Where's The Andreil Brokeback Mountain Au I Need One

Listen to me when I say this, Kevin and Jean are bitchy and hateful. Do they have every right to be? Absolutely! Stop taking parts of their characters away. Yes they have good intentions and hearts but they’re assholes and thats okay!!

jeremy so far has been the most avoidant pov in the world because what the hell are his issues? he's not even looking directly at them he's looking around them or focusing on everyone else's issues so he doesn't acknowledge his own

like with neil there was immediate acknowledgement with the memory of his mother's burning corpse but jeremy? nothing. is it parental issues? sibling issues? self issues? why was he in therapy? did he do something? did something happen to him? who knows? he does but he's not gonna look at all that when he can look at jean instead

jeremy is neil's 'i'm fine' personified times ten thousand he's so fine he doesn't even need to say it

Neil Josten is an amazing protagonist and here’s why‼️ first off he gets into the juicy stuff from page one! “Oh? Wanna hear about my dead mom? Sure! Why would I lie to myself when I can lie to everyone else?” Also ever read about a character being a bitch and you wanna jump their ass and tell them they’re a stupid bitch? NEIL JOSTEN WILL!! He will not hesitate to go for the damn throat. Abuser you wish would die? Boom he took out a hit on them. Character being a bitch? You know I get it. Also he sees problems and he fixes them‼️ bob the builder ass over here rekindling connections n shit. You see the twinyards and wish, damn wish they would talk to each other, well good for you Neil Josten is going to poke them with a stick until they do!! I just love Neil so bad can you tell…

put neil josten in solitary refinement that man needs to learn some manners

I don't know what the heck is going on and who's Gansey and who's Adam but holy moly I need more (?)

they're so great and gay i love them!!! (okay honestly they're NOT gay at least not for each other but listen. listen. they are. gansey is obsessed with adam and adam is obsessed with gansey but also gansey could offer adam a stick of gum and adam would tear his arm right off with his teeth. they have the most fucked-up and unconditional and messy bond i've ever read in my life but there's also quotes like "hey tiger" and "i am only my money. it is all anyone sees. even adam" and "gansey, his best friend, his stupid and kind and marvelous best friend" and "'treason,' said adam, because he knew it would please gansey" and "yee haw" and "he sort of wished he looked more like the camaro. which was to say, more like adam" and "his breath was all mint leaves and champagne, him and them" and "gansey turned his eyes to adam, who looked more like himself than he had in ages. he silently vowed to do whatever it took to keep him that way" and "if adam was stupid about his pride, then gansey was stupid about adam" and "what do you think i'll see if he dies?" and "'come on, adam.' please. 'we'll make it work'" and "i'm losing him. i'm losing him to cabeswater" and "the bruises he'd come to school with. who has he ever had to love him? ever?" and "you two make a grand couple! kiss him!" and "he was still searching for the only pair of eyes in the room that mattered. where was gansey?" and "you marvelous creature" and gansey egging malory on to talk about birds just so he could see adam laugh, and adam peeing in the woods and gansey wishing he could be that uninhibited, and gansey calling adam a sepia photograph, and adam not hesitating before deciding to use his glendower wish to save gansey despite book one adam having no problem with the idea of taking the wish from gansey so adam could use it for his own purposes, and gansey keeping his and blue's relationship a secret for months so they wouldn't hurt adam, and adam throwing himself into the pentagram when whelk pointed the gun at gansey, and the fact that adam was the one who suggested sacrificing cabeswater's life for gansey's, who suggested sacrificing this entity that adam loved and that loved him right back, that protected him and kept him safe when nothing else in the world would, that helped teach him what unconditional love was, and he sacrificed it to have gansey back, and then the fact that even before cabeswater there was gansey and that gansey was the first person in the entire world to love adam and to treat him like he deserved that love and who hated seeing adam hurt and who risked adam's wrath to beg him and beg him to move out of that trailer because he couldn't stand to see adam bruised and broken, bitch i'm

I hate how the booktokification of the “unhinged woman” genre has completely reduced the concept of female rage to just “girlboss” without taking seriously how important it is to unequivocally portray female rage.

