SO BUG RACE

Holly Jackson is a god. She slays so hard.

The first time he says “Lily” it’s in their first year, first time around the gigantic Gryffindor table. It’s the first time they meet. It surely won’t be the last time he says her name, they have seven years ahead of them.

The fifteenth time he says “Lily” is in Flying Class. He usually refers to her by her last name, he doesn’t care if she likes it and she doesn’t care if he does. It’s a mutual agreement. As Lily’s feet take off the grass, James is the first one to congratulate her.

The 68th time he says “Lily,” is in their second year and he needs his ink back. Lily is known to get lost while she is writing a Charms essay, she gives it back with a small smile.

The 97th time he says “Lily” is in their third year, he almost never uses her name anymore, they don’t talk much anyways. She finds him obnoxious, he finds her magical. it’s stupid, they are young.

The 103rd time he says “Lily” is when he is unable to control his anger. It’s the first time he hears the word Mudblood. Lily gives him stares as cold as ice before she deals with Lestrange herself. It’s in their fourth year, they barely talk now.

The 159th time he says “Lily” is in front of everyone but it’s barely a whisper. Snivellus glares at him and others snicker. It’s right after an exam, he makes a fool of himself. They stop talking. He doesn’t think he will ever say her name again.

The 171st time he says “Lily” is when he is drunk with the other Marauders. They really don’t speak anymore, not even for common courtesy. She hates him and he deserves it. He takes another shot of Firewhiskey and talks about how the drink reminds him of her hair.

The 202nd time he says “Lily” is the first day of seventh year. He acknowledges her presence, gives her a stern nod. They are Head Boy and Head Girl after all. She gives a shy smile. Something’s changed.

The 209th time he says “Lily” he is having a hard time breathing. His mother is gone and he is in shambles hiding in Minnie’s class, crying. He hates it when people see him crying, she holds his hand.

The 257th time he says “Lily” it’s between short breaths. Her nails in his back, his fingers in her hair, his arm around her arched back. It’s both urgent and relieved. Everything becomes undone.

The 268th time he says “Lily” it’s followed by a whispered “I love you”. She is taken aback but she says it back and he thinks “this is the happiest moment of my life.

The 308th time he says “Lily” it’s a scream as he catches her after she is struck with a curse. His scream rips through the night as he carries her while sending curses left and right. He is not one to leave his friends behind but for her, he doesn’t think for a second more.

The 315th time he says “Lily” is when he asks her to marry him. She says “yes”, it’s a miracle. He can’t believe it, he can now call her by her name forever.

The 329th time he says “Lily” is when they are getting married. Wands hidden in their robes and eyes teary, they say “I do”. He still can’t believe she said yes. He calls her by her name more often now, “Evans” doesn’t have the same ring to it anymore. 

The 389th time he says “Lily” is when her belly is as big as her and she says it’s time. 

The 391st time he says “Lily” is when he holds his son for the first time. He is crying happy tears for the first time in many months.

The 476th time he says “Lily” is when he tells her they have to go into hiding. He is the one to give her the news that their son is marked for death. It breaks his heart to a thousand pieces but he stays strong for them. 

The last time he says “Lily” he knows, he knows it’s the last time he says her name. He savours it, he lets it hang in the air for a moment before he lets it go, then he puts himself between him and them. No one says “Lily” like him ever again.

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The maruaders are feminist. If they lived as teens rn, in 2022, they'd be obsessed with Taylor Swift and Girl in Red, they'd hate on Andrew Tate so much, they'd absolutely adore Alice Oseman (especially Remus, he'd have all her books), they'd argue with old math teachers who've lived decades longer than they should have and say awful shit to girls, they'd love Jenna Ortega and our feminist queen, Emma Watson.

This is something I've been working on for a while. I have plans for the full song, this was just getting too long. This is just the first verse.

The Archer (Regulus' Version)

Part One | Part Two |

Song: The Archer by Taylor Swift

Characters: Regulus Black, Sirius Black, Walburga Black, mentions of Bellatrix Lestrange, Remus Lupin, James Potter and Lily Evans.

Warnings: Mentions of Child Abuse, Arrange marriage, death of a child (their 17), main character dies, the Black brothers

Combat, I'm ready for combat

Aged Eight

"Shh...reg...its okay. Your okay." Sirius cradles his brother in his arms, rocking him back and forth and he sobs into his chest after a particularly bad punishment from their mother. This one sirius couldn't take the blame for.

"Don't worry reg. I'm going to get us out of here. I'll be at hogwarts in two years, you'll be with me in three. We'll spend the year running round the corridors, just us two. Maybe a few new friends too. None that Mother can control us through, though. After that, we can leave together." Sirius plans out, smiling down at his younger brother. Its his dream. Its his dream to take regulus and ran as far away as they can. Somewhere no one in the Black family can reach them.

I say I don't want that, but what if I do?

Aged 14

"I will not have another son of mine associating with blood traitors." Walburga spoke, speaking the last two words like they were poison. "You aren't to speak to him again. You are dismissed."

"Yes, maman. I apologise." Regulus turned and walked out of the room, making sure his mother wasn't watching when he slouched against the wall at the top of the stairs.

"Remember Reg, remember our plans. I haven't forgot, I hope you haven't either." Sirius appeared at his room door, watching Regulus with sympathy.

Regulus can't lie, those words helped. He felt warmth fill his chest, the corners of his lips twitched up.

He imagined, him and sirius, a tiny two bedroom flat in muggle London. He'd work in a bookshop or a small cafe, Sirius in a record shop or maybe even a hair salon. Theyd have a cat. A grumpy one. They would be friends with whoever they wanted and they'd have them over whenever they felt like it.

Then reality hit.

