused.
âIâm taking your cute ass to a date.â
It may not be an instant fix to the struggles to your relationship, but as you two walk down the beach, looking for colourful rocks that match each otherâs eye colour, you know that heâs worth fighting for.
Regarding Minho, he happily hums to himself, eyes glued to your figure as you cackle and run in the beach, as you look behind you and giggle at the prints your boots leave in the humid sand.
He smiles, running towards you, tackling you and holding you in his arms.
Heâs not letting go anytime soon.
~Kats, who always struggles to choose a picture for the fics because istg lino looks good in every single moment!!
Pretty Dwakkeiâ€ïžâ€ïž
my favorite binnie looks (257/â)
My life has now evolved I literally feel like a PokĂ©mon after seeing thisđ WHY IS THIS SO SHOCKING HAJANDNF
dancing through our house
hyunjin x fem!reader
hyunjin comes home earlier and decides to plan a nice dinner, it doesnât go as planned but it all works out in the end.
genre: established relationship, she pronouns
note: i cried while writing this
the smell of burning was apparent from the moment sheâd walked into the apartment. quickly kicking off her shoes, to find out where the smell was from. hyunjin must have forgotten to turn something off before leaving for practice. nothing was smoking but poor hyunjin was spotted on his hands and knees on the kitchen floor scrubbing his heart away.
âhyun?â he turned his head over his shoulder, scurrying to his feet and standing in a greeting way.
he brushed off his nice suit and placed his hands in front of him while straightening his back.
âi didnât think youâd be home so earlier.â he looked behind him. moving quickly around the kitchen once again collecting things that had been left about.
it was a mess; dishes filling the sink, hyunjins dirty clothes tossed to the side of the washing basket, some burnt meal ontop of the stove and the split substance hyunjin had been violently trying to get off the marble flooring. he reached on the counter top handing her a rose while his arms were full of the now useless cutlery.
âwhatâs this?â she asked taking the flower. hyunjin dropped the tools into the sink with the rest. she watched noticing the sauce smeared all over the arm of his nice new suit.
âoh for fuck sake.â hyunjin huffed taking a paper towel and tried to dab it away but it had already starting setting in.
she reached for the tissue to help him. âjin calm down.â she laughed.
âim sorry, i just wanted to do something nice. but the food i got burnt because i thought it said 2 hours but it said 20 minutes. and the stupid stupid sauce got all over your new floor,â he pointed down were she took a step back to avoid standing in the bubbly red stain. âand im sweaty and tired now and you came home before i could reshower or finish-â he stopped when she reached up and softly kissed his cheek.
âyouâre so cute.â
âwhat?â
âyou think this impresses me?â hyunjin blinked in confusion at her.
she laughed placing the tissue down and reaching up to his neck. âjinnie when have you ever seen me eat fancy chicken?â she gestured to the burnt mess over her shoulder. âor drink expensive champagne?â he looked over to the other side of the kitchen where the bottle of champagne had been popped but split all over the counter. âso you donât like the suit?â
âthe suit is gorgeous.â she ran her hands over his neck down to his chest. âbut you face is telling me it doesnât feel as pretty as it looks.â
âoh thank god.â he pulled his jacket off in one movement and unbuttoned the top few buttons of his dress shirt.
âerm careful that looks expensive!â
âitâs fine itâs versace. theyâll send me a new one next week.â
she laughed as hyunjin dramatically sighed swaying his arms around to cool down.
âyou know what does impress me?â he titled his head to the side.
âyour cute little face.â she squished his cheeks in which he grabbed her hands and dodged her from doing it again. âbut seriously hyun never think youâre cooking again.â she deadpanned.
âactually i think i have something you may like..â she looked at hyunjins mischievous smile as he moved into the living making sure she followed behind him.
the room looked normal which confused her. hyunjin walked up to the couch grabbing the remote and turning it back on. it had been playing some playlist on spotify, one he had created. âyou made a playlist?â
âfor us.â he smiled dropping the controller back onto the seat before moving closer to her once again.
âseriously?â she looked at all the classic love songs heâd added from his favourite films and songs they had built special connections with.
she didnât believe it. out of all the things heâd planned for tonight, this had to be the most romantic thing. a stupid spotify playlist.
âcan i have this dance mâlady?â he propped his hand out waiting for her to take it.
ânever call me that again.â she laughed taking it as he wrapped his arm around her waist and pulled her closer. âokay love.â
her other hand landed back onto his broad shoulder shoulder stroking up and down. some cheesy love song playing as he starting guiding her around the room.
he was a professional dancer of course he was going to be flawless with ball dancing, even in a sweat fill suit. he moved her around letting go of her hip as he attempted to spin her without getting tangled together. she could no longer smell the burning from the kitchen, or feel the sticky residue on hyunjins suit just him. she could only see him, feel him. just the purple haired man in front her focusing on not muddling up his feet under pressure.
âyou know, youâre a pretty romantic man.â she sighed as the song came to a finish and another started to play.
hyunjin didnât let her go in fact pulling her closer so there faces were close enough to touch. âreally?â
she hummed looking up at his beautiful. âi really love you.â
âwhat?â
hyunjin looked mortified as he realised the words that had slipped out his mouth. she smiled big leaning up to his kiss his lips lightly. âyouâre so cute.â
âare you not going to say it back?â he pouted and she groaned.
âi love you too hyunjin.â
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My changbin phase was never actually a phase
oh remembwr when changbin said when he angry all it takes is physical touch or any act of affection for him to turn into putty and how he said hannie instead of being th wfirat to apologise or something just waits with open arms and breaks down when the other person comes to him first WELL IMAGINE A FIC THAT INCORPORATES EITHER OF THESE WITH A LITTLE ANGST WITH HAPPY ENDING WITH READERđ«ą
thank u anon, i will also do the jisung one, so keep an eye out!
pairing: seo changbin x fem!reader
tags: angst, miscommunication? a little suggestive at the end, like one swear word, good ending dw, other member makes an appearance
requested: yes!
wc: 1,130
Changbin is known for his short temper, thatâs just a fact. Heâs easily antagonised, resulting in some hilarious, unexpected, or very occasionally scary outbursts. He is quick to jump up or shout, and hard to calm down. Not many people have mastered the art of lion taming, but you? Youâve somehow perfected it. It wasnât a conscious thing you did, but it seems you have some unseen power over him.
Your power was discovered by chance in the JYP dance studio. You had been invited along by your wonderful boyfriend who clearly just wanted to show off, knowing this you agreed anyway. Youâd be a hypocrite not to indulge him a little bit, right?
During a 5-minute water break, a conversation had started up about shoes. Particularly, platforms. Now, everyone knows that Stray Kids arenât exactly the tallest, your boyfriend being the shortest of them all, so you could already feel him become tense from his place next to you on the leather sofa.Â
âI donât like them, they make me feel like my proportions are wrong,â Minho says from his place on the floor, flat on his back, limbs spread.
âI like them, our team needs them.â Felix contributes, resulting in a few laughs.
âChangbin maybe, Iâd say the rest of us are fine.â Minho raises his head, smirking at Changbin.
âHey! Youâre not that much taller!â
âYeah? Stand up.â Minho doesnât move. Changbin takes the challenge, sputtering, and stands up. He goes to walk towards Minho who is still starfished, but you grab his hand.
âSit down, Bin.â You chuckle. He stops in his tracks and plops down next to you immediately, holding your hand properly.
âDid you see that?â Hyunjin says, throwing his head back laughing.
âYeah,â Jeongin speaks up. âY/n has some serious powers.â
This results in some laughter around the room while Changbin looks at you, eyes creased with an open grin.
âHow am I supposed to say no?â He chuckles, and takes your hand in both of his, squeezing it gently.
Your powers also work in more serious instances. Like the time Changbin thought you were cheating on him, accosting you the moment he got home from the studio.
âY/n, you have some explaining to do,â he said, entering your shared living room where you had been sitting, peacefully reading.
âWhat?â you blinked up at him.
âDonât play with me, Iâm not stupid.â
âBin, I have no idea what youâre talking about.â
âSure you donât, of course, you donât.â He rolls his eyes, crossing his arms. If you werenât so confused, youâd be ogling his arms in the tight black t-shirt heâs wearing.
âI really donât. Can you tell me what Iâve apparently done?â You put your phone down next to you on the sofa.
âYou know, if you wanted to break up with me, you shouldâve just said something.â That shocked you into closing your mouth.Â
âIf you wanted to see other people, I wouldnât stop you. Well, I would, Iâd definitely try but if you really wanted to break up I couldnât stop you. Iâd be pissed though because I love you so much and I thought our relationship was practically perfect. And weâre usually so good at communicating so Iâm upset that you couldnât just tell me whatâs wrong, or what happened for you to have a change of heart. But seriously, a fucking soft launch on your insta? Thatâs just shitty.â
Soft launch? Insta? Oh.
You stand up, keeping a relaxed posture and facial expression.
âSo are you going to leave? Because if you are, I want my hoodies back, especially the navy one, itâs my favourite one.â Heâs slowly getting louder.
Honestly, heâs kind of cute when heâs ranting. You stifle a laugh, taking a step into his space.
