I don't know a single disabled person who hasn't been traumatized in at least one way by the medical system. Moreover, how are we supposed to heal from our medical trauma when it is continuously reinforced? I act differently in medical spaces because of my medical PTSD to the point I used to have selective mutism in those spaces (it's much better now). But I was treated horribly because of the selective mutism and trauma responses, making my PTSD worse. How can doctors be okay with re-traumatizing someone who already has severe medical PTSD? How can doctors be okay with not being educated on medical PTSD or gaslighting? How can they be okay with ultimately making our lives, care, and trauma worse??? The lack of understanding around medical trauma is unacceptable, especially because of how incredibly prevalent it is.
breaking news: attention-seeking jirai girl (me) has killed herself after recieving no attention on the internet β‘
i wish you wanted, craved and needed me the way i need you.
i wish you could also feel your organs writhe when we're not talking,
when we're not together,
when we don't exist in the same space and at the same time.
reassurance kink bc my brain makes me feel unlovable
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does anyonw want to play surgery. with me
Dr Ignoreitandhopeitgoesaway does make some good points
if youβre a wheelchair user who takes the bus i wish you an easy time getting on and off and no one arguing about you needing the space
so how do i earn money while rotting in bed?
I wanna kms fr.
tumblr let me post my pics from my walk last night challenge
okokok so
its been almost 2 weeks????? since me and my fp last had an actual conversation. i tried reaching out but they just ignored it and keep sending me fuckin memes and instagram posts and ignoring my message π
i feel like i've already gone through the fucking 7 stages of grief with this mf and now i don't know if i care what they choose to do, so now im just wondering:
do i attempt to reach out again somehow and if so what the fuck do i say? OR do i just abandon ship and give up the entire friendship and see what happens-
I think everything is just supposed to be fucking miserable all the time.