They couldn't both leave. Only one could cause then there would still be an heir. Their family would hunt them both down. Only one would escape. And Regulus would make sure it wasn't him.

"I dont know what your talking about." He said coldly, pushing off the wall and locking himself in his bedroom, forcing himself not to look at his brothers face.

'Cause cruelty wins in the movies

Aged 15

Regulus listened to the screams through the floor. He listened as his brother called out to him for help. Cried in pain. Regulus cried along with him, cause there was nothing he could do.

He heard his mother's yelling. He sobbed at the sound of Bellatrix, who he'd once considered his favourite cousin, laugh at his brothers pain.

Then their was nothing, just silence.

He watched as the minutes ticked by. Waiting. It was late. The house in silence. When he was sure no one was awake, Regulus got up. He snuck across the room and into the hall, avoiding the creaky boards like Sirius had taught him. Slowly, he pushed open his brothers door.

"Siri?" He peered in and saw sirius, barely able to stand by himself, blood coating his usually perfect hair and his pale face. His eyes were blood-shot, his arms bruised and his clothes ripped. Onfront of him was his trunk and he was throwing things in it.

"Reggie." He sighed, looking up at his brother with relief. "I thought they'd hurt you too." He gave a small smile, wincing when he moved his face.

"Your leaving?" Regulus bit the inside of his cheek to stop the tears. He wanted to reach out and take all the pain from his brother, then help him escape. He wanted him to get out, he deserved to get away from this bullshit. But that doesn't mean it didn't hurt.

"We have to, Reg. We can't stay here. Go, get your trunk. Pack what you need. Nothing more."

Regulus shook his head. "Where are you going to go?"

Siruis let out a shaky breath. "I'm going to James'. But I'm coming back for you, Reg. Even if it means I have to drag you out myself." He said, he didn't have the energy or strength to force him right now but he would get him out. Soon.

"I love you, Reggie." Sirius said, stepping into the fireplace and throwing down the floo powder, muttering his destination under his breath so no one heard.

Regulus let out a sob when the flames disappeared before running to his room before his parents found him. That night, he cried himself to sleep with Sirius' pillow in his arms.

I've got a hundred thrown-out speeches I almost said to you

Dear Siri,

I miss you. Its awful here without you. We aren't even allowed to say your name. Your rooms been locked.

Everything is much more bearable when your here. You make everything better.

I love you,

Reggie

Dear Sirius,

Come back, please. I hate it here without you. Please come back to me. Please.

I love you, brother

Reg

Come back for me. I want to leave. I can't do this anymore, Sirius. Please, I need you. I can't take this anymore.

I love you

Regulus

Dear Sirius

I got it. I'm so so sorry sirius. I swear I didn't want to. But they didn't give me a choice. It hurt like hell. I passed out. It hurts even more than the C-Curse. I know you probably hate me now. Don't worry, I hate me too.

I love you, Siri

R.A.B

Dear Sirius,

I seen you the other day. On a mission in diagon Alley. You didn't see me, but I saw you. I wanted to run to you so badly when you almost got hit. I'm happy that Remus saved you. I'm happy for the both of you. Your good for each other.

I love you

R.A.B

Sirius,

I need your help. Mother has found me a wife. I'm getting married in March, 1980. I never imagined have to get married without you at my side. Marrying Amaryllis Yaxley would be much more bearable with you there.

I love you

R.A.B

Sirius,

I saw in the prophet that James and Lily got married. I hope they have a good life together. I saw you in the photos. You look happy. I'm glad your happy. Although, you could do with a hair cut.

R.A.B

I found a way, brother. A way out. A way to end this war. I'm going to get rid of him, Siri. For you.

R.A.B

Aged 17

Regulus wiped a tear from his cheek before he put all the letters back into the old box, all besides one. He climbed off his bed and placed the box under a floor board, were it wouldn't be found for years to come.

He stood up, wiping away another tear. He grabbed his wand, a piece of parchment and a locket that was an exact replica of the locket of slytherin.

Regulus looked down at the note in his hand one more time before sealing it to his owls leg and opened the window. He took one last look around his bedroom. At all the things he'd ever owned, the only place that was ever truly his.

Then he turned around and walked out.

Regulus was already dead by the time sirius got the letter. He looked at the letter once and knew. He knew his worse fear had come true and sunk to his knees, sobs ripping through him.

When Remus came home to find his boyfriend on the floor in tears, he only had to look at the parchment on the counter once to know what had happened.

I'm sorry. I remember, I never forgot. You were always my brother.

I love you

Goodbye, Siri.

R.A.B

Bald reggie >>>>>

why does your regulus have longer hair regulus should only have short hair

I got u babe xoxo

Sirius then learns sign for remus and that's when regulus finally gives up on winning his brother back. He never bothered learning sign for his brother but he'd do it for the people he replaced him with

Sign

Remus Lupin, who's hard of hearing but can't afford hearing aids always has to ask people to slow down or write what they're saying because most students don't know sign language.

Regulus Black, who's selectively mute and communicates mostly with sign language.

Regulus is going down to the medical wing to get a potion for Evan. He froze, seeing Remus, talking(?) to Pomfrey in sign language. Remus notices him, standing there frozen. He speaks up, “You alright there, mate?”

Regulus blinks, snapping out of his trance and nods, crossing over to Pomfrey, and signing, “I need a Pepperup for Evan”

“Of course, dear. One moment.” Pomfrey responds, walking off to get the potion.

Once she is out of view, Remus turns around to face Regulus, then signs to him, “You know sign?”

Regulus nods, “Yes, I do.” he signs in reply.

And that is how their friendship started.

there is a tremendous lack of chloe green and shara wheeler content on this app and we should be fixing that

it seems that everyone i’m friends with is better friends with someone else and that really fucking sucks