âOh, so youâre laughing at me now? Oh, yes! Letâs laugh at Changbin! Ha! Ha! Ha! So fun-âÂ
You cut him off by grabbing the sides of his face and pulling him in for a kiss. His mouth doesnât really react but his hands do instinctively come to your sides.Â
âSorry, I had to get you to shut up.â You pull back, meeting a very emotionally conflicted Changbin.
âBin. First of all, Iâm not leaving you. Second of all, I didnât soft launch. That was my cousin. He joined me and my aunt for lunch because he is in town at the minute. And lastly, you are so cute when youâre jealous.â
You get a front-row seat to the cogs turning in his head. You watch as his eyes widen and his face flushes a bright shade of red. You throw your head back laughing, still holding the sides of his head. The hands holding you have tightened their grip now, and heâs ducking his head down to hide in your neck.
âI am so sorry. I should be ashamed. Actually.â He cuts himself off and falls to his knees in front of you, arms unwrapping from around you to clasp them together as if he were praying.
âPlease forgive me, Iâm so sorry. A thousand times over. Hey, stop laughing, Iâm trying to apologise. I should never have assumed anything,â he says. You catch your breath and look down at him, instantly bringing a hand to run through his hair. His hands return to you, pulling you into him, and he buries his face in your stomach, mumbling more apologies.
âChangbin, please, look at me.â You use your leverage on his hair to force him to look up. He looks up at you with big eyes.
âGet up.â You giggle. He immediately stands.Â
âItâs okay, I can understand why you thought that, but you are also super dumb for even thinking that Iâd do that in the first place. Why would I ever leave you?â
âI donât know,â he mumbles, shrugging.
âExactly, I have no intention to ever leave my wonderful, adorable, handsome-â
âSexy.â
âUh-huh, sexy, smart, kind, and sometimes jealous boyfriend.â You smile up at him, putting your hands on his shoulders. He ducks his head into your neck once more.
âI really am sorry, you know.âÂ
âI know you are.âÂ
You feel his arms tighten around you in a strong hug and the two of you stay there for a few seconds as he sways the two of you gently.
âOkay, grovelling over,â he says suddenly standing up straight, dazing you slightly. He suddenly grabs you, easily throwing you over his shoulder.
âWhat are you doing?â You nearly shout as he begins to move.
âMaking it up to my wonderful, understanding, sexy girlfriend! Unless she has any complaints with the proposition?â he replies, and thatâs when you realise youâre headed in the direction of the bedroom, and you throw your head back laughing again.
âNo complaints here!â
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Hyunjin in a suit>>
dancing through our house
hyunjin x fem!reader
hyunjin comes home earlier and decides to plan a nice dinner, it doesnât go as planned but it all works out in the end.
genre: established relationship, she pronouns
note: i cried while writing this
the smell of burning was apparent from the moment sheâd walked into the apartment. quickly kicking off her shoes, to find out where the smell was from. hyunjin must have forgotten to turn something off before leaving for practice. nothing was smoking but poor hyunjin was spotted on his hands and knees on the kitchen floor scrubbing his heart away.
âhyun?â he turned his head over his shoulder, scurrying to his feet and standing in a greeting way.
he brushed off his nice suit and placed his hands in front of him while straightening his back.
âi didnât think youâd be home so earlier.â he looked behind him. moving quickly around the kitchen once again collecting things that had been left about.
it was a mess; dishes filling the sink, hyunjins dirty clothes tossed to the side of the washing basket, some burnt meal ontop of the stove and the split substance hyunjin had been violently trying to get off the marble flooring. he reached on the counter top handing her a rose while his arms were full of the now useless cutlery.
âwhatâs this?â she asked taking the flower. hyunjin dropped the tools into the sink with the rest. she watched noticing the sauce smeared all over the arm of his nice new suit.
âoh for fuck sake.â hyunjin huffed taking a paper towel and tried to dab it away but it had already starting setting in.
she reached for the tissue to help him. âjin calm down.â she laughed.
âim sorry, i just wanted to do something nice. but the food i got burnt because i thought it said 2 hours but it said 20 minutes. and the stupid stupid sauce got all over your new floor,â he pointed down were she took a step back to avoid standing in the bubbly red stain. âand im sweaty and tired now and you came home before i could reshower or finish-â he stopped when she reached up and softly kissed his cheek.
âyouâre so cute.â
âwhat?â
âyou think this impresses me?â hyunjin blinked in confusion at her.
she laughed placing the tissue down and reaching up to his neck. âjinnie when have you ever seen me eat fancy chicken?â she gestured to the burnt mess over her shoulder. âor drink expensive champagne?â he looked over to the other side of the kitchen where the bottle of champagne had been popped but split all over the counter. âso you donât like the suit?â
âthe suit is gorgeous.â she ran her hands over his neck down to his chest. âbut you face is telling me it doesnât feel as pretty as it looks.â
âoh thank god.â he pulled his jacket off in one movement and unbuttoned the top few buttons of his dress shirt.
âerm careful that looks expensive!â
âitâs fine itâs versace. theyâll send me a new one next week.â
she laughed as hyunjin dramatically sighed swaying his arms around to cool down.
âyou know what does impress me?â he titled his head to the side.
âyour cute little face.â she squished his cheeks in which he grabbed her hands and dodged her from doing it again. âbut seriously hyun never think youâre cooking again.â she deadpanned.
âactually i think i have something you may like..â she looked at hyunjins mischievous smile as he moved into the living making sure she followed behind him.
the room looked normal which confused her. hyunjin walked up to the couch grabbing the remote and turning it back on. it had been playing some playlist on spotify, one he had created. âyou made a playlist?â
âfor us.â he smiled dropping the controller back onto the seat before moving closer to her once again.
âseriously?â she looked at all the classic love songs heâd added from his favourite films and songs they had built special connections with.
she didnât believe it. out of all the things heâd planned for tonight, this had to be the most romantic thing. a stupid spotify playlist.
âcan i have this dance mâlady?â he propped his hand out waiting for her to take it.
ânever call me that again.â she laughed taking it as he wrapped his arm around her waist and pulled her closer. âokay love.â
her other hand landed back onto his broad shoulder shoulder stroking up and down. some cheesy love song playing as he starting guiding her around the room.
he was a professional dancer of course he was going to be flawless with ball dancing, even in a sweat fill suit. he moved her around letting go of her hip as he attempted to spin her without getting tangled together. she could no longer smell the burning from the kitchen, or feel the sticky residue on hyunjins suit just him. she could only see him, feel him. just the purple haired man in front her focusing on not muddling up his feet under pressure.
âyou know, youâre a pretty romantic man.â she sighed as the song came to a finish and another started to play.
hyunjin didnât let her go in fact pulling her closer so there faces were close enough to touch. âreally?â
she hummed looking up at his beautiful. âi really love you.â
âwhat?â
hyunjin looked mortified as he realised the words that had slipped out his mouth. she smiled big leaning up to his kiss his lips lightly. âyouâre so cute.â
âare you not going to say it back?â he pouted and she groaned.
âi love you too hyunjin.â
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If my future doesnât have a Bang Chan In it, change it please đđŒ
pairing â idolbf!bangchan x f!reader
word count â drabble âŒ900 words
warnings â she/her reader, fluff!!
summary â In a surprise visit to Bang Chan's studio, you accidentally appeared on his Instagram livestream. Bang Chan tries his best not show that you're there but obviously he's too whipped for you.
You scanned your keycard and unlocked the main door to JYP Entertainment. You made your way into the elevator as it hummed and moved upward. When the doors opened, you walked down the hallway, stopping at Bang Chan's studio.
Right after you knocked, the door swung open, revealing Bang Chan's surprised expression. He immediately gestured towards the camera, telling you he was doing an Instagram livestream. It was clear that you had caught him off guard, unintentionally making an appearance.
As Bang Chan regained his composure, he sat back down and quickly addressed the online audience, "Hey everyone, it was just Changbin popping in for a quick chat." A playful and knowing smile accompanied his words, aimed at reassuring his fans.
Silently, you moved towards a seat beside Bang Chan's desk, carefully choosing a spot that remained out of view from the camera. Chan subtly shifted his chair forward, edging closer to the desk as you exchanged a rapid glance. He slipped his hand discreetly under the table, extending his arm to rest his hand on your leg.
As Bang Chan continued engaging with the fans during the livestream, he occasionally turned his gaze towards you, allowing it to linger for a few moments. A warm, genuine smile accompanied this glance.
You joined the livestream to witness the interaction from the fans' perspective and look at comments. Looking at them made your eyes light up. Some were quick to notice Bang Chan's glances and smiles.
"He keeps looking off to the side. Who's there?""Is there someone with Bang Chan?""Bang Chan, is there a surprise guest with you today?""The way he smiles and looks to the side... there's definitely something going on"
It was clear that the audience was observant and deeply invested in Bang Chan's livestream. Meanwhile, Bang Chan thought he maintained the mystery.
Your eyes flickered up to Bang Chan, who looked back at you confused, likely because you seemed nervous. You gave him a reminder for him to be discreet and not draw attention to you.Â
"Stop being so obvious" you mouthed silently.
He couldn't get the message, so he leaned forward, asking with a loud "Huh?" which made you facepalm at his stupidity. Meanwhile, Bang Chan, realizing what he had done, jumped in shock at his loud response.
