“i Miss My Man” I Say, Knowing That Once I Am In My Dr I Will Hate Him Because I Scripted An Enemies

shifting is scary and exhilarating at the same time

tried a method last night but I wasn’t all that into it so I just turned over and decided to go to bed,,, (I’ve been swamped with assignments and final exams and shifting was an impulsive decision that I gave up on halfway through)

nothings wrong with understanding that you’re just not ready to put in the effort to shift,, dependent on your preferred methods, or lack of, it can be extremely draining or super easy

but I decided that I would rather sleep than shift cus it was really late and I haven’t been getting much sleep the past few days,,,

as I’m laying there super annoyed that I can’t fall asleep, my vision turns like completely black,, its early morning by this point and I’ve got a small nightlight that’s semi bright,, it’s never completely dark in my room

and then the feeling,, it was weird,,, I hate roller coasters but I imagine this is how they feel,, it was like I was in a tunnel, like one of those optical illusion ones, and my vision was being like pulled forward with this tunnel thing all around me,, it felt like memories and stuff were rushing past me too

the best way I can describe it is that scene in Doctor Strange when he gets his soul like punched out of him cus that’s exactly how it felt!

it felt like my soul, or my consciousness in this instance, was being pulled out of my body here and being pulled into another one somewhere else

my heart started racing like never before and suddenly my hearing went completely silent too,,, I sleep with a white noise machine and it was like it simply faded out of existence

the whole process felt, both, excruciatingly long and extremely fast at the same time, and by the time it had ended, my heart still racing, I looked over and found that it’d only been 15 minutes,,,

because I wasn’t planning on shifting and was mainly focused on sleeping, I didn’t really know what to do,, I affirmed a bit but I was so jostled that I didn’t really know what I was affirming

eventually it ended and I felt myself wake up back in my bed with my heart pounding like I’ve never felt it do before, and I went to sleep

am I upset that I didn’t shift? kinda,, but at the same time, this is such a huge step that I don’t really mind,,, if anything it just gave me a full day to prepare, script, and make up my mind about where to shift to and what to do because I was so lost man

I'm super excited to feel those symptoms again and actually shift this time! I’m getting closer and closer to traveling realities at the drop of a pin, I can feel it

the new medication I’m taking gives me the same full body tingles that shifting does and it’s making me feel more motivated than ever before

idk where I’m shifting to, but I know I’m shifting

AAAHHH I MISS MY BOYFRIEND (he doesn't exist in this reality)

Affirm:

I can have, be, and do anything and everything I want. I AM anything and everything!

trying to manifest.

in manifesting, we don’t try to manifest. there are three steps to it ⋮ 1 ⋮ picking a desire ⋮ 2 ⋮ assuming it to be yours and ⋮ 3 ⋮ persisting in that assumption aka enjoying it in imagination. none of these steps include "trying" because whenever you "try" to manifest, you automatically fail.

there is no trying.

you aren’t trying to manifest. when you manifest, you don’t attempt to. you simply BECOME. you simple ARE. you simply HAVE. the more you try, the more you will experience trying it. but he more you ARE, the more you will experience BEING it.

the state of trying.

my perspective on trying to manifest changed when i understood that to try represents a STATE as well (shouout to edward art). it's a CONCEPT of self. it's a FEELING. trying to get, trying to achieve, trying to attain, trying to resolve, trying to attract … these are all FEELINGS. feelings that you internalise within and take with you before you imagine.

the trying self.

if you keep trying to manifest, you will forever continue to remain in this state of trying, not embodying or experiencing. remember, self must be expressed and your assumptions of self must harden to fact. the outer world can only reflect your inner world. if you identify as the version of self that tries and waits for their desires, this version of you HAS to be expressed. only when you truthfully BECOME your desired version, your external reality will have to reflect it back to you.

trying and being.

let’s imagine two people. person A and person B. person A and B are both manifesting their desires. when you ask them about their desires, this is how they would respond:

A · i manifested my desires. i am experiencing them in my imagination. i already am who i want to be and have what i want to have.