Throughout the history of literature, we’ve been given countless instances of women in despair and in sadness but save for a few writers (take Euripides, for example), we’ve rarely ever been given angry women who aren’t the villains or the foil for the perfect poised passive princess. Female rage has constantly been subdued and erased or warped into “she’s just batshit crazy” in pretty much every society.

And now that publishing and media marketing has reduced women showing rage in books to the “white hypersexual girlboss with a knife”, instead of uplifting the way women are allowed to have more dimension and sympathy in their visible anger than ever in literature, the media still isn’t taking this subgenre seriously.

idk a huge draw of an AFTG tv show/movie for me is how much you could do with the exy games, particularly with there being no dialogue during them. like maybe this is just me and my fixation on soundtracking coming into play here but you really can focus an audience's attention purely through camera work and the music you have playing over it. like for example, during the first game in TFC i'd want most of the focus to be on kevin, because it's the first time we really see him play exy, and it's his huge comeback, and we're seeing him through neil's eyes– this champion who had his game destroyed and pulled himself back. so you focus on kevin visually, and then the soundtrack backs it up, with a song like Hysteria by Muse for example– something that sort of mirrors that part of the story lyrically.

in the final championship game, focus it on neil, again match it to a song (for me this is From Heads Unworthy by Rise Against). in the first ravens game, i'd focus on andrew, and his 137/150 saves with something like Down With The Sickness by Disturbed playing. something that mirrors the characters along with the focus of the game, highlight their playing styles you know

andreil is NOT an 'i can fix him' scenario. neil saw andrew and was like 'hes scary i'm going to let him save my life' and andrew saw neil and said 'hes so fucked up i wonder what happens if i do this' and then took him to the club

the one true 'i can fix him' in all for the game is kateaaron. THAT was a girl seeing a fucked up blond guy and going 'yeah i can fix that'. and she DID. queen.

thinking about kevin day winning his first olympic gold medal.

kevin day who appears to the media as a confident athlete who knows how talented he is. everyone knew the gold medal was only a matter of when he’d get it and not if he gets it— he’s the son of exy after all. they might have seen him a bit stiff in his earlier years and people did not forget about his class i exy interviews in which he confirms he had never been skiing or that the palmetto state foxes’ coach is actually his father— but he has always maintained that kevin day winning smile and his polite composure with the perfect amount of charisma.

but then the US exy team wins the final game at the olympics. it’s the first time he has won the olympic medal and when the final whistle fills his ears, he quite literally drops to his knees, he yells out in celebration, and then when he takes off his helmet he is crying. he has finally done it. he has won the gold medal which he was so determined to win ever since he could remember.

and most people do not know the extend of what he had to sacrifice for it. they don’t realise the extend of how hard he had to work to get back to exy after his hand got broken— both mentally and physically. nor do they know the amount of panic attacks he had to deal with and the same amount of times he had to drown his feelings away with a bottle or three.

and he’s crying. the fans cheer him on. and it’s not just the USA fans— but it feels like the whole stadium starts cheering his name in celebration and support. because at the end of the day that’s kevin day and he has finally done it. he has gotten the medal and it’s literally going to be a historic moment.

andrew makes his way to kevin’s side and he helps kevin take off his gloves like he has done many times before. andrew wants to say something, maybe a remark that will get under kevin’s skin— but then he looks at kevin’s expression and he realises this is all they’ve been building up to for the past years.

and it’s not just kevin who has won the golden medal right now. it’s him too. his team. their team. and they’re all a bit speechless and astonished by this moment. so andrew helps kevin up and neither of them say a word to each other just yet, but kevin feels andrew’s weight shifting into him too— they’re both leaning onto each other; they’re both holding each other up.