"The staff is being silly," Bang Chan chuckled, quickly coming up with a cover to explain what had happened. He hoped that his laughter reassured the fans that everything was under control and that it was just a playful misunderstanding.
To avoid any more mistakes, Bang Chan pretended to check the time. "I think we'll wrap up for today," he announced with a friendly tone. "It was nice having an evening live with you guys! Bye bye!" He clicked his phone and ended the livestream, giving the Stays a cheerful send-off.
Bang Chan quickly shifted his attention towards you and buried his face in your lap, pretending to cry and yelled, "I'm so stupid." while he rubbed his face into your legs.
"You really are!" you laughed and ruffled his curly hair. "Next time you're doing this, let me know so I don't accidentally interrupt. I checked the comments and did you have any clue that they were suspecting something?"
Bang Chan looked up with his mouth wide open and responded, "I had a feeling they would've be curious, but I didn't expect it to become a game of 'guess who' during the livestream!" He wrapped his arms around you, showing a pout. "I'm so going to get fired," he exaggerated.
You chuckled and reassured him, "You're fine, Chan. You handled it like a pro"
"Did I, though?" He lifted an eyebrow, and you looked away from him.
"Yes, now let's go home. Get your stuff ready," you said to change the subject.
As you spoke, Bang Chan sat up, still wearing a mock expression of distress. "Fine, fine," he sighed dramatically, standing up and collecting his things. "But you owe me for saving the day!"
You both exited the studio, making your way through the hallway and back towards the elevator. Bang Chan continued to playfully grumble about the unexpected turn of events, but there was a lightness in his demeanor, and it was clear he found the whole situation amusing.
As you waited for the elevator, Bang Chan leaned in and whispered, "You know, I could get used to surprise visits during livestreams. It adds a bit of excitement, don't you think?"
You chuckled and shook your head, "Let's not make a habit out of it. We don't want fans thinking about it every time you go live."
The elevator doors opened, and you stepped inside. Bang Chan pressed the button for the ground floor, and as the doors closed, he grinned. "Fair enough. But it was kind of fun, wasn't it?"
"So now, you think it was fun. What happened to getting fired?" you replied, playfully which made him zip his mouth.
The elevator descended, and you soon found yourselves back in the lobby of JYP Entertainment. You exchanged goodbyes with a wave to the security staff, and you stepped out onto the bustling streets of Seoul. You found your car and went into a driver's seat. Chan hopped in as you turned on the engine.Â
Chan wrapped his arms around you, pulling you close. "Home, sweet home!" he exclaimed as you chuckled and drove away from JYP Entertainment.
I need a Minho in my life, no questions askedđ
pairing: minho x reader genre/warnings: established relationship, kinda fluffy, kinda angsty idek, hurt/comfort; unedited and self-indulgent as hell !! word count: 0.4k listen to đ§: hold my girl - george ezra
as always, iâd appreciate any thoughts or comments you may have, and please drop a like and/or reblog if you enjoy reading âĄ
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sometimes, it's crazy just how in tune minho is with you, how he can sense that something's wrong before you even have to say it.
he knows all of your signs - smiles that don't quite reach your eyes; soft, barely audible sighs instead of frustrated ones like when you're angry; talking about insignificant things throughout dinner with a distinct lack of energy just for the sake of holding a conversation and not letting your home fall into a state of depressing silence. an overall aloofness that can't simply be blamed on exhaustion.
when you're upset, you shut down.
minho doesn't need you to justify your defense mechanism, doesn't try to coax you out of your shell because he's the same way. when something is eating away at him, he detaches himself from the world too.
in those instances, the last thing he wants is for someone else to offer unhelpful advice when no one but him knows what's going through his mind.
there are some things that you just have to process on your own, some motions you have go through by yourself.
minho can only be by your side while you deal with your inner turmoil. hold your hand and give you a shoulder to lean on, whatever you need until you're ready to come back to him again.
that's what he does this time too. he doesn't ask you any questions; he just puts on the kettle and lights your favorite vanilla and magnolia candle. makes you steaming mug of tea and peels some oranges, arranging the slices neatly on a plate afterward. then he sits on the couch next to you, a random movie playing on the tv that no one's really watching.
at some point, you move closer to tuck yourself under his arm. minho instantly pulls you to rest against his body, a hand on your shoulder giving you comforting squeezes over your sweatshirt.
just the two of you, the willingness to be there for the other especially when it's hard, and the occasional meows reverberating from somewhere nearby.
when he thinks you might've fallen asleep just like that, you start sniffling. the ache that minho feels in his chest is almost immediate.
even then, all he says is, "i'm here."
you meekly nod in acknowledgment as you continue to cry, painful sobs making you fist the material of his shirt in your hands.
he knows that you'll talk when you want to, when you're ready. he gets that in this moment, you just don't have the capacity to articulate your thoughts and explain your feelings in a way that other people could understand.
so he simply presses a kiss to your forehead and hugs you a little closer. he sits with you until it passes. he loves you enough to wait for you, to hold you through all of the lowest lows.
"i'm here. i love you. i'm right here."
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You guys think Chan is small enough to fit in my pocket?đ
YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME â„ bang chan
â„ summary: you were glad for the early hours where you had chan all to yourself
â„ pairing: bang chan x gn!reader
â„ genre: fluff. idol!au.
â„ warnings: established relationship. really mushy. set in a coffee shop but it's not really mentioned at all. kisses. cuddling at the end. lmk if i missed anything.
â„ word count: 617
â„ a/n: i love channie so so much. bang chan the man you are. comments and reblogs are appreciated. (dividers by @/cafekitsune)
you swore your eyes had long turned into hearts as you watched chan. his hand was busy writing down lyrics, before pausing and scratching them out. you, however, were admiring the unique way the sun caught on his jawline. your eyes drifted to his hand, the scribbling of the pen becoming white noise as you traced the prominent veins. your gaze went up to the lines of his nose and cheekbones. the soft, but strong structures and skin were shadowed delicately in the morning sun.
he always looked so soft to you, it was something you couldnât quite place your finger on. whatever it was, he just embodied the feeling of home and constant warmth. a feeling of comfort you craved throughout the day. you found yourself melting into his reassuring presence, curling itself around you soothingly. it got to the point where you could tell how he was feeling just from the sheer amount of time youâd spent watching him, studying those pretty brown eyes of his.
you laughed yourself from your idle daydreaming when the sound of pen on paper stopped, the clinking of the metal pen hitting the wooden table letting you know he was taking a break. he darted his eyes up to your own when he heard the noise, and he felt himself grow bashful when he saw you were already looking at him. you held your head in your hand, smile soft and warm. your eyes were so fond, it was hard for him to believe it was all for him.
you tilted your head, moonstruck with the way he glowed in the morning sun. âwhat?â he questioned, quietly as if not to break the quiet bubble surrounding you both. you could only watch in awe as his eyes sparkled, like the brightest night sky. his lips parted, a whole-hearted smile tugging at the plushness when you answered him.
âi just wanted to let you know that i love you.â
you said it so easily, so genuinely, it made his chest hurt. it rang from your lips like the sweetest bells. you smiled at his shy laugh, only hoping he knew that youâd bet your whole life away just to tell him how much he shined. for just a chance to tell him how clear he made your skies. he hoped you knew that no matter how many times you said those three simple words, it would always mean the world to him. it would always light the fire within him anew.
you reached out for his hand, bringing it to your lips. you placed small kisses, delicate little things, on each knuckle. his cheeks bloomed with pinks, his other hand coming up to cover his mouth. he suppressed a squeak when you turned his hand over to press a kiss to his palm. if he were a cartoon, heâd have little hearts floating around him, he was sure. he felt like he was on fire, love wasnât enough to describe the emotion festering within his heart.
he pulled his hand away from his mouth, letting a full smile stretch his lips again. he pulled you closer, leaning his head on your shoulder, grinning somehow wider when you rested your head on his. his notebook lay forgotten for now, as chan chose to bask in this tender moment with you. it was one of the few he had left, he didnât have much time left with you with the tour coming up. so instead of worrying about work, he pressed a kiss to your shoulder.
âyou mean the world to me.â he whispered, and you smiled brightly in the corner booth you were huddled together in. yes, he loved you too.
jjunbug 2024. do not rewrite, repost, modify, or translate.