B · i'm trying to manifest my desires. i'm trying to live in the end but i don't fully believe in it. i haven’t really identified with my desired version of self so far.

person A is identifying as a person who already has become their desired self whereas person B hasn't. one person is identifying with the END while the other one is still identifying with the PROCESS.

less trying, more being.

the feeling of trying is nowhere near the feeling of being. it’s incomplete. it’s unfinished. it will leave you feeling unfulfilled and dissatisfied. the state of trying will only drain you out of energy. and it will forever hinder you from feeling the feelings you wish to feel.

but before a feeling or a state (they both mean the same) gets materialised, it has to exist somewhere before. before it occurs on the OUTside, it first occurred on the INside. in conclusion, ALL states belong to you. ALL of them can only exist if you permit them to. only if you give allowance and acceptance to a state, it can take place in the physical.

moral of the story? don’t try becoming it. just BE it.

with love, ella.

HOW TO SHIFT (for dummies)

— this information is what I picked up from the book i’m currently reading ‘Becoming Supernatural by Dr. Joe Dispenza’ (I highly suggest reading)

— all shifting is/quantum jumping is, is shifting your awareness to a different reality

• meditate until you get into a no thought zone/state

+ this may take minutes for some people and hours for others but you need to take the time. if you are impatient, try the 68 seconds of pure thought by Abraham Hicks -> watch this video

+ pure thought states make it easier for the brain to simply manifestations

• be aware

+ or in other words, acknowledge your reality beyond your senses, begin to understand your reality and that it is already yours

In Dr. Dispenza’s book it says

‘The only way you can exist in the quantum is as awareness…

experience this realm is with your awareness’

as in, the reality you have has and been created long before, you just became aware that it existed and you’re learning how to become aware in it. creation is already finished.

Fuck it i'm shifting

I miss my DR s/o so bad it's not funny anymore, I must see that beautiful autistic man RIGHT NOW

— my favourite shifting method

(sleep paralysis/lucid dream(¿)

i wake up at 10 am

i stay up for max 2 hours

in that time i may watch stuff that reminds me of my dr or maybe read some shifting storylines to give me more motivations

if i start to yawn and my eyes feel watery that’s my cue to go back to sleep

i get into a comfortable position and after 10 minutes i feel symptoms of sleep paralysis which is

vibration/frequency sound

legs feel weak

once i enter sleep paralysis. i imagine my dr surroundings and say “i am in my dr”

i immediately feel my surroundings change

most of the times i enter a lucid dream too

i have problems with grounding myself so that’s where it usually ends but i will do this method again and let you know how it goes.

if you have questions feel free to ask.

i enter pinterest on a mission to work on my dr’s boards but i always end up getting completely distracted by pictures of my s/o’s instead..

how i managed to shift 62 times

This is my go to method that I use most times I shift. I shift using sleep paralysis about 4 times a week and successfully. I like this method because it puts me in the thoughtless state which allows me to shift and allows me to focus. You don’t need to focus to shift but when I don’t I tend to just not want to shift anymore because I’m so consumed with other thoughts. This is not the void, however. I first shifted with this about four years ago, and have shifted with this method about 62 times that I consciously remember.

Step one: I can’t focus at all when I close my eyes and even if I do it in the day I take a nap. So for whatever reason I put my feet up on the wall. And I shifted the first time I tried. This helps me because even when I do nod off I wake up not long after. And I can actually focus on where I want to go. So I put my feet up usually with a blanket covering my legs and feet. It doesn’t have to be super high up where you’re uncomfortable. Just something even slightly raised helped me lots. I usually stay still because it puts my body to sleep and calms me. But you don’t have to if it’s too uncomfortable.

Step two: Oh, I’m usually listening to a playlist that reminds me of the place I’m shifting to or a moment or memory from my dr. That way I’m not scared by the silence when the sleep paralysis kicks in. Play it quietly so you don’t get annoyed and pick songs that aren’t too distracting. It should just kind of blend in the background. Then I start thinking about memories of my dr and moments. Usually in first person unless I’m looking at photos in my memories. If I nod off, I usually wake up from the unusual position and begin affirming naturally.

Step three: I usually forget I’m affirming and just shift immediately. I open my eyes and then I’m there. Or I get sleep paralysis where I affirm and think I’m there. And I wake up in my dr pretty soon after.

I’ve never failed with this method because I think it just fits well with me. It’s loosely structured and hits all my strengths in visualization, affirmations and so on. So I’d try this for three nights and if it doesn’t work. Apply what did and drop what didn’t. Anyways I’m so excited to shift for the summer to Okinawa. I think this one is just going to be a solo adventure with me and my five dogs. I might permashift from there but I don’t know yet. Does anyone else like to shift for holidays?

Happy shifting lovelies, you got this!