I Am So Tired. But I Can't Sleep And I've Headeach... I Hate It.

I was always a fat girl. Not really ugly, but fat. society mades me fell ugly. 

Selfharm was my hold. My life.I loved it. I thought it mades me strong.

I hate my weakness. My family, my relatives, my friends... All these people call me till today that I am fat, ugly, worthless. That make me hate myself. My fucking self. 

Why are people so cruel. Makes them to be happy?

O'Children - Nick Cave

best song Let me dream

today 900 kcal

I eat for ca. 800 kcal.

It's okay... better than more than 900 kcal

I want to follow every single one of you.

Even when I see my arms...

I want to do it over and over again...

and I want to do it deeper and deeper....

♫ Promise (Reprise)

Song: Promise (Reprise) Composer: Akira Yamaoka

Sooo sad... sooo beautiful... I love this Song... SH is the best game series I know