I need a Hanji in my life đđ
love collection
genre: hurt? comfort?
pairing: fem!reader (infp) x idol!han jisung (intp)
warnings: descriptions of anxiety and of a panic attack
wc +2.6
notes: if this looks familiar, my secondary blog 'zerothreetwentyfive ' was deleted by tumblr (idk why) so i'm republishing everything here on my main blog. requested by @pcchacoseung
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sometimes, you wonder why you decided to work and be a university student at the same time, that is until you remember the money that goes into tuition fees and the fact that you needed to move out in order to attend school. you're privileged enough that your parents are able to help pay your tuition whilst you pay for your rent and the other necessities you need to live in the city but that doesn't lessen the amount of stress that plagues you on and off again throughout the semesters. especially at the end of the year when exams are creeping up on you, figuring out how to move your schedule around to accommodate studying, working and finding the time to take a breather and relax; the latter option is usually dropped from the equation.Â
when you aren't on campus or at work, you've locked yourself up in your room. sitting behind your desk and stuck to your laptop, your textbooks and notebooks sprawled and spread over the surface, multiple pens around the area. sometimes you lose all sense of time when you're so hyper-focused on the task at hand that you only get a couple hours of sleep before you rush to get ready for work. you're done work when the sun goes down and once you get home you're back behind your desk, working till the sun comes up. the routine only repeats whether you like it or not.Â
jisung has been pretty busy as well. behind-the-scenes work with writing, producing and directing songs that may or may not end up on the next album, attending schedules and practicing day in and day out. it's been a while since you've been able to see each other, the both of you exchanging a few texts here and there.
j.one<3: i miss you baby i wrote some lyrics today thinking about you
you: i miss you too :,) a lot, a lot a lot
j.one<3: how have you been love? school and all?
you: it's been good
whenever he asked how you were doing, you'd always tell him that things were going fine, that it's okay, that you've got everything under control; acting like everything is a hundred and ten percent fine and dandy and you aren't on the verge of a breakdown every couple of hours. you didn't want him to worry about you. you didn't want to add to jisung's own current struggles, not wanting to burden him with your own.
j.one<3: hmm ok love you know i'm here right whenever you need me
you: of course and i love you for that
j.one<3: i love you more you got this, i believe in you baby
after your short text conversations, you'd turn on 'do not disturb' mode and a little message would pop up on jisung's side that you've switched it on.
j's one and only has their notifications silenced
a little signal for both you and him to get back to work.Â
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j.one<;3: hey love i'm gonna be in the studio all day working you wanna come by and do your work here too?
and that's how you ended up sitting on the couch inside the studio. your laptop rests on your thighs, two browser windows opened up alongside each other on the screen with a notebook and pen sitting next to you. across the room, jisung sits at the recording desk in front of the computer with the program opened up on the screen, a headset over his ears and a notebook sitting in front of him, twiddling a pencil between his fingers.
although, the longer you're seated inside the studio, with your laptop displaying your calendar on one side and schedule on the other; showing off tasks that need to be finished today whilst the other side shows off the tasks and events coming up in the week.
the more you're convinced that you're going to have a mental breakdown with each passing minute.Â
you thought that maybe, just maybe, being in the same room as jisung would help as motivation, as comfort. having your person in the same room might hold you back from taking cover inside a hole, alone, curled up into a ball and ignoring the stresses life's currently throwing at you.Â
but instead, as the time passes you feel deep envy growing for your boyfriend who is seated at the recording desk. you find yourself envying the way jisung is twirling his pencil, bopping his head to whatever track is playing through the headset and the way he is able toâunlike youâfocus on the tasks at hand.
how were you supposed to focus on anything when your mind continues to relentlessly remind you of all the work that needs to be done today? that you'll wake up tomorrow, only to repeat the process of slaving to get the work done.
how could you even try to focus when that tightening sensation in your chest, the one that restricts your airflow, only gets worse as the time passes?
you couldn'tâyou can't and you hate it.
you absolutely hate how you feel right now.
how you're mentally and emotionally trying to calm yourself down. trying to talk yourself back onto the ground and out of your frantic mind to breathe.
your heart's racing, the pulse only picks up as the time passes. it beats so loudly you can't seem to hear anything other than your own heartbeat, your hearing completely zeroed in on it.Â
your chest not only feels heavy but it starts to hurt, a throbbing sensation begins to come and go. it's like there is someone sitting on your chest and no matter how hard you try to get them off, you just can't. the harder you struggle, the more you feel suffocated, as if the air inside this vast recording studio only occupied by you and jisung is being sucked out, the walls closing in on you.
that painful feeling of your breath caught in your throat only leads to your heart rate picking up double time, your body feels restless while your mind repeats the same shit over and over again. the angel on one shoulder tries to calm you down, telling you to take a breather, take a break but the devil on the other only talks over her. overpowering her completely, as she reminds you that you aren't deserving of a break or a breather right now; seeing as you haven't completed any significant amount of work since entering the studio.Â
unbeknownst to you, your body trembles as your hands come together in front of you, fingers fiddling and picking at the skin on the opposite hand.Â
y/n, you think to yourself, come on, pull on your big girl panties and get on with it.
you're distracted trying to calm yourself down.
trying to bring yourself back down to earth instead of currently being inside your own head, you feel like you've lost any semblance of control you once had. god, you hate this feeling, you absolutely loathe how your heart quickly palpitates beneath your heavy chest, gradually getting dizzy as your restlessness only builds. however, no matter how anxious you feel, your body is nailed to the couchâyou're frozen and unable to will yourself to get up on your feet.
it's like everything around you is speeding up and leaving you behind. they're leaving you behind in a state where your self-control slips away and causes your fear to grow tenfold.Â
you're scared. you're terrified that you won't come down from thisâ that you don't know how to come down from this, how to regulate everything inside you. the dread slowly sinks in as you slowly convince yourself that you will never be free from this state of overwhelming emotion that consumes you as the minutes pass.Â
jisung's hands move to adjust the headset, moving one cup away from his ear as the track has finished playing a moment ago. initially, he wanted to note something down in the notebook in front of him but the moment that one cup is off, he completely removes the headset and places it down in front of him on the desk. for a moment, he stills, listening to the room:
the echos of you clicking around on your laptop isn't heard.
this leads jisung to wonder if you've dozed off in the middle of working prompting him to spin around in the rolling chair, only to be met with you sitting on the couch wide awake.Â
when his brown eyes are laid on your figure, jisung's heart drops at the sight; you gnawing at your bottom lip, your chest trembling as it heaves, your whole face is flushed and your eyes are the slightest bit blown.Â
jisung immediately knows what's going on, he knows it all too well.
your boyfriend rushes to his feet and towards you, shutting your laptop and moving it on the couch beside you. slowly, jisung is kneeling in front of you as he gently encapsulates your hands in his.
he can feel the way your body trembles beneath his touch.
"y/n, baby, my love," jisung calls for you softly, his chocolate brown eyes sparkle as they gaze up at you, "you're okay, you're safe."
his eyes scan over your face, watching as your own slowly meet his. there's a dullness to your eyes, a sense of apprehension laced in your features as your thoughts plague your body and mind.
"hey, love," he smiles and lightly caresses your hands with the pad of his thumbs, "just keep your eyes on me, i'm here. i'm not going anywhere, okay? just focus on my voice, love."
you fight your own body to regain control, to regain the strength to regulate your own emotions. you've grit your teeth in an effort to stay focused on your boyfriend's voice.
"hey, hey⊠you're safe love. i'm gonna move beside you, okay baby?" he moves slowly to sit next to you on the couch, careful not to startle you with any quick or sudden movements.Â
one of his hands move to your cheek gently caressing you there as well. a feeling of delight washes through his body at the sight of you instinctively leaning into his touch.Â
"you're okay. i know it feels scary right now but you're going to be okay. you're going to get through this, yeah?"
the hand on your cheek moves to pat your hair down gently. jisung's gentle touch moves around your body as a physical reminder that you aren't alone and that he is here with you.Â
"just keep focusing on my voice."
jisung continues to look over you, observing your current state and identifying how else he could help.
"i'm proud of you, you know?" he says fondly, "i know things get hard and it's scary sometimes but you always find a way to get through it. you're always doing such an amazing job."
a deep, unstable breath leaves your lips.Â
"good girl! you're doing great. breathe, breathe with me okay?" he inhales deeply and you attempt to follow him. then he exhales, "...one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten."
your exhales are shaky, your control not totally regained as you're fighting to get yourself out of your own head. but you feel the tension slowly dissipating from your body.
"one more time with me. concentrate on your breathing, okay?" this time jisung shuts his eyes as he inhales, hearing you take in a breath as well, before letting the air out slowly, "one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten..."
jisung notices your previously blown-out eyes have softened, he then decides to move on another strategy to further help you anchor yourself back down into the present.
"that's my girl, i'm so proud of you," he pats your hair once again, "does my y/n need anything right now?"
your voice is incredibly hushed and strained when you squeak out the next two words, "hold me."
jisung scoots even closer to you. adjusting himself so one arm is around your shoulders, wanting to hold you close to him. his other arm moves your head to rest on his chest and he gives you a moment to adjust as he whispers reassurances that you're okay, that you're safe and that he's here.Â
your ear presses up against his clothing as his hand rests on your jaw, caressing your skin with his palm. the warmth radiating off of jisung's body has your body reacting the way it usually does, melting into him as a wave of comfort washes over you. another deep breath leaving your lips, still a bit shaky but an improvement nonetheless.Â
"what are three things you can hear right now?"
your eyes flutter close as you try your best to tune into your surroundings, trying to identify noises inside the quiet room.
you hum, "your heartbeat⊠the vent⊠your breathing."
"how 'bout three things you can smell?"
"your cologne⊠coffee⊠brownies."
"now, can you tell me three things you can see?"
your eyes open slowly with blinks as you adjust to the light before you scan around the room.
"recording desk⊠microphone⊠computer."
jisung's hand moves to wrap around your wrist, gradually lifting your hand up in the air in front of you both.
"wiggle your fingers for me," your fingers wiggle, "kick your leg up for me," you kick your leg up slowly, "roll your ankle around." you roll your ankle around, "good job my love, i'm so proud."
your arm moves to wrap around jisung's body, pulling yourself closer to him. a breath of relief leaves your lips at the sense of ease that comes with the action, how you're able to grip onto the fabric of his shirt and nuzzle your face further into his chest.
"inhale," he sucks in a breath and you follow suit, "exhale... one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten. do you need anything else, y/n baby?"
you shake your head, melting into his side as you feel your pulse and breathing regulate to a normal pace. you feel like your feet are back on solid ground, in control and in the centre of your mind instead of backed into a corner hiding away from it.
"i'm here," he coos, swaying your bodies back and forth, "you're not alone. never. i'm here. i'm right here with you."
when you shut your eyes, tears fall down your flushed cheeks-- tears that had welled up due to stress and overwhelming bursts of emotions you weren't able to control--but now they fall with a sense of relief.
"i love you," your voice is quiet, trembling the slightest bit, "thank you⊠thank you for being here. i love you so much."
jisung hushes you, his hands gently running up and down your back, "it's the least i can do. I'm always gonna be here, y/n, always."
you nod, your eyes still closed as you take a couple of moments to yourself in jisung's arms. this time you're trying your best to anchor yourself back down to earth by thinking of what you love, what relaxes you, reminding yourself of the light and the good.
you know this isn't going to be the last panic attack you're going to have but at least you know that you aren't alone, there's always someone willing to help. jisung continues to remind you of that, that he'll be there for you no matter what, in any way he possibly can. at the same time, jisung knows that you'd do the same for him as you've done it time and time again.Â
jisung has told you multiple times that he doesn't know how he'd function without you, feeling like he would be completely lost without you.Â
you are his heart.Â
meanwhile, jisung is your anchor.
in the middle of an uncontrollable storm, when the harsh waves rock the boat every which way, an anchor is vital to stay strong and controlled during such conditions. an anchor is a symbol of stability, a symbol of strength; a person you can rely on to support you to stay strong, to hold on even during the toughest of storms.
you found that person in jisung.
pairing â idol!jeongin x f!reader (From the Unveiling Love series!)
word count â 5k
warnings â she/her reader, argument, hurt/comfort, exes (?) 2 lovers, jeongin is kinda toxic in a way but only slightly, suggestive themes (making out), reader is drunk, mentions of alcohol and night clubs, unwanted advances towards reader (not from jeongin)
summary â you and jeongin broke up after many arguments about how secret your relationship was. when you find yourself alone and uncomfortable at a club, jeongin comes to your rescue.
Inside the dance practice room, the tension between you and Jeongin was palpable. The air crackled with unspoken words, each movement echoing the silent storm brewing between you.
Jeongin's frustration boiled over, his voice piercing through the air like a knife. "Why do you always have to push me like this?!" he screamed, his hands clenched into fists at his sides.
You shot back, your own voice rising to match his intensity. "I'm tired of pretending like we're just friends when we're not! I want us to be open about us, about what we have!"
His eyes flashed with anger as he stepped closer, his breath hot against your face. "You know why we can't do that! My career, my image, everything will be ruined if they find out about us!"
"I'm not asking you to shout it to the world or to all your fans, Jeongin! But can't you at least acknowledge us when we're with close friends? You won't even let me meet your own members," you pleaded, your voice tinged with hurt and frustration.
Jeongin's jaw clenched, his eyes flashing with defiance. "You know it's not that simple. Our group's dynamicâit's delicate."
"Well, what about me? What about how I feel?" you countered, feeling the tears prickle at the corners of your eyes. "I'm tired of knowing I'm not good enough to be shown off!"
Tears streamed down your cheeks, your heart aching. As he paced back and forth, his frustration palpable in the air.
When he finally spoke, his voice was still thick with anger, his words cutting through the air like shards of glass. "We can't do this anymore," he said, his tone final and resolute.
Your heart sank like a stone as his words echoed in the empty room. "What do you mean?" you whispered, your voice trembling with disbelief.
"Us. We're not meant to be together, not like this."
The pain in his words was like a physical blow, knocking the breath from your lungs as you struggled to comprehend what he was saying. "But⊠but I love you," you choked out, the words tasting bitter on your tongue.
He shook his head, "I'm sorry."
And with those final words, he turned and walked away, leaving you alone in the empty room, your heart shattered into a million irreparable pieces.
Jeongin knew he was going to finish work late that day. He was filming a music video which was specifically designed for a nighttime setting, which explained the extended working hours. As the filming progressed, each frame meticulously captured, Jeongin's anticipation grew for work to be over. When the time arrived, he eagerly checked his phone, expecting a text from you. However, to no surprise, he was still left with nothing. A furrow formed on his brow as frustration settled in.
He knew he shouldn't be doing this, yet he found himself yearning for your touch, your presence. After all, he had been the one to break things off, and it seemed unreasonable to expect you to reach out. He could still replay each word you said that night. All he wanted now was to hold you close, to reassure you that you were more than enough, that all he ever wanted to do was to protect you.
In the quiet moments of the night, he found himself grappling with the truth he had been avoiding: that despite his attempts to move on, he still loved you, still needed you in ways he couldn't admit even to himself.
He discreetly went to check your location, like he was committing a crime. To his surprise, he learned that you were currently at Hallyu, the most prestigious club in Gangnam favored by the wealthy, including his idol friends. Everyone knew that Hallyu held a reputation for discreet happenings, scandals, unspoken to the public. Whatever happens in Hallyu stays in Hallyu â or within the idols in general.
Going to Hallyu was a good way to unwind after a demanding comeback and promotional activities. Hallyu gets the busiest during the yearly break that most idols get, a time when companies are occupied with contract negotiations. This break becomes crucial for idols to rest, leaving the workload in the hands of their management departments.
What's interesting is that fans haven't realized that these are the only few weeks in the year with fewer comebacks, since everyone is on break. This trend usually happens around spring. During this time, new songs only come from smaller groups who are trying get noticed in the industry and earn revenue.
Jeongin ran a hand through his damp hair, his brows knit in concern. The unusual sight of you at Hallyu without him triggered a sense of worry. You had never ventured there without his company, and considering the strict entry policies, it puzzled him. The bouncers typically ensured you entered only in the presence of someone who was at least a little famous.
His mind raced through various scenariosâwas there someone else with you? Perhaps an idol, an actor, or an obnoxiously rich man? He thought about it for a while. Surely you werenât that poor yourself. Your family was fairly wealthy and your well-paying job provided a comfortable life for you. Yet, the thought of you gaining entry to Hallyu alone or with your everyday college friends seemed highly unlikely, as the club prioritized popularity over financial status. Lost in thought, Jeongin dedicated a considerable minute to pondering these perplexities, his gaze fixed on his phone screen.
"Jeongin," Hyunjin's voice called, pulling him from his contemplation. "You alright? You seem upset."
"No, um," he cleared his throat, still fixated on your icon on his phone screen. "I'm fine, just, um," he stammered. "Wanna go to Hallyu?" The question slipped out suddenly, and he shifted his gaze towards Hyunjin.
Hyunjin's eyes widened with a big smile, and Jeongin couldn't help but know exactly why he was so happy. Hyunjin had been begging for someone to join him at Hallyu. Heâs always been quite a party animal. "Yes," he responded almost immediately. "Our hair already looks nice, and we're wearingâŠ" Hyunjin eyed both of them, still clad in outfits from the music video shoot, not the most suitable attire for the club. "I'm sure we can find something hanging on the racks."
And indeed, Hyunjin was right. The stylist had left a few options for them. Jeongin, wanting to make a good impression, chose a clean white dress shirt that was unbuttoned down his chest. His hair had been professionally styled by the staff a few hours earlier, giving it a polished look. Jeongin couldn't help but notice your love for his growing-out hairâyour tendency to run your fingers through it while cuddling and the smiles you had on your face when you made makeshift ponytails with his hair.
As he looked at himself in the mirror, a content smile crossed Jeongin's face. These efforts extended beyond just preparing for the club; they were a subtle declaration of his affection for you. Each choice, from the outfit to the hairstyle, was a deliberate attempt to present himself in a way that he knew would resonate with your taste and bring a smile to your face.
Hyunjin was prepared and looked exceptionally beautiful, as always. He carried a sultry vibe to him, enhanced by subtle details like the extra red on his lips and the fifty pounds of exquisite jewelry he made sure to put on.
As they prepared to head towards the car, Seungmin walked up from behind them, curiosity etched on his face. "Where are you two going?" he inquired. "The club," Hyunjin replied. "Alright, I'm coming with you," Seungmin decided. Jeongin gave a nod and a smile, patting Seungmin's shoulder gently before proceeding into the car. He also took charge of steering them to their destination.
"So Jeongin," Hyunjin questioned and leaned forward to the passenger seat where Jeongin was sitting. "Why the sudden change? You've always turned down the club."
Jeongin, with a casual shrug, replied, "Oh, I just haven't gone out in a while, you know? Figured tonight's the night."
Hyunjin furrowed his eyebrows, detecting a hint of something unusual in Jeongin's tone. His suspicion grew, and his lips formed a pout. "Something's off," he thought.
Brushing off his concerns for the moment, Hyunjin turned to Seungmin. "And what about you? Why the sudden interest in going out tonight?" he asked.
Seungmin smirked and looked at the rear-view mirror. "Well, Jeongin's going, so why not join in the fun?"
Hyunjin raised an eyebrow at Seungmin's response, fake offense crossing his features. "So, what you're saying is you only wanted to go because Jeongin's going? I see how it is. Making me feel a bit left out, are we?" he quipped.
Seungmin chuckled. "Well, you know, Jeongin's got that charm."
"I'm offended, but y'know Jeongin asked me first." Hyunjin teased.
"Oh, by the way, wanna know something funny?" Seungmin suddenly mentioned, a mischievous glint in his eyes. With a sly grin, he began, "So, last weekend, I went to another club with this girl. Worst decision ever. The club itself was a disaster and she was just too much, you know?"
Hyunjin, intrigued, leaned towards Seungmin. "Who was it?" he urged.
Seungmin, with a smirk, teased, "That part, I can't tell you. Gotta keep my mouth shut."
Hyunjin persisted, "Oh, come on, give us a hint."
The mischievous look in Seungmin eyes intensified, and he simply replied, "Let's just say, she does music."
Hyunjin's eyes widened in excitement. "No way! An idol? Who could be so bad that she overwhelmed you?" he exclaimed, almost jumping in his seat.
Seungmin, nonchalant, rolled his eyes. "Believe me, it's a mystery."
Hyunjin's excitement reached new heights. "Come on, Minnie! You can't drop a bomb like that and not spill the details. Is she a rookie? Gosh, Kim Seungmin please don't be hanging around children."
Seungmin gasped dramatically, "What no! She's in a group that's been around for a while. But that's it, no more hints!"
Hyunjin, unable to contain his curiosity, leaned forward as if on the verge of revealing his suspicions. "Wait a minute⊠is itâ" He caught himself just in time, the name hovering on the tip of his tongue. A sudden look of realization crossed his face, and he quickly retracted his statement. "Never mind, forget I said anything. I don't want to get into trouble."
Seungmin, smirking at Hyunjin's near revelation, teased, "Careful, Hyunjin." Hyunjin, grinning sheepishly, nodded in agreement.
Jeongin's noticeable silence lingered in the car, prompting Seungmin's concern. "You okay?" he asked, to which Jeongin offered a nod. Meanwhile, Hyunjin had a mischievous smirk on his face.
"So, Jeongin, how's it going with your girl?" Hyunjin probed, and Jeongin shot him a bemused look.
"We're good," Jeongin replied, refusing to tell them that you two had broken up.
Hyunjin rolled his eyes theatrically. "Come on, give us the juicy details. Ever since you two became official, you're acting like it's this huge secret. What's the deal?"
Jeongin, maintaining his composed demeanor, stated, "I don't feel the need to share my love life with everyone." Hyunjin responded with an audible groan as he heard this.
"No one's fun anymore," Hyunjin lamented. "Remember the good old days when you would gush about her. We'd get sick of hearing about your big fat crush on her. Now it's all hush-hush. Boring." He sighed as Seungmin pulled into the vast parking lot of the club.
Seungmin maneuvered the car into a spot, bringing it to a halt. The trio exited the car, and he swiftly locked it, the subtle click echoing in the night. They made their way towards the club entrance, where a formidable bouncer stood guard.
Recognizing the members, the bouncer nodded, allowing them passage. With a nod of gratitude, they entered the vibrant realm of Hallyu.
As soon as they stepped inside, Jeongin excused himself abruptly, leaving Hyunjin and Seungmin exchanging perplexed glances. Over the pounding beats and lively chatter, Hyunjin tried to communicate, "Where do you think he's off to so suddenly?"
Amidst the booming music and pulsating bass, Hyunjin attempted to voice their shared confusion, but Seungmin couldn't hear him. Seungmin strained to hear over the deafening noise, responding with a confused shrug. Hyunjin, realizing the problem, cupped his hands around his mouth and bellowed into Seungmin's ear, "WHERE DO YOU THINK HE'S OFF TO SO SUDDENLY?"
Seungmin, startled from the sudden volume, yelled back, "No idea!" They continued further into the club, navigating the lively crowd while Jeongin ventured off in search of you, his footsteps merging with the rhythmic beats that echoed through the Hallyu atmosphere.
Amidst the pulsating lights and thumping beats, Jeongin navigated through the expansive club, checking every corner except the bar in his quest to find you. The sea of people, familiar faces, and the sheer enormity of the venue made the search challenging.
Navigating through the pulsating crowd, Jeongin unexpectedly collided with Yuna. Her friendly smile greeted him, "Hey, Jeongin."
"Hi, Yuna," Jeongin replied, returning the greeting. Yuna's eyes held a flicker of recognition. "I see you brought your girlfriend here tonight," she remarked, making an assumption Jeongin wasn't prepared for.
Confusion furrowed Jeongin's brow as he eagerly asked, "My girlfriend?"
Yuna insisted, "Yeah, your girlfriend. Why are you so shocked?"
"Because I'm not dating anyone," Jeongin replied.
"Stop lying," Yuna said as she gave him a playful swat across the shoulder.
"Shin Yuna, I'm not, I'm serious," He laughed wholeheartedly.
"Yang Jeongin, I know there's a girl" She stated, giving him the same energy.
Jeongin sighed, accepting his defeat, "Well, did you see her anywhere? I don't know where she is."
Amused, Yuna teased, "How did you lose her?"
Growing more exasperated, Jeongin explained, "Because I didn't bring her here with me. She came without telling me, and I don't even know who she even came with! Just tell me where you saw her."
Rolling her eyes, Yuna quipped, "Jeez, I haven't met her before or seen her tonight, but some of the others pointed her out."
Jeongin face-palmed, frustration evident on his features. "How do people even know about her?"
"Your members are uncontrollable," Yuna chuckled.
Jeongin sighed, seeking more information, "Well, did anyone say where she was?"
"They had drinks with them earlier, so probably one of the bars. Maybe check around?" Yuna suggested, offering a helpful direction amid the chaos of the club.
Concern etched Jeongin's features as he mumbled a quick thanks and continued his search. Determined, he headed toward the bar, hoping to find you amidst the myriad faces in the bustling club.
As Jeongin approached the bar, scanning the crowded area, his heart skipped a beat as he spotted you, plopped on the counter. He could always recognize you from far away by the way your hair fell loose around your shoulders, catching the iridescent lights of the club. He couldn't help but notice the way your tight outfit hugged your curves in all the right places he was so familiar with. Instinctively, he walked up to you and put a gentle hand on your arm out of habit.
Unaware of his identity and startled by the sudden touch, you reacted defensively, swiftly hitting him, mistaking him for a stranger. Jeongin winced but quickly spoke, "Y/N, it's me." Your eyes widened in recognition.
"Jeongin? What are you doing here?" you spoke up, looking around nervously as if checking to see if anyone would notice you two talk to each other.
He arched an eyebrow, his expression turning serious. "I should be asking you the same question. What are you doing here alone?"
Your words came out slurred, and Jeongin's concern deepened as he noticed the unease in your demeanor. "I..." you began, your voice trailing off as tears welled up in your eyes.
Jeongin's heart clenched at the sight of your distress, and he sat down on the bar stool next to yours. "Hey, hey, it's okay," he murmured, his voice soft and soothing. Jeongin's concern deepened as he observed your drunk state. He could see the distress in your eyes and the vulnerability in your words. "Why are you so upset, Y/N?" he asked gently, with worry in his tone.
You hiccupped, the alcohol clearly affecting your composure. "It's just... some of my idol friends, they brought there, but then they left me alone with some guy. They keep doing this. I could never tell them I had a boyfriend, so they keep introducing me to these random men, and it's just... it's a little too much."
Jeongin listened attentively, his jaw clenched in silent anger. He knew how much you used to value your relationship, and the thought of your friends continuously setting you up with strangers without considering your feelings frustrated him.
"You shouldn't have to go through this, Y/N." Jeongin finally spoke.
A tear streamed down your face as you spoke, "And the guy tonight..." you began but a big hiccup interrupted you.
Jeongin's eyes narrowed, his protective instincts kicking in as he listened to your distressed voice. "What happened with him, Y/N? Did he do something to you?" he asked, his voice tense with concern.
You took a shaky breath, trying to compose yourself. "He was just so bad, Jeongin. He kept on touching me and we kissed." You added, "Please don't be mad. I wouldn't take advantage of our breakup like that. I tried to stop him, but he was so pushy, and I didn't know what to do."
Jeongin's eyes tightened with anger as he heard the details of your distressing encounter. He remained silent for a moment, absorbing the gravity of the situation. Your fear was palpable, and he could feel the urgency in your plea for understanding.
Finally, he spoke, his voice low and steady, "Y/N, what does the guy look like?"
You hesitated, fear evident in your eyes. "I don't want to see him again. I just want to forget about it."
Jeongin's expression softened, understanding the depth of your discomfort. "I need to know so I can make sure you're safe. You don't have to face him again, but I need to know who he is."
You reluctantly told him the name of the guy and provided enough visual details for Jeongin to identify him if necessary. As you spoke, Jeongin's jaw clenched, his protective instincts kicking in even more.
After you finished explaining, Jeongin stayed silent for a moment before finally saying, "Y/N, I'll never be mad at you for this. I'm furious at that guy for treating you like that. No one should ever make you feel unsafe."
You nodded, grateful for his understanding. "I just really want a hug right now," you admitted, your voice trembling.
Jeongin's eyes softened, and without a moment's hesitation, he pulled you into a tight embrace. It wasn't the response you were expecting. You had wanted him to suggest something like "Wanna leave? We can take a cab back to your house and I'll stay for the night." and hug you when you got home. Instead, Jeongin, sensing the urgency of the moment, chose to offer comfort right there and then.
As he held you close, the chaotic surroundings of the club seemed to fade away. Jeongin's arms provided a shield, and the steady beat of his heart against your ear drowned out the noise. It was an unexpected moment of tenderness amidst the chaos, a silent reassurance that you weren't alone.
"Jeongin, everyone's going to see," you whispered anxiously, your voice shaking with fear. The overwhelming noise of the club seemed to amplify your vulnerability.
Jeongin continued to hold you close, his hand rubbing soothing circles on your back. "Shh, we're okay," he whispered softly, his words a gentle lullaby to your escalating anxiety. Without breaking the embrace, he pulled back slightly to look into your eyes. "You said you two kissed?" Jeongin questioned.
"He kissed me," you corrected, your voice barely above a whisper.
Jeongin's expression tightened with controlled anger, but before he could say anything, you felt his gentle touch on your face. His thumb brushed away a stray tear, and his eyes locked onto yours. "Where?" he asked, his tone soft but demanding answers.
"On the lips," you replied, your voice trembling. You could see the anger flicker in Jeongin's eyes, but there was something else tooâsomething tender.
Without saying a word, Jeongin leaned in, his hands resting on your waist. As Jeongin's lips met yours, the fear and anxiety began to melt away. It was a kiss that held reassurance, a silent promise that you were fully his.
As the kiss lingered, you couldn't help but marvel at the fact that Jeongin was openly expressing affection in public, something he had never done before. It struck you that he was okay with showing you off to other people at that moment.
However, as Jeongin pulled away, you sensed a sudden shift in the atmosphere. He avoided eye contact, his gaze fixed on some distant point. A knot of worry formed in your stomach. It felt as if he were already regretting it.
"Jeongin, look at me," you urged, your voice filled with concern. But he continued to avoid your gaze, and the worry intensified. "Jeongin," you repeated, trying to catch his eye, but he remained unresponsive.
In a moment of desperation, you gently lifted his chin, forcing him to meet your eyes. What you saw took you aback â tears glistened in Jeongin's eyes. This sight, combined with his refusal to make eye contact, sent a surge of anxiety through you.
"Jeongin, what's wrong?" you asked, your voice trembling. Without hesitation, you reached up to wipe away the tears that trailed down his cheeks. He didn't resist, but his silence and tears spoke volumes.
His emotions seemed overwhelming, and you knew Jeongin was not one to cry in front of so many people. It left you deeply concerned. Looking around, you noticed the crowded nature of the club and realized it wasn't the right place for such a vulnerable moment.
You stood up, gesturing for Jeongin to follow you to a quieter area. The unspoken understanding passed between you as he rose, and you both navigated through the pulsating crowd to find a more secluded spot where you could unravel the emotions that had surfaced.
Finding a small corner away from the pulsating beats and prying eyes, you gestured for Jeongin to sit with you. As you both settled into a more private space, you could feel the weight of the unspoken emotions hanging in the air.
"Jeongin, please tell me what's going on," you pleaded, your worry etched across your face.
He took a deep breath, his shoulders trembling slightly, and finally met your gaze. The pain in his eyes struck you, and you realized that whatever had triggered this emotional response went beyond the events of the night.
"I'm sorry, Y/N," he whispered, his voice catching in his throat. "I didn't mean to... I just..." He struggled to find the right words.
Concern deepening, you gently cupped his face, wiping away the remnants of tears. "Jeongin, you can tell me anything."
Jeongin took a deep breath, his eyes reflecting a mixture of regret and pain. "Y/N, I thought keeping our relationship a secret would protect you from any trouble. But I see now that it only did you worse."
As he spoke, his voice carried the weight of realization, and you listened attentively, still holding his face in your hands.
"The reason you got harassed tonight was all because of me," Jeongin continued, his words laced with self-blame. "I was too afraid to let people know about us, and it got you stuck in situations like this."
Your heart ached for Jeongin's internal struggle, but you could also sense the sincerity in his words. "Jeongin, it's not your fault. I'll never blame you for what happened tonight. Those people were out of line, and it had nothing to do with us keeping our relationship private."
He nodded, appreciating your understanding but still burdened by guilt. "I should have let you tell your friends about us. Then, they would've never tried to set you up with guys like that."
You took a deep breath, your thumb gently caressing his cheek. "Jeongin, it's not your fault. What happened tonight, it could have easily happened anytime. It has nothing to do with you."
Jeongin's shoulders slumped, the weight of his guilt evident in his posture. "I just⊠I didn't know how to be a good boyfriend. I was scared, so I just broke it off like that." he confessed, his voice barely above a whisper.
Your heart broke at his words, and you reached out to take his hand in yours, offering what little comfort you could. "Jeongin, you are a good boyfriend," you reassured him, your voice firm with conviction. "You were always there for me. When you were keeping our relationship private, your heart was in the right place since you just wanted to protect me."
He shook his head, tears welling up in his eyes once again. "But it hurt you to have to deal with that," he whispered, his voice choked with emotion.
You felt a pang in your chest at his words, "It did at times," you admitted softly. "But what hurt the most was when you broke up with me, Jeongin. I didn't want us to end like that."
Jeongin's gaze softened, his heart aching at the pain he had caused you. "I'm so sorry, Y/N," he whispered, his voice filled with regret. "I never wanted to hurt you. I just... I didn't know how to handle everything, and I thought it was for the best." He paused for a moment, "Can we just forget it all happened?"
You looked at Jeongin, "What do you mean?" you asked softly, your voice barely above a whisper.
Jeongin sighed, his gaze dropping to the ground as he struggled to find the right words. "I hate the thought of us breaking up. I hate that word. I don't even want to call it a breakup," he admitted, his voice tinged with uncertainty. "I just... I want to call it... our time to learn from each other."
"Does this mean you want us to get back together?" you asked, your voice laced with cautious optimism.
Jeongin nodded, his eyes meeting yours. "Yes, Y/N," he replied, his voice filled with determination. "I want us to give our relationship another chance. But I don't want us to dwell on this past week like it was some tragedy. I want us to focus on moving forward together, stronger and more committed than ever before."
You smiled softly at Jeongin's words, feeling a sense of relief wash over you. "I want that too, Jeongin," you admitted, your voice filled with sincerity.
"I wanna show you off." He admitted.
"We can take it slow." you reassured.
"No, really," he confirmed, his tone serious. "In fact, if it weren't for running into Yuna earlier and her knowing you as girlfriend, I might never have found you this easily."
Your eyes widened in surprise at his revelation, a soft laugh escaping your lips. "Yuna knew me?" you exclaimed, unable to hide your astonishment.
Jeongin nodded, a chuckle escaping his lips. "Yeah, she did," he confirmed, his eyes shining with amusement. "And thanks to her, I was able to find you and have this conversation with you."
You couldn't help but chuckle at Jeongin's admission, finding his reaction endearing. "Well, I guess we owe Yuna a thank you then," you remarked, a playful glint in your eyes.
Jeongin grinned, nodding in agreement. "Definitely," he replied, his gaze softening as he looked at you. "But you know, I want people to know about you. I want the world to know how much you mean to me."
A soft smile tugged at your lips, touched by his sentiment. "Well, you realize you did kiss me at the bar in front of everyone," you teased gently, a playful glint in your eyes.
Jeongin's cheeks flushed with embarrassment as he realized his slip-up. "Oh right," he muttered sheepishly, rubbing the back of his neck. "I guess I forgot that there were people around us."
You chuckled softly, reaching out to place a reassuring hand on his arm. "I guess you must've accidentally shut them out."
A tender smile spread across Jeongin's face, his eyes shining with affection. "Yeah, I was probably to focused," he admitted, his voice filled with warmth. "That's what happens when you're in love."
Your heart swelled with warmth at Jeongin's words, feeling the sincerity behind them. As you smiled, Jeongin's expression softened even more, his gaze lingering on your lips. Without a word, he leaned in, closing the distance between you. The world around him seemed to fade away once again as your lips met in a tender kiss.
Wrapping your arms around him, you pulled him closer, deepening the kiss. Sensing your desire, Jeongin responded eagerly, his arms encircling you as he lifted you effortlessly. You found yourself straddling him, your bodies pressed together as the kiss grew more passionate, more urgent.
He pulled away slightly, his lips lingering dangerously close to yours. In the hushed space between you, he whispered those three words, "I love you," his breath warm against your skin.
"I love you t-", Before you could respond, before you could utter those same words that had been waiting on the tip of your tongue, he silenced you by shoving his tongue into your opened mouth.
You eagerly welcomed him, losing yourself in the heat of the moment. There was an urgency, a hunger in the way he kissed you, as if he couldn't get enough of you, as if he wanted to consume you entirely.
As the two of you were lost in the intensity of your make out sesh, a voice suddenly shattered the passionate haze. "Yang Jeongin!" The voice was loud and unmistakable, causing both of you to pull apart, breathless and startled.
Turning towards the source of the interruption, you were met with the sight of Hyunjin, his eyes wide and his mouth hanging open in disbelief.
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You're out shopping for dinner tonight when your phone starts to ring. You furrow your brows, wondering who it could be since Chris is working and Hyunjin's at an art exhibit.
An unknown number is printed on your screen, and you reluctantly answer it. âHello?â You start walking through the aisles again, waiting for whomever is on the line.
âHi, this is Dr. Brown at SNUH. Am I speaking to Y/N?â You stop in your tracks at the question, feeling your heart begin to race.
âYeah, yeah, this is Y/N,â you say to him, moving to a more secluded area in the store.
You can hear the background noise of nurses trying to speak to him, only to be hushed. âI'm calling in regards to Chris. There's been a slight accident at his auto shop and was rushed over here,â he explains the situation.
âIs⊠is he okay?â You ask, your breathing picking up.
âHe's stable. I can give you more information on what happened when you get here,â the doctor states.
You nod your head, abandoning your cart as you rush towards the main doors. âOkay, I'll be there as fast I can,â you mutter before he hangs up.
As you're almost running to your car, you take deep breaths to stop you from having a form of attack. Tears pool in your eyes, every scenario of what could have happened runs through your mind.
The drive to the hospital doesn't take very long, thankful that traffic is on your side today. You quickly lock your vehicle and rush inside, stopping in front of the admitting desk.
âHi,â you're out of breath, feeling the palms of your hands get sweaty. âI'm here to see Christopher Bang.â
The woman behind the desk nods and types in the patient's name. You tap your fingers against the desk, waiting for her to give you a room number.
âHe's in room 203,â she tells you, making quick eye contact.
âOkay, thank you,â you mumble before walking over to the elevators. You take it up to the second floor, finding a sign to where 203 would be as soon as you step off.
You see a doctor and a nurse standing outside one of the rooms, finding out that it's Chrisâ room. You walk closer to the pair, capturing the attention of the nuse.
She nudges the doctor, motioning her head in your direction. You clasp your fingers together as you make eye contact with Dr. Brown. âY/N, yes?â He asks, holding a hand out for you to shake.
âYes, hi,â you greet him with a bow, shaking the older man's hand. Your gaze flickers toward the small window in the door, seeing Chris lying on the hospital bed. âWhat happened?â
The doctor releases a deep breath. âHe was working on a vehicle when it fell from the lift,â he starts, earning a gasp from you. âThankfully, he wasn't completely under it and that he's quick on his feet. The situation could've been worse. He broke his left leg in two places.â
âOh my god,â you mutter while stepping up to the door.
Dr. Brown gently rests one of his hands on your shoulders, reassuring you. âHe'll be okay. The surgery went well. He had a couple of plates and screws put in. It'll somewhat be a long road to recovery,â he mentions.
âIs there anything he'll need to do?â You ask, tucking some hair behind your ears.
âThere will be some follow-up appointments with orthopedics. But, that won't be for a few weeks. I'll have our nurse write down instructions you'll need for the healing process.â
You nod your head before opening the door. Both the doctor and nurse decide to let you have a moment with Chris alone. You gently shut the door behind you and walk over to the chair next to his bed.
Your eyes look at the cast on his leg, seeing that it's almost up to his knee. A frown, etches itself on your lips as you place your hand on his. You let out a couple of deep breaths, squeezing his hand in yours.
âI'm glad that it's only a broken leg,â you say out loud, not talking to anyone. You bring his hand closer to you, kissing the back of it softly.
Chrisâ upper body stirs, making your movements halt. You watch his eyes slowly flutter open, squinting at the bright lights. He releases a tired groan, tilting his head towards you.
âY/N?â He calls out your name, making your heart flutter.
You scoot closer to the bed and squeeze his hand. âI'm here,â you whisper loud enough for him to hear.
He smiles at you while lacing your fingers together. âI'm so happy to see you,â Chris mutters, turning his head again before closing his eyes.
âI'm happy to see you too, baby. I'm glad you're okay,â you mention, standing up from your chair.
You keep your hands intertwined and bring your free hand to his forehead. You brush the hair out of his face, listening to him hum continuously.
âI don't know what happened,â he mentions, smiling at the touch of your fingers. âIt all happened so fast.â
âIt's okay. The only thing that matters is that you're alive,â you state before leaning down to kiss his forehead.
A knock on the door captures both of your attention. The nurse from before walks in with a sheet of paper. âThis is everything he'll need to do during recovery and the appointments he'll have,â she says to you while handing you the paper.
You grab a hold of it, your thumb stroking the back of his hand as you read through it. âOkay, thank you,â you smile at her, setting the paper on the table beside you. âWhen is he being discharged?â
âHe's all set now. There's a wheelchair and a pair of crutches right outside the door,â she informs you before leaving.
âChris, baby,â you softly call out his name, watching him open his eyes again. âDo you want to stay at my place during recovery?â
He tilts his head towards you and shakes his head. âYou live on the fourth floor,â he mumbles, causing you to chuckle. âI live on the first floor. You can stay at my place. I also have a spare bedroom you can use.â
You laugh some more, combing your fingers through his hair. âWhat? You don't want to sleep in the same bed as me?â You joke with him, helping him sit up.
âI do, I swear,â Chris groans, leaning into your body. âI didn't know if you wanted to.â
A hum leaves your lips. âSuch a sweet man,â you sigh before pulling away slightly. You stroke his cheek, watching him blink. âAre you going to be okay? I gotta grab the wheelchair.â
He nods his head, pursing his lips. You know what he's asking for, and you smile at him before planting a kiss on his plump lips.
âI'll be quick,â you mumble against his lips, placing one more kiss on his forehead.
~
You slowly walk behind Chris, eyeing him as he crutches into the kitchen of his apartment. It's been a few days since he's been discharged from the hospital, and he seems to be taking it really well.
He slumps into the chair, releasing a hefty sigh. âThis is exhausting,â Chris laughs, lifting his head to look at you.
âYou're doing well, though,â you grin, tapping his chin.
âThank you for staying with me,â he mentions, grabbing your hand. âI couldn't ask for a better partner.â
Your cheeks blush, and you shrug your shoulders. âOf course, baby. I⊠I love you,â you tell him for the first time.
It's been a couple of months since the two of you started dating. He's not like any other guy you've been with. He's such a sweetheart, and he treats you like an absolute queen. It didn't take long for you to figure out that you loved him.
Chris stares up at you, his lips parted at the sudden phrase. âYou love me?â He whispers, squeezing your hand. You giggle, nodding your head in answer. âEven like this?â
âChris, baby, yes,â you laugh.
âI love you. I love you so much,â he says while resting his head against your stomach.
You wrap your arms around him, leaning down to kiss the top of his head. âNow, what do you want to eat?â You ask him, opening his fridge to take a look inside.
âYou wanna just order something? I haven't had the chance to go shopping,â he mentions with a pout.
âSure, baby. Maybe later I can quickly go get some groceries,â you mention, having him move into the living room.
Chris walks into the living room before lowering himself onto the couch. You grab the pillow beside him and tuck it under his leg, keeping it elevated.
âIf you do, I'll give you my card,â he says as you sit down next to him.
He places his hand on your thigh, stroking the inside of it. âI can pay for it, it's okay,â you reassure him, linking your arm with his.
He groans, resting his head against the back of the couch. âBaby, it's my place. Let me pay for my groceries,â he whines.
âYou can get them next time,â you wink at him, patting his good leg.
âFine,â he reluctantly agrees, squeezing your thigh.
You cuddle into his side after grabbing the remote. He combs his fingers through your hair as you find a movie to watch.
Chris looks at his food delivery app, trying to decide what he wants for lunch. âDo you want to get a variety of things?â He asks you, showing you his phone screen.
You quickly glance at the screen and nod your head. âYeah, that's fine. It is pretty late, and we haven't eaten anything yet,â you tell him, moving your gaze from his phone to his face.
He smiles at you fondly, moving some strands of hair out of your eyes. âMan, I really love you,â Chris sighs, shaking his head. You giggle at his reaction. âI know it's only been a couple of months, but after this is over⊠I wouldn't mind you staying here.â
Your heart skips a beat, sitting up slightly. âAre you saying you want me to live here?â You ask him with wide eyes and flushed cheeks.
âI've enjoyed the past two days even though my leg hurts,â he chuckles.
We'll see when you're all better,â you giggle, patting his chest. âYou might get sick of me.â
Chris scoffs and playfully rolls his eyes. He hooks a finger beneath your jaw, turning your head before kissing you. âI'll never get sick of you, baby,â he mumbles against your lips, planting soft pecks after.
You kiss him once more before grinning. âWe'll see, lover boy.â
~
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